Choice of when to weigh myself.

Thanks Tulips for your opinion on the weighing daily or once a week. I'm taking your advice and I've decided to weigh myself once a week.  I hope that has a better effect on my weight loss. I know weighing myself daily was also making me crazy. This idea is much better, it'll still be hard to not get on the scale everyday. I'll be tempted!

I chose Sunday's for my weekly weigh-ins because I weighed myself today. So everyweek from today I will weigh myself. Sunday will be my day. Either for sadness or excitment.

Rewards

I hear that having rewards after an accomplishment will help you stay on track. So I decided I would make a list of anything that I could come up with for our accomplishments.

1. Pedicure
2. Massage
3. A new outfit
4. The day off of work
5. An evening out with your loved one or friends
6. A small vacation
7. A new pair of shoes or that purse you've been looking at
8. A trip to the spa
9. Any item that you've been wanting to buy

Just make sure your reward is NOT food. The whole idea is to get away from these food thoughts buy rewarding yourself with items, a night out, or a day off.

So I've decided that I would reward myself every small goal. Right now I have a goal of losing 14lbs in the next two months. My reward will not be a new outfit hence I probably wouldn't have gone down any sizes. I think I will choose either a pedicure or I will go shopping to see if there is anything I'd love to have.

First official day on my lifestyle change.

Well, today is officially day #1 on my lifestyle change. I'm kind of scared since I don't know much about health and how much I should eat, what I should stay away from. I'll have to learn on the way.

Today I ate a whole wheat bagel, 1.5 cups of strawberries, and a glass and a half of orange juice. When I prepared this I thought I was doing really good for a breakfast, but by the time I was done eating it... I was SOOOOO full! Which confuses me, I think maybe it was bad then if I got that full off of it. Gosh I'm so lost in the food category.

P.S. None of you gave me any advice on my last blog... about weighing myself everyday or every week.

How often should I weigh myself?

I'm new to this site and I figured that I could ask you guys for some advice. So I was thinking about how often I should weigh myself. I know you guys have more experience in the weight category and that maybe you guys could share what you had most success with.

I'm the type of person to be glued to the scale, I heard that you should only weigh yourself once a week though. That makes a lot of sense, but it could go both ways. See, when I weighed myself everyday it helped to motivate me and tell me where I stood. If nothing was changing on the scale then I would work harder. Well the bad part was that I was constantly frustrated. So I'm confused, weighing myself weekly instead might help me, but it's so damn hard! lol

Well happy Saturday guys! I hope to see some responses. :)

History from my past and goals for my future.

I'm going to start off by telling everyone a little bit from my past...

All of my life I've been that extremely over weight kid that everyone would make fun of. I remember my mom weighing me when I was in kindergarten and I actually weighed 80lbs!! Which is sooo unhealthy. I kind of feel as if it's not my fault that I'm over weight because when you're a child you don't know what you're doing to yourself. I had no idea that eating would ruin my life.

So I remember when I was in grade 3 I weighed around 120lbs... I mean, that's suppose to be my weight now for my height. When I got older I didn't gain as much weight as I did when I was younger so things started to look better for me. I still had people hurting my feelings off and on by calling me fat, but it didn't bug me as much once I started to get use to it. Once I hit high school I gained some more weight to the point in which I had no confidence and was always depressed. I didn't really have many friends once I got to high school because people judged me more since they didn't even know me. I remember it was grade 9 where I actually broke down into severe depression. I dressed in all black and tried to skip school as much as I could. I also had this super big crush on a guy in my class. I ended up getting his email from one of my friends and then within 2 minutes of chatting on MSN he found out who I was and blocked me. When my friend asked why he had blocked me he said "ew, because she's fat and ugly." That was DEVASTATING!

So that summer I went on Weight Watchers for the first time and lost a total of 20lbs which brought me down to 199lbs and I changed my style of clothing... instead of wearing black hoodies I was wearing white femine shirts. When I went back to school for grade 10 I started to become popular and people actually got to know the real me. On my friends birthday we orderded an entire party pizza and ate it by ourselves to celebrate... that was the moment I caved... it was all downhill from there with my weight. I was still popular once I gained all the weight back so I never ended up going back on the diet. Over the years I gained more weight.

What kept me strong through all of this weight gain was that I knew how pretty my face was. I always took pictures of my face and made myself look skinny in these pictures... I don't know how I did it. I got a lot of attention on dating websites and over MSN because guys actually thought I was skinny from my pictures and believe me... I made my pictures look good! The sad part was that I had to constantly refuse their date invites since they didn't know what I really looked it.

It was after looking at my graduation photos (full body length) when I decided that it is now time to really lose this weight I've been carying around all of these years! I'm tired of having low self esteem, of people making fun of me, of having the hardest time ever in buying clothes... I want to feel good in my own body. I don't want to be carrying around all of this fat, this fat that jiggles all over the place when I run, this fat that gives me a hard time breathing even when I'm sitting or lying down... I want to be healthy. I have to this for me, for my health. I already have metabolic syndrome, and the doctors said that I almost have diabetes... I need to change my life around for the better! I need the encouragement and I need to accomplish these goals.

There was this one night when I was with my boyfriend that I swear I went pshyco!! I was huffing and puffing, twirling everywhere, and then I just started bawling. My boyfriend asked what was wrong and I told him how I couldn't get "comfortable." You know it's bad when you can't even sit down and be comfortable. I cried for hours and he cried too because he was hurt to see me in such pain.

MY ULTIMATE GOAL: To feel "comfortable" for once.

So with all of that in mind I started Weight Watchers on October 28, 2006 and I was at 238lbs which is my starting weight. Anyways, I went down to 229lbs, but I then caved, yet again. I ended up gainning some of the weight back these past couple of weeks. I am now at 234lbs. I plan on making a bunch of little goals for myself until I'm down to 120lbs. My first goal is to be at 220lbs by April 23rd which is two months from today.

So what I have planned to do on this site while I'm trying to lose weight is to make sure I record my weight daily/weekly which means I will record it as much as I can. Also, I will be seeking advice, posting blogs of my success and failures, and posting weight loss photos every loss of 20lbs. That is, IF I can even make a weight loss of 20lbs. :( I try, but I usually fail. Wish me luck and keep coming to check up on me... an audience might encourage me to reach my goal of 120lbs.