yearly doctor's visit

Today I had my yearly female physical and wow, what a shock.  The scales at doctor's offices have always lied in my opinion, but what it said today was apalling.  They checked my height and weight and I am actually 1/2 inch shorter than what I thought and the scale said 50 pounds!  OMG!! 
My depression seems to be worse since I have gotten off of my meds.  I have been taking something or another for over 6 yrs and was fed up with it and the monthly cost.  I just want to be normal.  My stresses have been through the roof and my temperment seems to be much worse.  I have absolutely no will power and the more depressed i get the more I want to eat junk.  I eat junk and then I feel depressed because I am so fat.  I actually felt guilty today when I took the elevator to the 2nd floor as I watched an 8 month pregnant lady take the stairs.  My body is like a prison and I don't have the key.  I know if I can lose the weight, I will feel so much better about myself and better in general.  HELP!!!!

Whoo Hoo

I am finally going in the right direction.  Yesterday, I exercised 20 minutes and ate fairly well and lost 2 pounds in 2 days.  Yippee!  I really didn't want to get up this morning, but after snoozing 3 times, here I am ready to exercise again.  What do they say... it takes 7 days to make a habit?  I can do this.

Wake Up Call

I was at the grocery store last night and started to get my favorite freezer pizza.  I flipped over to the nutrition label and OMG it had 44 grams of fat!  So... I put it back and got a Lean Cuisine instead.  I can't imagine how bad the foods I have been eating were. 

Yesterday's food started out on the wrong side with a McGriddle and half a can of Caffine Free Pepsi.  (At least it was caffine free.) 

Lunch was a grilled chicken ceasar salad with ranch.  I didn't look at the fat grams of the dressing until AFTER I ate the salad.  YUCK!  I guess that counteracted the good of the salad. 

Lean Cuisine later then a small steak, boiled potatoes, and green beans for dinner.

I rounded it off with pineapple upside down cake.  The plus here was that I made it in muffin portions.  At least I didn't eat 1/2 a cake. 

Oh yeah, I had a Weight Watchers icecream sandwich at bedtime.

Still a bad day, but way better than I was eating.

Time to go, I have 30 minutes before the kids get up and I am going to make myself exercise.  (Wow, that is such a dirty word...exe

Day 1

I am at the end of day 1 and I have done ok.  The negatives are that I had Arbys and spaghetti with meatballs. The positives are that I didn't eat as much as I normally would have.  I didn't finish my fries and only had half a pepsi.  I had a small amount of spaghetti and NO bread.  It helped that I slept until noon too.  ha,ha.  Tomorrow is Sunday and I plan to invite Richard Simmons over.  1/2 pound gone and many more to go, but a 1/2 a pound lost is better than a 1/2 pound gained!

Day 0

I have let my weight get severely out of control over the years and my goal is that through this site and frequent blogs I will actually shed some of these unwanted pounds.  I have several excuses as to WHY I have gained the weight but if you set your mind to it none of those excuses hold water.  Through perseverence and determination I WILL lose the weight.  (I may have some unhappy children along the way, but they will survive.)  Please check back and share this journey with me.  I know it is going to be a long one.  I didn't gain the weight quickly and I know it won't come off quickly either.  My goal is to lose all the weight I desire by my next birthday (9 months away).  So... let the journey begin.