I will not shop...I will not eat

Combatting two evils!

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  • Name: ToShopOrEat
  • City: Tampa
  • Region: Florida
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 167.6cm
Start weight: 234.00lb
Current weight: 229.00lb
Goal weight: 150.00lb
Lost to date: 5.00lb
Remaining: 79.00lb

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04/15/2011 03:16

one more week...

ok so i just wrote like a super long post and it somehow disappeared...so now i shall (try) to write it again!
 
this past week has been something else...
 
last thursday i went to get a spray tan for the wedding i had this past weekend. so i show up expecting a booth like i normally do (this was a different place) and welp...the lady informs me that it's airbrush. yay. to say it was awkward is an understatement.
 
i stood there, in a room, in nothin but my undies while a gal that weighs about 90 lbs soaking wet sprayed me with the tanning stuff. but to be honest, as the time went on it got more comfortable. that being said, i doubt i will ever go back (unless i lose like 1000 lbs!)
 
then saturday was the wedding. it was beautiful. i was a ball of emotions. i didnt even make it 1/2 way down the aisle before the tears started! then the reception was just lovely. we got a teeny tiny bit well...trashed. i was having a fantastic time until the cutie groomsman (the only one i didnt know prior to the rehearsal) starting showing interest in the small, thin bridesmaid. then i dunno what happened, i hit rock bottom. apparently i was crying about being fat and ugly and blah blah.
 
i always thought i would be ok if i ended up alone. i always said i wanted at least a child and i would be happy. but after flying solo that night and seeing happy people and being so devastated, i may have to rethink that "being ok alone" thing...
 
so then i got to thinking...you know how on shows like "heavy" (how freakin adorable is adam?!  ) they make them go to counselors to talk about their weight loss emotions & blah blah to break thru whatever barrier exists...i was almost thinking about doing that. i mean, there has to be a reason that i make it so difficult to lose weight, right? i dont know...
 
has anyone that may be reading this ever gone to a counselor to discuss that type of thing? if so, how did it go and what was the outcome. i would just like to know if i should maybe persue this or if its a waste of time/money...
 
ANYWAY...i lost 2 pounds prior to the wedding but then gained them back after...i pretty much expected that between all of the out-of-home meals and alcohol that was consumed this past weekend. so i guess i am the same weight i was last week/the week before...i mean other than that 2 lb loss/gain i have kept the original 5 lbs lost off. yay for that!
 
after seeing a few pictures from the rehearsal and wedding i was crazy upset about how awful i look...so i am posting them here to help me stay on track!
 
 
 

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04/06/2011 01:09

week two...week boo

ok, week two down....i'm calling this a "bye week" lol - very busy with lots of family activities and my family LOVES to eat (hence us all going on diets..) but with all of the eating & all the lack of excersing - my weight remained the same.
 
I am very much ok with that because of the wedding this weekend - my dress was already too big so at least it won't swallow me alive. after this wedding, it's on like donkey kong - i am dieting like my life depends on it!
 
I hope everyone is having a fabulous week and doing well. I really need to start reading some blogs & see what you all are up to!

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03/30/2011 04:51

one week down

well, its been one week - I'll admit that I didn't work out as much as I could have or eat as well as I could have but I did lose 5 lbs. That being said...I know if I concentrate on my food intake a bit more, I could keep up the weight loss!
 
I hope everyone is having a great week! :)

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03/25/2011 02:31

bring on the weekend

Well the past two days have gone ok.
 
I watched what I ate and worked out a tiny bit. I am fearing the weekend though! However - tomorrow night I am planning a bike ride and then Saturday is Relay for Life so that's A LOT of walking (did I plan this starting a diet this week thing good or what!). Both of those things should help.
 
Today one of my coworkers bought me lunch - luckily it was Chinese so I had chicken w/broccoli which is not too unhealthy...plus it's yummy! :)
 
I also decided I'm NOT going to weigh myself except for once a week - my very obsessive-about-his-weight boss weighs himself every day (and yes, I get to hear the weight every day...yay me!) and it drives him NUTS when it fluctuates - which hello, it happens! So, once a week - I'll do it on Tuesdays!
 
I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend!!!

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03/23/2011 03:22

and I'm back!

Well, its been like basically forever since I've been dieting and I gained all my weight back plus like 3 lbs...total bummer. There have been a lot of changes in my life and now is the time to put myself back together!
 
My cousin is getting married in ONE year (either March 10 or 24 of 2012 - they haven't picked the exact date yet). I am the maid-of-honor and her other 7 bridesmaids all weigh about 110 lbs SOAKING WET! Needless to say - this next year is going to be difficult! I WILL NOT be the "fat bridesmaid".
 
Speaking of fat bridesmaids - my friend is getting married in like 3 weeks - I'm in that wedding too - and I will be the fat bridesmaid. I'm more ok with that one though.
 
Anyway...my mother, grandmother, aunt & sister are ALL starting weight watchers (my mom is officiating the wedding & my grandmother & aunt are both obviously in the processional for the wedding - hence all of us dieting!). I was thinking about joining with them but I want to see if I can do this on my own again first. However, I am considering joining a gym. I have an elliptical at home and workout DVDs & what not but I think I need an actual gym - so I'm prob gonna do that.
 
