ok so i went to my weight watcher meeting expecting to loose this week! I had an awesome week.. I did not fall into a LOT of temptations I said NO a lot!! I did have a bad day yesterday but that was it! I know I shouldnt have ate pizza and ice cream yesterday but we were out and I had done sooooo good all week I thought it would be ok! I worked out a lot this week to.. But I gained! yup .2 lbs this week so in the last 2 weeks it is .8 thats almost a pound wich wouldnt be bad on a normal basis but im working my ass off.. trying sooo freakin hard.. its really frustrating! So I left my meeting in tears I didnt even stay for the meeting.. im so angry.. I have a choice.. i can either say F it.. and just quit.. or I can make it make me try harder.. so im going to give it one more week.. im going to work my ass off and eat really well ALL week.. if I dont loose then im done.. we shall see.. I hope everyone has a better day then me..... ttyl
*sigh* ok so im trying this week.. really really trying and Im doing a great job! lets see it was umm sun night i got in a fight kinda with my hubby.. yah fun.. then monday and hes still in a bad mood.. whatever.. ok so mon night he throws a fit about not getting anything he wants.. ok i understand his frustration but then he gets mad cuz there is nothing to eat.. ok well budget is really tight so we are just eating whats in the house and hes not use to that.. ok so he wants pizza.. yah I have been CRAVING pizza for weeks now and havent fell into the temptation.. yah so he wants pizza.. throws a fit about it so I go get him a stupid pizza.. I had to get it... smell it the whole way home and then sit in bed and watch him eat it.. SWEET! I am very proud to say I DID NOT EAT ANY OF THAT #*#*$*$#(W&(@*&@(#*&@*(&#*@( pizza!!!! Thank you LORD!!! I sat there and did my workbook for loose it for life.. it was soooo freakin hard but I did it.. :O) WOO HOOO FOR ME! lol.. if you know me then you know that was sooo hard.. I wanted to CRY!! seriously.. i was so frustrated!! But I did it.. I desirve stars today! :O) ok there are no stars so hearts lol... Send me some hearts damn it LOL.. so my feelings for the day... men suck lol.. hope you have a great day!
So I gained .6 this week.. blaaa yes thats POINT 6 haha.. could have been 6 lol but its not.. so Im still down the 15 that I have lost in ww this round haha.. Its ok.. i will get it off this week.. I knew I would gain and actually it wasnt as much as I thought and I prob didnt even gain cuz I was soooo soar when I weighed in from working out yes at the gym woo hooo.. and I know when you are soar you are retaining water so therefore weigh more.. so yah.. we will see what the scale says on friday.. im going to change my wi day to friday so i will be missing a day this week.. that sucks.. but fri works better for me.. sometimes on sat I have to take my daughter with me to weigh in and i dont like to.. she is super skinny and the last thing she needs is tips on how not to eat! So yah.. plus its nice to have my weigh ins all to myself..
Im reading this book loose it for life... has anyone read it? Im also doing the workbook it comes with.. i love it.. it puts a christian spin on things really makes you think.. Im only like 3 chapters into it.. its a slow read.. cuz you read a chapter then do the workbook that is like a chapter a week or so.. and sometimes i do miss a day lol.. but its good.. you should check it out.. i got it on amazon.. cheaper that way! I am really trying to focus on myself.. it is a chore to me cuz I am so focused on everyone else all the time.. its so hard to put myself first.. im trying.. I NEED to or I will die.. seriously.. if I dont get this weight off I will die early.. and I dont want that.. I need to put myself first and go to the gym instead of thinking ohhh well the husband will be home and want me there ohhh the kid needs me home.. ohhhh i need to do this or that for this person.. NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I need to go to the gym for MEEEEEEEE!! I made myself a deal... if I go to the gym just twice a week for one month or just workout.. doesnt have to be the gym but a real workout.. then I get to buy new workout shoes!! Much needed.. lol.. I dont like to buy myself things either lol.. so this will be good! I can do this.. 2 times a week.. thats all! :O) lol pray for me haha.. so yah..
Well here is to an awesome week... weight loss or not.... I shall check in soon..
So this week has been rough.. I dont know what my deal is but it seams like every month there are a couple days where I am really depressed.. So yah these past couple of days have been the days for this month.. I dont know if it has to do with my hormones or something but its really frustrating.. During these "depressed days" of corse all I want to do is eat! Then when I do it seams like nothing makes me happy or "satisfys" me.. so yah.. I have no idea what to expect on the scale on saturday.. Im Praying for some sort of loss.. I want a 3.3 this week but im sure thats not going to happen.. I have had some really bad days this week.. Yesterday and today have been really good and I am planning on going to the gym tonight but I was also planning on it last night and didnt go lol.. So yah.. we shall see..I think I just need well time away... and I am getting it in two weeks! Woo hoo I am finally going back to az to check on the house and get some much needed rest while I am there! I hope everyone is having a great week! I will write soon..
So I made up for my gain last week! Lost 3.4 this week woo hoo.. still not as much as I wanted but hey its all good.. So about this weekend.. yahhhhhhh not so good haha.. I ate and ate and ate.. not good things either.. im struggling.. thats for sure! Its like this 15-20 lbs I loose it then gain it then loose it then gain it lol.. its not good.. so im "trying" to keep it off this time and keep going! blaaaaaa.. why does chocolate have to taste so good! haha.. im at work and there is candy everywhere! ohh and i made cupcakes with this little one too.. yah.. its fun but yah not for my belly haha.. so here is to a better week! :O) I need strength!!!!!!!!!!! have a great one!
