| Height: | 177.8cm |
| Start weight: | 254.20lb |
| Current weight: | 222.60lb |
| Goal weight: | 175.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 31.60lb |
| Remaining: | 47.60lb |
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Today I had my yearly female physical and wow, what a shock. The scales at doctor's offices have always lied in my opinion, but what it said today was apalling. They checked my height and weight and I am actually 1/2 inch shorter than what I thought and the scale said 50 pounds! OMG!!
My depression seems to be worse since I have gotten off of my meds. I have been taking something or another for over 6 yrs and was fed up with it and the monthly cost. I just want to be normal. My stresses have been through the roof and my temperment seems to be much worse. I have absolutely no will power and the more depressed i get the more I want to eat junk. I eat junk and then I feel depressed because I am so fat. I actually felt guilty today when I took the elevator to the 2nd floor as I watched an 8 month pregnant lady take the stairs. My body is like a prison and I don't have the key. I know if I can lose the weight, I will feel so much better about myself and better in general. HELP!!!!
I am finally going in the right direction. Yesterday, I exercised 20 minutes and ate fairly well and lost 2 pounds in 2 days. Yippee! I really didn't want to get up this morning, but after snoozing 3 times, here I am ready to exercise again. What do they say... it takes 7 days to make a habit? I can do this.
I was at the grocery store last night and started to get my favorite freezer pizza. I flipped over to the nutrition label and OMG it had 44 grams of fat! So... I put it back and got a Lean Cuisine instead. I can't imagine how bad the foods I have been eating were.
Yesterday's food started out on the wrong side with a McGriddle and half a can of Caffine Free Pepsi. (At least it was caffine free.)
Lunch was a grilled chicken ceasar salad with ranch. I didn't look at the fat grams of the dressing until AFTER I ate the salad. YUCK! I guess that counteracted the good of the salad.
Lean Cuisine later then a small steak, boiled potatoes, and green beans for dinner.
I rounded it off with pineapple upside down cake. The plus here was that I made it in muffin portions. At least I didn't eat 1/2 a cake.
Oh yeah, I had a Weight Watchers icecream sandwich at bedtime.
Still a bad day, but way better than I was eating.
Time to go, I have 30 minutes before the kids get up and I am going to make myself exercise. (Wow, that is such a dirty word...exe
I am at the end of day 1 and I have done ok. The negatives are that I had Arbys and spaghetti with meatballs. The positives are that I didn't eat as much as I normally would have. I didn't finish my fries and only had half a pepsi. I had a small amount of spaghetti and NO bread. It helped that I slept until noon too. ha,ha. Tomorrow is Sunday and I plan to invite Richard Simmons over. 1/2 pound gone and many more to go, but a 1/2 a pound lost is better than a 1/2 pound gained!
I have let my weight get severely out of control over the years and my goal is that through this site and frequent blogs I will actually shed some of these unwanted pounds. I have several excuses as to WHY I have gained the weight but if you set your mind to it none of those excuses hold water. Through perseverence and determination I WILL lose the weight. (I may have some unhappy children along the way, but they will survive.) Please check back and share this journey with me. I know it is going to be a long one. I didn't gain the weight quickly and I know it won't come off quickly either. My goal is to lose all the weight I desire by my next birthday (9 months away). So... let the journey begin.
