Ok, so yesterday I was really good about what I ate. I measured my foods, counted fat grams and calories, and managed to save enough room for my daughter's birthday cake and a little ice cream. This did put me over calories a tad, but I was under on fat grams and so I was so proud of myself. But then after the kids were all in bed, and I had nobody to talk with and wasn't tired enough to go to sleep...they hit. The late night munchies! I ended up drinking two glasses of water in hopes this would satisfy me. Nope. I tried going to bed. That didn't work. So I finally ended up eating a Rice Krispies Square which had 3 fat grams and 100 calories. That sorta satisfied me, but I did go to bed still wanting something, tossed and turned, and woke up with a headache.
It hit me last night just how often I eat food loaded with fat, carbs, and the like at night. I thought counting fat grams would help, but I actually found out that during the day, I don't overeat fat. I overeat fat and carbs at night. I guess I need to work on a low carb and low fat plan for snacks!! I just don't want to feel deprived. And I don't want to lose steam on this journey to weight loss. I'd welcome any suggestions. Thanks.
Because so many of you asked: Snap is a gym that is open 24-7 with no contracts and they offer personalized websites, free $100 fitness consultations, free personal wellness plan, etc. They have a brand new site just about 7 blocks away from my house, and are opening more and more nationwide. They can be found at: http://www.snapfitness.com/
Gosh I sound like an ad! LOL Anyways, I am not sure if I will go with them or Curves which is located about 7 miles from my home. While it might not seem like far, it really is a long drive there and I can see myself making excuses not to go. Plus Curves has limited hours and Snap is open 24 hours. No excuses there eh?
I lost a pound and a half...woohoo! And I have been so so bad the past couple of days too. I also have an appointment at Curves this week and one at Snap Fitness so that I can figure out which one I am going to join. I asked my hubby what he thought about my joining and he was totally for it...woohoo! I think he realizes I'll have even more energy for sex hee hee. So, the week is going to be starting out right! Yah me!!!
I will be in that sexy underwear before long! Gooooo me! :)
So I am getting dressed this morning, and my hunky hubby is home (hee hee!) and as I am putting on my clothes, it hits me. I want to wear sexy underwear. Not a thong cuz I don't like the idea of those. Not a g-string but just something sexy and something that isn't HUGE. I want something lacy and racy and I want to be able to go to Victoria's Secret and buy it right off the rack. I don't want to have to order it online so I can find my size. Nope, I want sexy underwear. For my hubby? Sure...but mainly for me. :) Sexy sexy sexy sexy sexy sexy underwear. Siiiiiiiiigh.
So today is the last day of January. I may not have lost the weight like I wanted but I did make some changes this month that are putting me on the road to success. Baby steps! So here are my mini goals for Feb:
1. Lose 8-10 pounds
2. Post my measurements online at the first of the month and the end (not sure how many inches I should be losing but anything will be good right?)
3. Join a gym and start working out at least 3x per week.
Ok that's it for now...but I think those are great for me. Thanks for checking in and supporting me. It really really helps. Peace!!
It began so innocently. Who would have guessed that it would turn into...this! It all began with an occasional tryst late at night or a quickie at lunch just to keep things exciting. So intoxicating and oh so satisfying. But then it turned into an almost obsession.
Late night trysts led to afternoon delights and happy hour quickies. Soon it was before work dalliances and weekend long rendezvous. Before I knew it, I was head over heals in love with you. My mind fantasized about our next meeting and my belly ached for you inside of me. I longed for you.......I needed you.....and then, the unthinkable! I found I had to choose between you and my own life.
You betrayed me in a most unforgiveable way. Our love was toxic to me, and you didn't care. You no longer loved me because you had eyes on your next paramour. And here I am, left battered and confused. Every corner reminds me of you and the love affair we once had. When I look into the mirror, all I see is you....on my face, my hips, my thighs, my tummy and my breasts. What I thought was so sweet and wonderful was really deadly. Walking away is going to be so hard, but I know I will find love again...and this time it will caress me and nurture me.
So goodbye FF.... you have no control over me now. I am free of you and I am going to spread my wings and fly. No matter how much you beg me to come back, I am SO over you. I deserve better. And I plan to get what I deserve. So goodbye, au revoir, adios, so long Fast Food!
The truth of the matter is, I lied. To you and to myself above all. I haven't been faithfully following any plan whatsoever lately except the one that got me into trouble, aka fat. The weight loss probably was just due to all the water I was drinking. I mean really, shouldn't I have lost far more than a measly 3.5 pounds this month?
Sure, I added more of the clean foods to my diet, but that didn't stop me from going to DQ and McD's a few times with my kids....ok probably a half dozen times. And I was not much more active than I normally would be. Which isn't very active at all. And isn't that one of the reasons I wanted to lose the weight? So I could play more with my kids?
I'm so darn mad at myself right now because I really do want this yet I know that my weight is the one thing I can control, and when one's life feels so out of control......well I guess I just hang on to it. Sigh. I read everyone else's successes and am so happy for them and am jealous at the same time. How do you do it?
I thought my teen would be supportive as she has gained a lot of weight but she doesn't seem to care much, until it is swimsuit season. My husband's job takes him out of town for 2 to 12 days at a time, so he isn't here to support me with this, and I really am just alone. I don't work as I am a stay-at-home mom and all my "friends" have lives of their own with school and work and their families. My family lives hours away. I have never felt this alone in all of my life. So no wonder I hold onto the weight and eat the comfort food.
Sure I should be celebrating the loss of 3.5 pounds but I don't seem to be able to focus on that. I have a long history which includes being physically and emotionally abused by my ex husband, stress of a stepchild with FAE, PTSD and Reactive Attachment Disorder, and several other stressors which have left me battered and confused. I take generic prozac every day and am also on high bp meds. I want to get off of them but the prozac is the only thing that keeps me sane at times. To know me, you would never guess that I have this inner struggle as I carry myself well. To know me well, you would realize how hurt I am and ... gosh maybe I shouldn't be posting this as it really is private. I just need to admit it to myself. So here goes.
Well since some of you have asked, I thought I would share with you where I got my newest VMs. I went to: http://www.mvm.com and then I made a model up with clothes, background, and the features I wanted (hair color, weight, etc) and then I right clicked on the model and clicked on Save Pic As. I did this for my weight now and for my weight at goal. It was fun cuz you can look at side views, back views, and front views. And there are tons of clothes to try in including underwear, swimwear, casual, elegant, etc. Then I just uploaded them to the site and voila! There I was!
I have long hair but often wear it up in a pony and thought that look best reflected the weight and the weight loss I am hoping for. So good luck to you all...have fun!!!
Hi, has anyone out there tried Curves? I am thinking about joining because I like the idea of working out with women who are like minded, rather than a co-ed gym where so many are there just to check out members of the opposite sex.
Anyways, would love to hear if anyone else has tried this and had any success. Thanks!
I cannot believe it .... but on vacation, I managed to lose a pound!! Oh yeah oh yeah!
::Doing the happy dance::
Well, it certainly was a fun time. Although there was a ton of snow in Boston so we were not able to get out and see many of the sites. BUT we found lots to do when the weather is nicer and we plan to go back in the late spring or early summer. I tried to make smart choices when we ate out like yummy salads with loads of fresh veggies and not so much dressing. I didn't eat much junk either, because I was smart and packed a bunch of nutritious snacks. Nobody felt deprived. Isn't that amazing?
And while I did not get to read my new book on clean eating, I am planning to do so today and tomorrow while the kids nap. Either way...a pound down! Yeah me!!! Peace :)
