I'm feeling very blah today....I haven't posted in awhile.  Not sure why just not much to report I think. I haven't been great but I haven't been too bad.  I maintained last week....I guess I could be happy it wasn't a gain but really not sure how I feel about it. My not sure how I feel about a lot of things right now.  I've been eating good (no snacking past 7pm) since Sunday and I did get on my gazelle for 20 mins last night. That was the first time I've tried any type of formal exercise since injuring my knee last summer.  I didn't break a sweat but my knee did kill either.....so a bit of progress I guess.  I just don't feel the desire to change my situation and I can't figure out what the payoff is.

This morning DH and I had a big fight.....leading me to emotionally eat at lunch time.  I did alright with my meal (didn't eat everything but it was chicken fingers and fries...not healthy) but I just polished off a bag of chocolates (175g) and don't feel all that bad about it.  Actually I just feel numb.

I'm really struggling with the issues DH and I have and whether they can be worked out or not.  I'm really not happy with myself at all but can't find it in me to find the motivation I need to make a drastic change.  Why.... I really don't know.  

I just feel so.....tired.  That's the only word that really describes it.  Tired of work. Tired of responsibilities. Tired of life. WTF is wrong with me?