So life is filled with our expectations and disappointments. I'm trying really hard to teach myself how not to expect what I know I deserve, yet the disappointments I feel are so strong that I can't handle the feelings. So I feel like I'm living in the middle of a very busy highway with non-stop traffic. I don't know which way to go...I realize the hurt, I feel it as if it was really physically stricking me, but I just don't want to give up and get off. It is so difficult when reality is one thing, your heart is telling you another, your common sense is trying for you to realize your situation and yet your ying/yang cannot agree. One day you feel you're on top of the world, only to wake up the next and have reality slap you around with the fact that you are last man on the totum pole. Your legs and arms cannot withstand the weight of all those above you on the totum pole so your heart kicks in and stands strong....like a brick wall...holding, encouraging, and offering a light at the end of the tunnel.
WHAT WE SEE DEPENDS MAINLY ON WHAT WE LOOK FOR- John Lubbock
There is no man blinder than that which doesn't want to see-
WHATEVER WE EXPECT WITH CONFIDENCE BECOMES OUR OWN SELF-FULFILLING PROPHECY-Brian Tracy
Weigh in is tomorrow. Although I haven't been eating bad, I do realize that it is not like before. Nothing is like before, wish I could find it again....I so miss it.
I wish I could just reach out and hug you. Clearly there are things going on in your life you are having difficulty with. I hope it helps you to be able to share your feelings with us.
Good luck at WI tomorrow. I'll be rooting for you!
Although I don't know what you're going through, I can imagine, we've all had those ups and downs, those joys and disppointments. What I have come to realize and accept is that there aren't good things and bad things that happen, but instead just things. what may seem like a bad thing ends up working out for the best or leads your life in an unexpected positive direction. I know it might be annoying to hear when you're living that disappointment but things do happen for a reason.
wishing for you to find peace and balance in your life at this difficult time...
Good luck at your WI. I hope you do well. Also, I understand exactly how you are feeling. I don't know your situation but I do know that same feeling. It is really difficult. I don't have any advice as to how to overcome it but I just try to keep in mind my goals. They keep me going. I hope you did well!
is heart wrenching and most of us can emphatize. One tries so hard to improve oneself and one's life in the grand realm of things and then something happens and you're pushed back, not just to the place you were before but then if feels even further back. The only thing I can offer you is that it will pass and tomorrow will be brighter. The disappointment will be huge because the illusion of a better life was felt so much at a given time and then you crash down. IT WILL GET BETTER. When you crash you are surrounded by negativity and so everything will look bleaker and things may not be as bad.
