02/22/2010 22:49
LIfe in perspective after a death on my dh's ship.
A friend was killed on the ship on Friday. It was a devestating blow to my dh. It was someone he has worked with for awhile now, since being here in San Diego. He was one of the first to respond to the medical emergency. This is the first death we have had during our almost 15 years in.
The what ifs have been plaguing me. What if it was my husband? The man that died had left a wife and two year old daughter behind. I have five to care for, including a little boy the same age as their child. It could so easily have been so many different men doing routine maintenance.
Life is too short to be unhappy about weight. I have been just down about not being able to lose for so long, epecially after a forty pound loss year before last. How long does it have to be this way before I wake up and realize that we don't have forever. We just don't. We do have the now. Now to change, to make our lives into what we want. It may be uncomfortable and tiring now but if I stick with it like I did two years ago, I can do it again! I have to stick with it and not waiver from the lifestyle change.
Well, back to work. Naptime is nearly up for my daycare children. Hug your significant other tonight and pray for the family of our fellow sailor.