Ok so yah.. it was bound to happen and here it is.. lol.. I gained like 2. something lbs this week.. my weight in was on sat so hopefully i am down a little by now.. I also started my period today so I am sure that has a lot to do with the gain.. I still couldnt help but being really frustrated and sad.. I just had a bad week in life not really to bad with food just life.. and well to add a gain on top of it was just no fun.. so yah.. anyways so far this week has been awsome! Except the bday cake I ate yesterday for my husbands birthday lol... other then that!! lol.. I went to the 49er game yesterday and watched my husband eat a huge sausage and chili cheese nachos.. yup.. didnt eat any.. ok I had ONE TINY bite of the sausage I prob would have ate more if it didnt have that hot mustard on it lol.. so that was good.. I did though have a huge piece of cake and it was good.. then I got the worst stomache ache lol.. oh well.. im not craving cake anymore haha... ok for now lol.. so yah.. Im hoping for a big loss this week we shall see what happens.... I hope everyone is doing good! Talk to you soon..
I love knowing that someone out there cares lol.. silly i know but it is so good to get comments of encouragement.. what would we do without them I know we would fail lol.. Thank you all for always commenting! I agree with you on the "me time" lol I did that last sat I got my hair done and then got my nails done all 20 lol.. and then did laundry hahaha It so funny like you try to do something for yourself but then think oh crap i have no socks lol.. and you KNOW no one else is going to do it haha.. so yah.. I guess this is the life of a wife / mom... Its a hard one but I guess sometimes at least for a moment you get a glimps of how great it is.. Even if the "greatness" is not as often as the bad haha.. I am still tired.. but doing better.. I am working today on my day off.. but thats ok its extra money for ME to spend this weekend! So thats exciting cuz it is RARE that I have money haha I mean that isnt for grocerys or laundry or whatever.. so it will be fun.. the funniest part though is im taking cassie (my daughter) to the pumpkin farm on sat and I know we will spend most of it there haha.. Only woman can get joy of spending money on theself by spending it on others lol.. funny huh.. my husband doesnt get it.. hes like go to the mall and spend it im like NOOO i want pumpkins!! and lunch!! lol.. Speaking of pumpkins I have been CRAVING pumpkins! Im not a huge fan of pumpkin pie but man latly thats all I want! Or pumpkin BREAD!! have you been to starbucks latly?? oh man its EVERYWHERE! So today I broke and got a grande pumpkin latte I thought that was a better choice then bread lol.. I got no whip and only drank like half cuz I was kinda dissapointed.. but yah..so I still have the craving.. WW has this recipe for pumpkin chocolate muffins.. all you do is buy a box of chocolate cake mix and add one can of pumpkin to it instead of the oil and eggs and water.. well you bake it and it makes muffins that come out to about 3 pts each so the prob for me is and this is why i havent made them "yet" you make 12 lol.. so thats 36 points lol.. cuz i am craving it so bad that i wont be able to stop eating them lol.. so my "poa" plan of action is to maybe make them friday night and bring them to the farm on sat then EVERYONE can eat them! not just me!!!! :O) yes I know I am sooooooooooo smart lol.. so I will let you know how that goes! :O) I hope everyone is having a great day! I will ttyl
of EVERYTHING... Why does life have to get so hard.. why do we get thrown these curve balls every now and again.. in my case everyday! Im so tired.. Tired of living in ca tired of not having my own space... tired of having problems with my husband tired at work tired of always trying to please everyone else and not getting to please myself! tired of always being second or third in everyones life! Its just driving me nuts.. Im having a bad day if you havent guessed... so yah.. *sigh* I just want to give up.. on everything.. let it all go.. im tired of being so strong.....
So I dont know why I do this.. Its like im ment to sabatoge myself.. I have a GREAT weigh in and then my brain switches and all I do is eat eat eat.. Doesnt matter if im hungry or not.. its driving me nuts.. this is the point where I usually gain it all back.. gerr I dont want to.. Its only day 4 of my week and i feel like I have totally failed.. I have ate 3 times now where I was so full it hurt.. I understand we all do that once it a while but 3 times this week is NOT ok.. gerr I need to get out of this rutt and focus focus focus.. Im going to my moms for dinner tonight.. yahh mistake! she is making swedish meatballs and rice.. white rice lol.. and fatty meatballs lol.. not good.. I am trying to get myself ready for only having a couple and focusing more on the veggies but I know i am going to be starving cuz I ate lunch at 11 and i wont eat dinner till like 730 yahhhhh gerrr i dont know how I am ever going to get to my goal.. it just seams soooo far away!!!
So it has been a month back on weight watchers and I am happy to say I am down a little over 14 lbs for the month!! WOO HOOO Im excited! I had set a mini goal of getting 10 off by halloween and I am 4 lbs there and 2 weeks to go! so I gotta hit 2 more weigh ins of 3 lbs each! Its doable lets just see how bad I want it lol... Im doing good.. still trying really hard not to eat lol.. man it is such a struggle every min of the day isnt it.. *sigh* I hope everyone has a great week! talk to you soon..
ok there are no stars so hearts lol... Send me some hearts damn it LOL.. so my feelings for the day... men suck lol.. hope you have a great day!