I'm completely and utterly disappointed with this whole thing. I have been really good with my food intake and am working out 2-3 times a week and not seen anything come off. Not 3 pounds! It's been over 2 weeks and nothing. (This doesn't count the night I had the ice cream out of total frustration).
Tim started doing some research and talking to people at school and found out that there are a lot of people who can't lose any weight because of the high amounts of toxins and heavy metals in their systems. They are finding links between the silver fillings we all received growing up and the vaccinations and how these two things 'leak' metals into your system. Well, being I was fully vaccinated and have a MOUTHFUL of silver, maybe this is part of the problem. Studies are showing that people who do this heavy metals detox go on to lose 20 pounds or more over the next month, without even trying! Their system goes back to working properly and is able to handle the food that they put in it. I have no clue what this detox will entail (and the thought of drinking some nasty green stuff for 4 days terrifies me!) but I'm really feeling like I need to try something to jump start my body. It doesn't seem like it wants to lose weight on its own. :(
On Saturday we were challenged to do an exercising goal for this week. I set mine sort of low as I didn't know what my school schedule would be like. I set it at 2x in the gym, doing 30 minutes of cardio and 30 minutes of weights. My abs are sore. My legs and butt are sore. My triceps are sore. But that means I'm getting thin and healthy and for that, I'll take the soreness. My goal was 2x, possibly 3 so I'm still planning on going on Friday as well. :)
I just read that it takes 3 years for your body to stabalize and not want to return to the point and put all the weight back on. THREEE YEARS!!!!! Three years of staying completely consistant in routine, diet and nutrition. 3 years of monitoring what we eat (although not as closely as now). 3 years til we can relaxe a bit.
Think to 3 years from now. What do you hope your life will be like? Let's say you achieve your goal weight this year.....3 years from now, how do you see yourself. What will have changed (for the better or worse)?
I guess today wasn't too bad really. I spent an hour in the gym doing about 30 minutes with weights (crunches, squats and arms) and then 30 minutes on an eliptical. I also did 3 30 second planks. It's still such a chore for me to exercise though. I HATE it. AF started today too, so my weight loss for last week was only 1 pound. That is totally discouraging, but I'm sure that I have a lot of water weight in there so may weigh again in a couple days.
Breakfast my usual....2 scrambled eggs with 2 pieces of sausage, 1/4 c green pepper and 1/4 c cheese
Banana
1/2 english muffin
Lunch
1 c yogurt
1 c strawberries
string cheese
Snack
Snackwells chocolate cupcake....not too bad tasting, but only one bite actually had cream in it!
Dinner
half a chicken breast
1/2 c corn
1/2 c stuffing
WATER As of right now I've finished off almost 3 full 34oz bottles for 102 oz so far. I'd like to do one more tonight if possible. I also had a 20 oz diet coke this afternoon.
Man, AF should be here tomorrow, and man can I tell!!!!!!! Not only have I been cranky with the kids today, I'm also bloated and been eating like a mad woman! The day started with a handful of donut holes. I KNEW when I bought them for the kids it was a bad idea. Fortunately, they finished them up at breafast and I will NOT be buying them anymore of that type of food!!!! Lunch wasn't too bad. I had a small piece of leftover Mexican lasagna. YUM! After that though is when the cravings kicked in. I had TWO Clif bars because I was craving chocolate. They are healthy, but they are an energy bar so they aren't the best 'diet' type food. I also had 2 string cheeses. The good thing is that I made talapia for dinner with couscous and broccoli. So good!!!
is about a...and realize this is about a journey to be a better us. For so many of us, myself included, food is emotional. It's not that it tastes good or that we were so hungry we couldn't resist, it's about the feeling we get as we are eating it. It's about filling a place in us that feels empty. It's about making us feel better and about overlooking the hurt or frustration or stress in our lives. We have to learn to change the way we think. We have to work on not just our food choices, but our emotions and how we cope with life and all its crazy rollercoasters.
I've spent the last 30 minutes or more looking at various blogs and food journals. I've seen people who are dieting and it makes me sad because I know inside me that it won't laugh. It'll take the weight off, but it won't be permanent. The weight will come back and bring it's other friend pounds with it. They will have a big party, right around our waistlines and thighs! They will put balloons around our hips and turn the stereo up and dance on our rear ends (ever wonder where those cellulite dimples came from???) I see people eating nothing but yogurt for breakfast or nothing but a salad for dinner. We need to ask ourselves one question...."Can I eat like this the rest of my life?" When I'm making my food choices and trying to plan meals, I am trying to think long term. I KNOW that I'm not one that can fully cut out carbs for the rest of my life, so to cut them out now, even temporarily, will drop the pounds but the minute I start eating them again, the pounds will come back. Can I survive on nothing but yogurt for breakfast? Probably not, so instead I try to find healthy cereal, oatmeal, make eggs, etc. I need the choices I make to begin to change ME. I need to work to change my future, not just my moment. This is about a healthy ME!!!!
I'll admit it....I made so many bad choices today. The day started out great with my normal breakfast, snack and lunch. I even turned down brownies at a bake sale thing at school. Ok, so they did give me a sample of an AMAZING Blondie Brownie, but it was only one tiny bite. They were baiting me I tell ya!!!!! I also had a Diet Coke today, something I haven't had since Saturday and was SO proud of myself for how far I was going, then caved.
After school though, Tim and I had a 'tift'. It was nothing major, but being an emotional eater, I did an "I'll show him" sort of thing and stopped at the store. I got another diet coke and some Clif bars for the week (my 'weekness, healthy snack' at the moment. Ok, so that's not horrible, right? Just wait! I also bought a bag of Hersheys Bliss candies. I started eating and ate probably 12 of them before I decided to look at the package. Serving size-6 pieces. 220 calories. 15g fat!!! Instantly sick to my stomach at what I had just done!!! I have never had an eating disorder, but it took everything within me to not throw them up. I decided against it though, thank goodness. You'd think that seeing those calories and fat would have been enough for me to stop. NOPE! I got home and within an hour had eaten another 6 or so. WHAT WAS I THINKING????
I am so mad at myself that I gave in to the emotions and the eating. I'm so angry that my willpower wasn't more. I'm so upset that all the hard work I have done to change my habits, was just shattered so quickly. So what do I want to do? EAT! I want to bathe the anger and frustration in more food. I came on here instead. I'm drinking another diet coke, but I figure it COULD be worse. I have had 68oz of water today and will squeeze in one more bottle before bed so I make my goal.
Tomorrow is a new day and I WILL do better.
I am NOT a slave to this food.
Food does NOT heal my emotions and hurts.
Food does NOT control ME, I control my food!!!!
It's not worth the stress and the fight.
I see people eating nothing but yogurt for breakfast or nothing but a salad for dinner. We need to ask ourselves one question...."Can I eat like this the rest of my life?" When I'm making my food choices and trying to plan meals, I am trying to think long term. I KNOW that I'm not one that can fully cut out carbs for the rest of my life, so to cut them out now, even temporarily, will drop the pounds but the minute I start eating them again, the pounds will come back. Can I survive on nothing but yogurt for breakfast? Probably not, so instead I try to find healthy cereal, oatmeal, make eggs, etc. I need the choices I make to begin to change ME. I need to work to change my future, not just my moment. This is about a healthy ME!!!!
WHAT WAS I THINKING????