Okay ~ Okay ~ enough is enough. Today is a brand new start.
Instead of feeling bad and beating myself up for goofing off the last 3 months....I am going to "take a lickin' and keep on tickin". LOL
I started WW (again) in March '07 ~ up to this point I have lost 22 lbs. I have not reached my 10% yet (which is 26 lbs.) because I have been playing around between 241-244 lbs. for the last couple of months. I know in my heart of hearts that I am in desperate need of refocusing my efforts. This week-end we celebrated my son's 1st birthday and there was cake, chocolate cake, I might add which is my downfall. I had cake, lots of cake and I am just sick today. LOL
It's hard to get that "first 2 week feeling back" ~ you know, the only where you are so excited to try something new...you are so focused on losing weight that nothing will discourage you ~ nothing will stand in your way....and you are all "gung ho".
I continue to go to the WW meetings but have lost my "interest" in losing weight. I go there thinking it will motivate me and drive me to jump back on board....but it hasn't clicked yet....but IT WILL. I have to be honest with myself ~ I am not perfect, my weight loss will not be perfect and there will be times (lots of them) that I will eat unhealthy stuff. I am going to concentrate on making a small goal of getting out of these 240's.
Yes, that is my 1st official goal since I am back on track today.
I am starting over (for the umpteenth time) and I will say my first goal is to get out of the 240's.
Thought for Today ~ Try....Try...and Try again! Don't give up....anything worth having is working fighting for...and that is ME! I will fight for ME!
Oh goodness ~ I win the prize! Not the prize for losing any weight BUT for gaining the most amount of weight in a matter fo 3 days. Saturday morning my scale said 241.8 - this morning my scale said 244.0 ~ &%$#!!~~)(*&^%
LOL ~ all I can say is Life Gets In The Way! I have never been a person to have the "weight melt right off of me" ~ but I can do well with the first 20 or so lbs. We ate out Friday night, Satruday lunch and Saturday evening and Sunday we had mexican food for dinner. My sister has a pool and invited us over to swim and to eat dinner with her family. She cooks a mean mexican dish and there is NO fat free nuttin' in this dish. Of course I have this attitude of "oh well, I have done bad all week-end so what the H*ll!" That is not the attitude of a person that is following the program, now is it? No!
Today, Monday August 6th ~ I will begin again. I will begin another day of stuggling to stay within my points value and try to motivate my booty to exercise this evening. I am such a lazy person sometimes I hate being around myself! LOL
Thought for Today ~ Today is a new day with a new set of choices. Even when your mood is down because you "goofed up" for the last week, month, year ~ start again today. Next year at this time you will be happy you did.
I am doing "okay" ~ yesterday we celebrated hubby's birthday and there was cake. Now, I have discipline about some things but cake is not one of them. I had 2 nice size servings of his cake and along with my "not so good choices of the day" means I was up 1.6 lb. on the scale this morning. I have come to the conclusion that if I start my day off well (breakfast) then I can do well throughout the day. Yesterday I started off my day with not such a good choice because I was in a hurry and didn't take the time to plan and prepare for my breakfast meal.
I planned and prepared today. I have GOT to get to my 10% soon. I have been farting around for the last 3 months up and down within the same 240-250 weight area. I am getting sick of the scale reading in the 240's ~ it's my choice.....me...and only me can change the number on the scale.
Knowing you are reading my blogs and commenting is a big boost for me. I thank you all for leaving me your comments.
Thought for Today - Choices ~ we have them everywhere. What time we get up in the morning, what to wear, what we say, how many smiles we give throughout the day and most importantly what we eat. Sometimes it is not easy to make good choices but let us be thankful that the choice is ours to make.
When I first started this journey weighing 265 lbs., I had outgrown my size 22 pants and 2XL tops and was looking at moving into a larger size. WHOA...that was a light bulb moment.....I love to shop but not at a size 22! Slimming down also means baggy clothes. I was going to "make do" until I got to a reasonable size and then purchase some new outfits....but it doesn't always work like that. I went shopping recently and ran across some reasonable deals at Kohl's and Macy's. While shopping, of course I go to the Woman's department first but all of those tops looked so BIG! Lol - so I look over in the Misses department and found a couple of shirts in XL and some crop/capri pants in an XL...and the beauty of it is they were reasonably priced and they FIT! Yes, I can officially say that I am wearing a Misses size XL. <jumping for joy> ~ so being a XL is not so bad!
Thought for Today ~ Just because you are losing weight doesn't mean you have to wear baggie clothes. If $$ is tight (like mine) ~ shop the sale racks, and co-assignment shops. Yard sales are often good too. Buy you a couple of new outfits ~ it'll lift your spirit to wear something new and something that "fits".
I woke up with a different attitude today. My attitude is better and I have to be accountable.
I am the only one who can do this for me. Not hubby, not my children, not my sister or friends...only ME.
I get so down and depressed with myself because I think about "should of, could of, would of" instead of looking to the future and should, could, would do this or that!.
What is different today? I planned. I planned what I was going to eat for breakfast (oatmeal) and I packed my lunch and planned what I was having for lunch (a salad with grilled chicken). It was nice not to have to scrounge around and run and get lunch. When I look back at my journals (when I did journal) I did much better when I planned what I was going to eat.
Oh yes, and I have all of my intake recorded in my journal. This is where I usually lose it though...in the afternoons. I will try to do better today and finish the day out in my journal.
