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How I am finding the "me" I know I am

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  • Name: Duckyduckydoo
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10/06/2008 13:02

Stop the insanity!

Years ago I remember trying to follow a fitness plan by a woman who titled her book "Stop the Insanity".  And while I cannot for the life of me remember who she is or much of what she said, I do remember that one line.  STOP THE INSANITY. 

As I see it, here's my life:  I love my husband.  I love my children.  I love my extended family.  I think that I am a nice gal, loyal and helpful friend, caring and nurturing mom, and devoted wife and daughter.  But obviously somewhere inside of me is a negativity which needs to be evaluated and crushed. And these negative voices are driving me bonkers because I have allowed them to rule my life.  Somehow I have to find a way to stop the insanity. 

Awhile ago I read this quote and it hit home:

How can I love somebody else
If I can't love myself enough to know
When it's time,
Time to let go - Mary J. Blige.

So here is my plan:

  • See the therapist at least twice per month to discuss the negative voices inside my mind which seem to dictate my eating, exercise, and general motivations.
  • Be honest with myself and the therapist about what triggers me and really find out what is so loveable about myself.
  • Use my AB Lounge 4x per week minimum.
  • Plan meals and shopping list once per week to minimize straying AND to save money for my vacation.
  • Blog a minimum of 4x per week to keep myself honest and motivated.

    ****For those who asked, no I didn't call Jenny yet although I really want to do that and am still planning on it.  I just haven't had the extra cash...and when we did get some extra money, we went ahead and booked the anniversary cruise in Hawaii for 2010. Yahoo!  Now, we aren't actually going on our anniversary (July 1) because it was better for us to go in August, but it is still for our anniversary and we will renew our vows in Hawaii.  And that alone is reason enough to get off my butt and get healthy...right?  Just know, this is not the motivation for me.  It is more like the reward.  

     

     

    • Posted By: Duckyduckydoo
    Comments to this post:
    10/06/2008 02:00

    Therapy

    I have never gone to therapy before.  Have you and has it worked for you in the past?  I always watch those shows where people "get to the root of it all" and things are better, but I always wonder if there are in "roots" in my tree of fat?  Thanks for your post.

    Posted By: Lees Losin Lbs
    10/06/2008 05:54

    Glad!

    Wonderful post hun.  Susan Powers was her name I think!

    Your plan seems great.  As you know therapy helped me realise WHY I was sabotaging my weight loss efforts.

    Posted By: raspberrycordial
    10/08/2008 09:59

    You Can Do It!

    I know you can do it sweetie.  Therapy helped me in the past as well and I know it is going to help me to get through what is going on in my life now.  I remember "Stop the insantiy" too.  and Rasberry is right it was Susan Power or Powter.  You will do this and you will be a beautiful bride in Hawaii. 

    Posted By: Roze



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