11/08/2009 05:37
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so yes.. it has been a long time.. to long! not having a computer really sucks along with not having a kitchen to cook food it! oh man this is getting so freakin out of control it is nuts! I was at 110 lbs lost ONE HUNDRED TEN!! and now im back up to 305 great! i really really really dont want to get back to 355.. my living situation has to change it just has to! I dont know what to do.. we are planning on moving back to arizona in july well my husband and daughter would go july i would go november.. but thats a freakin year away so do i just sit here and watch the scale go up for another year?? its been two years we have lived here.. a little over actually.. and 60 lbs.. sweet.. in case you dont know.. we live at my mother in laws origionally we thougth our house in az would sell and we would get our own place well yah market crashed and we are stuck.. its benn TWOOOO years! yah.. no fun.. there is a kitchen but its just not worth all the trouble using it.. its not my house not my rules if you get my drift.. so yah.. no kitchen.. limited amount of use of even the microwave..so what do you do in that situation.. you eat out.. now i ask where is it cheap to eat out? fast food.. dollar menu! right? so yah thats it folks.. my 60 lb weight gain.. i knew what i was doing its not like i had no idea but still.. gerr anyways so here i am at a place where i need to decide what to do.. either i sit and gain or i get up and work my ass off.. i might not be able to control my living situation but i can control how much i work out! right.. ok so i started this 12 week weight loss challenge with a couple friends.. its with this trainer and so far so good.. today was the first class.. you get a cash reward if you win so thats a huge goal! so yah.. it did cost $100 to do it but if it works its worth it! I just want to get back to where i was when i moved here at 246 then i can breathe and keep going.. its going to take awhile! *sigh* so here i am.. in all realness.. i hate the way i look right now.. i want my american eagle pants to fit again! i want that joy i had when they did fit! i want to feel beautiful.. so yes.. here i go 12 weeks.. wish me luck.. im going to kick som ass! you know im winning this thing right lol.. ;O)
Trish