Thought for Today - "If you fail to plan ~ you plan to fail!"
Nottin' - notta darn thang! At my WI last Tuesday I discovered I was 1.6 lbs. away from my 10% goal.....you would think this would give me the incentive to stick to my points plan and do well this week, right? You would think that the joy of earning that 10% key ring and the glory of reaching this goal would give me the desire and "want' to do well and have that feeling of FINALLY....but nope...not me....I sabatoged myself and gained about 3 lbs. I just like to eat and don't want to take the time to journal.....keeping me accountable and on track. I have become more complacent and lazy than ever before. How do I break this cycle? I had a goal of being at 230 before the end of the summer but being 243 now I don't think I can lose 13 lbs. in a month....so I rethink my goal. The more blogs I read regarding weight loss the more I become abundantly aware that to be successful you have to journal, make small goals, drink your water and believe that losing weight is the most important thing. Right now, it's not. I am looking for that feeling of something new and want to get that "first 2 weeks" feeling back. You know the one where you are all gung-ho and will commit to your eating plan because it is new, exciting and what you want. I am not trying to be a downer, just realistic with myself. Tomorrow is a new day. I will try to begin again.
Okay folks.....I have gotta get on track. I joined WW in March 2007 and did very well the first month....since the beginning of May I have just lost interest (even though I know this is what I need to do). I have only lost 24 lbs. and I KNOW THAT IS A LOT but I should be doing better. I keep trying to ask myself "why won't you allow yourself to lose weight?" I know this is so silly but it seems like I will lose 3-4 lbs. and then fluctuate and regain it back. I can't seem to get my mind set to stay on the WW plan 24/7 and I know this is my downfall. I will begin my journal each morning, go through lunch and lose it in the afternoon and evening overeating on points values and either maintain my current weight or have a gain. Then that TOM rolls around and I gain 1-2 or even 3 lbs. back.
Shame on me - I haven't journaled since 6/25....and that was just writing the date down. That is over a month ago....no wonder I haven't lost much weight this month. grrrrrrr!
I will begin again today, I have eaten my oatmeal for breakfast and have it written down. I have my water jug right here on my desk and plan to refill it at least once today. This will give me 64 ounces of water intake just at work.
Yipee Dooo Dah! I lost 2.2 lbs. this week. I am so happy with this loss This gives me an overall total of 24.4 lbs. lost. WOW - I am so close to some major triumphs including....
my 10% goal (239 lbs.)
I haven't weighed under 240 in about 5 years
I am that much closer to those size 18's (not 18W's mind you) but my size 18 jeans fitting nicely.
so close to receiving my 6th gold star at the WW meetings
so close to receiving my "I DID IT - 25 lbs." lost magnet from WW.
WOW - 25 lbs......let's put this in perspective.
My youngest son weighs around 24 lbs. and he is heavy as all get out.
5 - 5lb. sacks of potatoes
25 - 1 lb. weights
I use the big ole jug of laundry detergent so this is almost about 1 1/2 jugs of this heavy stuff.
Hi there - I found my way to extrapounds.com via other inspirational blogs dedicated to weight loss and weight loss journeys. I began tracking my own weight loss journey a few months ago and you can find my full webite at http://www.freewebs.com/tracysjourney. I will keep that site updated as well.
My journey is like so many others. I have been overweight what seems like my entire life. 7th grade was the year I remember being "bigger" than my friends. That feeling of disappointment when I couldn't shop at the same stores as they did and wear those cute Gloria Vanderbuilt jeans too. Oh goodness I am telling you my age now, aren't I? Yes, I turned 39 years old in May of 2007 and have decided that this is the year for me to get healthy. I have made a goal of weighing less than 200 lbs. by my 40th birthday which is May of 2008. That is my long-term goal.
The day I walked into the weight watchers meeting I weighed 265 lbs. - I have never weighed this much in my entire life. My usual weight has been around 240 lbs. for over 5 years. I got pregnant at 38 (yikes) and gained a little more than 20 lbs. with my son. I am one of the lucky ones. I could have packed on much more. This is the problem I am having. I am back in my "comfort" zone and my body has just gotten so cozy. I am getting close to breaking into the 230 decade and am very excited about this. I haven't weighed in the 230's in YEARS......
I seem to sabotage my weight loss - someone wise asked me "what are you afraid of?" Well, I am not sure. I guess it is easier to be fat than to be thin? Being thin comes with all of it's own issues like new clothing...shopping where the normal girls shop, fitting in chairs comfortably and bending down to tie my shoe comfortably. Having a little one who is walking and such a "big boy" is more fun to play with on the floor, too.
I hope you will stop back by to track my journey. I will update and post as often as I can.
I appreciate the comments and feedback - this is how I know that someone is out there reading my stuff and may become inspired too.
I know in my heart of hearts that I am in desperate need of refocusing my efforts. This week-end we celebrated my son's 1st birthday and there was cake, chocolate cake, I might add which is my downfall. I had cake, lots of cake and I am just sick today. 
LOL 
Thought for Today ~ Try....Try...and Try again! Don't give up....anything worth having is working fighting for...and that is ME! I will fight for ME!
Thought for Today ~ Today is a new day with a new set of choices. Even when your mood is down because you "goofed up" for the last week, month, year ~ start again today. Next year at this time you will be happy you did.