01/16/2009 10:31
I can't do this
I am so sick of starting over so sick of feeling like I've failed. I want the voice telling me I can't do this to stop! I'm driving home from a late movie and I'm like humm I want to eat! Naww I'm not hungry. Well maybe 2 tacos from jack in the box that's not to bad only 6 points! Lol I'm like well I don't have cash and I don't want to charge $1 so I search my purse and find a dollar in change but the line was really long so forget that. Oh I know a jr whoper! That's a buck ok burger king it is! Remember I'm not hungry actually my stomache hurts from all the popcorn and candy I ate at the movie! Ok so ohhh I want frys burger king has my fav frys. I will use my card and get a whoper jr and large frys! I know my stomache hurts the holy spirit is screaming in my ear to stop! But I don't listen. Then I scarf it down as if the faster I eat it the less damage it will do ya right. So I lye here in bed mad dissapointed just frustrated! I quit weight watchers yet again! When I lived in arizona doing ww was great! But here I have no kitchen so its freakin hard!! Like if I'm craving tacos I can't just make healthy ones I have to buy some and to eat low point I don't get that many then I'm hungry still and mad so I binge! Its this cycle! I don't want to gain all my weight back I really don't! I want to get back where I was when I moved here! I just really don't think I can! How do u motivate yourself and how do u eat out healthy and cheap? I'm so tired!
Trish
Posted By: Big Fat LOOSER
01/16/2009 03:51
Me too
I so know how you feel. I do the same things all the time. Eating right and exercising makes sense in my head but I can never get it done. My head always decides to tell me it's ok to eat 2 brownies, or it's ok to eat out today and why not super size it you've been good. I always feel like a failure. I feel like I need someone to constantly ask me what I've done to keep me in line. if not I won't do it. I tell my husband to fuss at me when I eat something I know I am not suppose to but he won't. Ugh! I believe it will get better. We can do it!!!
01/20/2009 04:46
STOP
Hun, first things first, you have got to stop beating yourself up, and start loving yourself, flaws and all. Just because you slip doesn't mean you fall, and if you fall it doesn't mean you just lay there. What do you do, you get right back up and keep on going. When you give in like you do each time you slip up, you become your own worst enemy and beat yourself into the ground.
I don't know if you have tried any kind of diet pill or not. But when I first started out I felt the way you do. If I didn't see a loss or I slipped up then I just didn't feel like I was worth it and figured I couldn't do it and I would be obese the rest of my life. I went to my doctor and told him I needed something to help me kick start my diet and to help me train my body and mind into a set eating schedule. So he started me on Fastin for 3 months, and I spoke with a nurtritionist. Now 9 months later, I am 43 pounds away from my goal.
Don't get me wrong it's been hard as hell, and there have been days I have wanted to quit. There have also been days that I have given in to temptation, but I don't quit, I refuse to live my life like this, and even though there is a story or plan for my life already written, that doesn't mean that I can't control the character. You can too.
Forgive yourself, love yourself, and be good to you. Think positive, and it will come all in due time.
Best of luck and best wishes,
Kami