So, in one year I'd like to lose around 100 lbs - less is fine, I just don't want to be HUGE standing next to these gorgeous, thin gals! The engagement party is in ENGLAND in August - I can't even explain how very very excited I am about this. We will be there for TWO WEEKS!!!!! So, I want to lose at least 50 lbs (if I can) by then. Lets see, 50 lbs in 5 months is 10 lbs a month - that's doable, right?
 
Any insight on diets that have worked for anyone out there would be helpful. I am about to venture out and read some blogs to see what everyone is doing.
 
Anyway, I am really hoping to stick with this this time. Fingers crossed!
 
 

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08/11/2010 18:14

SoOoOoOo...

Last week was KILLER. I am pretty sure I gained back most of my weight. But that's ok - because I am starting back today.
 
So last Wednesday, my boyfriend and I broke up. It was upsetting (obviously) but it was a long time coming.
 
Then on Friday I found out my Area Director at work is leaving. He has been my mentor for the past year and a half and it was very upsetting. He was like my work dad - he saved me from a lot of misery and helped me with everything I needed. Then on top of that I found out I was being moved to a different store. So I lost my Area Director and my store all in one day. My boss and I had a very strong relationship. I could talk to him about anything and he was always there for me. I bawled like a baby. Not going to lie, I took that harder than the breakup.
 
Then on Saturday we had a work event. I never planned on going but it was my AD's last event and he asked me to go so I told him I would. The event was a beer event - which I should have known right there would blow like 8,000 calories! Needless to say, we all got bombed and drank way too much and didn't eat anything.
 
Sunday was my last day at my store and my crew made me a cake. Of course I had to eat it. Everyone cried and it was a mess. I don't handle big changes too well so Monday and Tuesday at my new store were a mess. I had no food at the house and was forced to eat burgers both days.
 
I'm afraid to weigh myself but I will be doing so tonight. Just to see where I am restarting from.
 
I hope the week gets better and I hope everyone has a fantastic week!

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08/03/2010 03:37

Weigh In Week 2

During the second week I lost 6 lbs - the same as the first week. So far, that's a total of 12 lbs!
I was hoping this would get easier and at times, it does. I enjoy working out once I am actually doing it but sometimes it takes A LOT of motivation to get started.
There's not much else going on around here.
I hope everyone has a great week!!

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07/31/2010 06:39

oh the drama!

I feel that nothing tests your self control on dieting (or anything else for that matter) than stress and/or drama! This week was full of BOTH! Ahhh!!!
 
There were many times I wanted to run to my comfort food and just forget about everything that had happened that day - but I didn't. I am so proud of myself for that!
 
I have been trying to do other things to make myself feel better and am still looking for something that really clicks.
 
My boyfriend suggested yoga - to help me calm down - but it doesn't work. I find that I stress over the poses, etc (I don't know if I ever mentioned I have an anxiety disorder lol yeah, this is where that comes into play!!!). I also LOVE to color - yes, I'm not 10 but coloring is very soothing and calming. Normally this works but my hands get tight quickly now so it hurts to color too too much! So, I've just been reading - trying to keep my mind off food.
 
I was thinking about certain things today - like, it seems as if a lot of people try to lose weight for a certain event. I don't have a certain event I want to lose weight for - just for life. I think that's actually helping me lose the weight. Normally, if I get off track for a day then I get all down on myself because I'm not going to lose the weight by the specific day & then I just chuck the whole thing. Now that I don't really have a set date in mind - I know I can always pick everything back up & start over!
 
Ok, I'm hitting the hay now. I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!

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07/27/2010 03:59

One Week Later...

Well, after all is said and done - I lost a total of 6 lbs this week. Which is good except that I BLEW it this weekend and gained like 3 lbs and then lost 2 - so I'm actually up a pound from the last time I weighed myself. Either way, I lost 6 lbs and that's what I am concentrating on!
 
Tomorrow we are going on another 10 mile bike ride. I'm kind of excited about it. It's nice aunt/nephew time and it's fresh air & not to mention, burning like 1000 calories!!!
 
This week I will do better - this is a promise I am making to myself and to everyone out there!
 
I hope everyone has a fantastic week!

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07/25/2010 01:57

Disaster?

Ok yesterday started off fabulous! I went on a 10 mile bike ride with my nephew. We rode pretty quickly and AGAINST the wind. That part sucked but we didn't realize it until we decided where we were going! That ride felt wonderful and we decided we are going to do that at least once a week!
 
Then last night...well, we went out & I drank WAY too much. The bar I went to did not have Bud Select so I drank vodka & diet coke - just too many of them! But I danced the night away so I'm thinkin it was ok!
 
Today was a disaster as far as the diet AND not shopping went. I bought a new summer dress - it was only $20 but it was so cute & it looked great. But I went out for breakfast with my sister - PANCAKES! Uhhhh they were delicious and worth every extra work out I have to do! Then we went to a jewelry party - there went $70. Uh! What a day!
 
But that's ok - because tomorrow I am back on track and will be doing my elliptical and pilates later! I am not even going to weigh myself tonight - I am going to wait until Monday because I do not need to see what my disaster of a day cost me!!!

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