I guess I have been a lil MIA lately. I cant really say I have been busy cause I dont have a job, I just dont really have much to write about. BUT I need to write because I found when I dont write on a regular basis I fall off the wagon. I havent been to the gym at all this month. Now I havent gained any weight back and in fact I have lost but I could have lost alot more if I kept working out.Tomorrow I am getting back to the gym and staying there. However I think I am only going to work out 4 days a week because I think if I try to do 6 like I ws I will get burnt out again. I think 4 is a good number.
June 15th I am starting a class for medical receptionist. Its so hard to find a job and I am hoping this lil class will help me. They offer job placement so I figure with my exp w. office work this class will just be the extra help I need. I hope so cause I need to get out of this basement apt and back out on my own. I hate not having my own apt. My mom is getting on my nerves more then ever before. We have never gotten along and this is just getting worse and worse. We've never had a daughter mother relationship In fact I cant even recall the last time she has told me she loved me and no its not that she just isnt one of those moms who says it alot because she tells my brothers and my sister every time they get off the phone or see eachother...I dont even know why I am writing about this guess I just had to get it off my chest and I'd rather write then stuff my face ( HEY thats a plus!!! lol )..

Anyways Amiya is pretty much potty trained once she was "ready" she picked it up really fast. She still wears pull ups at night and when we go out to the store. Although I have slowly been taking her out in public with out a pull up

depending on where we are going and she is doing pretty good with it.

 

Well I guess I'll write later

 

 

Today I was feeling soo lazy. I feel like once one little thing happens that isnt "planned" it messes up my entire day.. I went to get up to go to the gym and my friend called seeing if I could babysit because her sons aunt was MIA and she was late for class so I said yea since all her family was in NY. Well I had him from 10 till 3:30 and I got nothing done. He just crys and crys unless you hold him ( so different from Amiya ) so when she came and got him I still wasnt showered and in such a blah mood. I did not want to go to they gym at all my TOM wont seem to go away and i just wanted to shower and go to bed. In fact thats what I was going to do I even layed out my PJs for when I got out of the shower. But while I was in the shower I thought to myself ok I might not feel like working out but thats when i need to do it the most so I stay motivated. A year from now I wont remember not wanting to go to the gym, I wont remember how tired I was and it wont kill me if I go Soooo I got out of the shower and I put on my gym clothes and I went. And let me tell you it was a great work out. It started off bad - meaning I had a bad attitude and I didnt want to be there- but then I was just like whatever I am going to give it my all and I did and now I feel GREAT. Im so glad I got over my little lazy moment. Im glad i didnt let me not working out in the morning ruin my day because working out at night is better than nothing- I have this thinking that working out in the morning is better for you I have no idea why I think that but I do, so when I miss a morning work out my mind thinks the whole day is ruined lol - So I am happy

Also I found out my pell grant is good for my summer semester and I will have about 1K left over after tuition and books so I can finally get my own labtop. And tomorrow my unemployment should be in my account which is a good thing because I lost my job and I have bills that automatically get taken out from my account sooo Im about-78$ now in my account UGHHHHHH but hopefully tomorrow it will be all fixed..

 

Anyways super excited about Biggest Loser Im upset w. who got sent home this week but Im excited for te finale to see everyone I think we have one more week and then the finale but Im still excited

So today I started back at the gym and it felt sooo good! I got up at 615 and worked out for about 1.5 hours then tonight I finally went to the step aerobics class and let me tell you it kicked my butt! I looked like a fool and messed up on basically all the steps but I worked up a really good sweat like my shirt was soaking wet its gross but at the same time it felt good to know I worked out so hard. Even if I looked like a fool and didnt know what I was doing I was moving and moving equals burning calories. Also I didnt go over my points at all today so I was excited about that!!!

yup you read that right.. last wend I got layed off my job.. I was upset at first but now Im looking on the brighter side, its a brand new start. I filed unemployment, and will probably stay on unemployment for a couple months. I want to take this time to stay home with my daughter focus on school and get Amiya potty trained. I know some people dont agree with it but I see it as I have been paying taxes since I was 16, I have never cheated the system and its not like I will just be sitting @ home doing nothing,I wont even be collecting any sort of welfare just my unemployment benifits... I will still be going to school so I dont have to have another dead end job and its going to be nice to spend time w. my daughter and focus on school.... Anyways I had to go to NY for my brothers wife babyshower and Easter and to go to a memorial for the victims of the shooting ( Im from Binghamton) anyways after all of that I was certain I gained.. My WW wi is on Sunday but that was easter so I went today.. and I am down 1.2 I was soooo happy with that because  I didnt record my points or work out and I ate alot of junk. but I didnt go to over board.. how patetic is this I had to spray my candy with perfume so I wouldnt eat any more lol... But time for bed I will try to catch up on everyones blogs tomorrow!!!

So I think I had a really good week. Today I had my Weigh In at Weight Watchers, I was really nervouse because alot went on this week and I know your body does crazy things under Stress.. My best friend from NY came you knwo the kind... Super Skiny that loves to eat out and can eat anything. I did really good though we ate out 3 times and went to cold stone 2 times!!! But I did good and didnt give in to all the bad foods and I pickes the healthier stuff. One trip to Cold Stone I had a fruit smoothy instead of ice cream but the second time I had the like it size so im happy about that I didnt deprive my self but I didnt go over board either.. Also Im sure most of you heard about the shooting in Binghamton NY. Where the man went into a building and killed 13 then himself. Well Binghamton is the town I am from- I was so worried because for the longest they wouldnt give the names of the victims matter of fact I didnt find out the names until today and sadly one of the victims was a regular fill in teacher at my high school when I went. I am so upset about this whole thing and now that I have found out I know one of the victims my stress and emotions just got worse. She was the sweetest old lady. She was 72 and was still teaching! She was just a filling in at the civic center that day she wasnt even supposed to be there. Its just a sad day for alot of people in Binghamton but I am proud of myself because I usually eat my feelings and this week I didnt. So not only did I do good with my friend in town I also did good waiting to find out what happened in Binghamton and who the victims were.. I lost 3.2 lbs So I am very excited for that! Anyways Im just going to ask if you can keep all the victims and thier family & friends in your prayers. Even the shooters family because im sure they are going through alot having to deal with the fact that someone in their family is responsible for taking 13 lives then his own.