My visit to the therapist
Hi, so I went to see the therapist yesterday. I asked her why I wasn't able to do the holdings that need to be done with my son to help him. I feel awful as a parent that I am not giving him what he needs right now. She explained that everyone, even me, needs someone to hold them at times. And with my husband gone most of the month, I don't get that. It is different than when I am holding my children and snuggling. I need someone to hold ME. So she prescribed this: when James is home next, kids go to daycare or a friends for the day while we spend the day in bed...snuggling and whatever. Sounds absolutely delicious to me.
We also realized the medication I take for depression is either not working well anymore or is not in the right dose given my current state of stress. I have all the classic symptoms of depression: irritability, hopelessness, negative self-talk, inability to sleep at night, feeling tired all day, etc. DUH! So I have an appointment on Monday to meet with my doctor to discuss my medication AND to get her feedback and guidance on how best for me to lose weight. I feel good that I have a plan of action for a change.
I also have joined SparkPeople and it is really a wonderful site. People are super supportive there, just like here, and it has a lot of helpful information on all sorts of subjects. I honestly think between here and there, I have a real chance at doing this.
Today I am still sick with the bug my littlest one passed on to me. I have a headache, sore throat, runny nose, and just general malaise. So I took the kids to daycare, am snuggling up in my blanket on the couch, drinking some tea, and hoping to get some zzz's.
Hey, thanks to everyone for their prayers, kind thoughts, and support. It really means a lot to me.