| Height: | 172.7cm |
| Start weight: | 252.00lb |
| Current weight: | 221.00lb |
| Goal weight: | 160.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 31.00lb |
| Remaining: | 61.00lb |
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I have been pretty bizzy and I must admit I have been spending a great deal of time on another weight loss site. Feel free to drop me a line if you want the URL, I don't think they would wanting me posting it here. Hope everyone is doing GREAT!
from my dark week. The weekend of July 1 & 2 I was out of town at our gaming weekend. Basically we get together with a large group of friends at someone's house, play card & board games, eat and drink. I do admit that I ate more than I have been eating, but certainly not OVEREATING. I drank diet soda 99% of the weekend which obviously was not a good thing. After I returned, I weighed in on Monday morning, I was up 4 POUNDS!!! I was so upset with myself. I told myself I would give it a few days that probably at least some of it was water retention from not drinking my water. It took me until yesterday to lose those lbs back. Today I was down another lb.So I'm happy to 'be back on the horse' again Hope everyone is doing well. Key is for all of us to get back in there and fight the good fight if you slip a little.
This morning I noticed an actual 'jutting out' of my kneecap. Previously my knees were round. Such a simple thing brought me a lot of joy. This morning I was also down a pound. Brings me to 25 since early to mid May, and 86 pounds total from my highest weight. WOOHHOOOO!!! I am out to prove anyone who says you can't do this without surgery that you indeed CAN do it. It's a long process but one foot in front of the other will get you there eventually!!!
I have an absolutely horrible time with accepting compliments. I'm sure it is related to my bad self esteem. This past weekend we went to a yard sale at Mike's aunt's house. She raved about how great I looked and how much weight I have lost. I don't know why (the majority of the time) that compliments make me feel so uncomfortable. Sunday was a family reunion with my side of the family where those who had seen me at my heaviest were amazed at the amount of weight I've lost. I seem to be able to take compliments from my BF and online friends, but family & friends it is very hard for me to accept them. I don't even understand it myself. Does anyone else have this problem? I think part of it is that I don't think I deserve the success myself. But I am determined to work past this and not sabotage myself as I have done in the past.
I have reached my first HUGE (no pun intended) goal!!! I now FINALLY weigh less than my boyfriend!!!! I know it's probably silly and maybe old fashioned or something. I just always felt 'odd' weighing more than my BF. This was my first MAJOR goal. Next big (long term) goal is ONEDERLAND. :-)
I was so thrilled this morning, I weighed in, then he decided to weigh himself, previously he had lost more. So I said to him I'm only a lb above your last weight don't you dare lose any. He was up 2 lbs. The neighbors beneath us must be thrilled with me cause I did some jumping up and down and dancing in the hallway (above their heads) WOOOHOOO!!!!!
That have commented on my blog and helped me keep what is left of my sanity. :-) Last time I lifted weights I think I overdid it a bit and was sore the next day. Last night I lifted again (I usually lift every other day, but I missed Sunday) did the same workout as previously (3 sets of 12 reps bicep curls with 10 lb weights, 3 sets of 10 reps bicep curls with 20 lb weights, and 3 sets of 10 reps overhead triceps extension with 10lb weight) today I feel pretty good. No soreness. I drank a lot of water between sets and afterwards, perhaps that helped some. I am dying to get rid of my flabby triceps. My biceps are starting to look pretty good for an 'old, fat chick' hehehehee. I'd like to get some nice muscle showing. I have HUGE shoulders so I'm not overly worried about having big arms, if they are a little bigger than most womens I think it will still be fine. Lost another lb....thrilled about that. I am re-reading over the calories I have been eating and wondering if I was actually eating too little the past for weeks. The past few days I have been around what I have read should be my calorie intake to lose weight. (1824 cals) and I've been losing again. Good luck to everyone! Have a great Tuesday!!!
Saturday was actually pretty good, Mike's coworker came over to pick up the PC we were selling him. He stayed for a while we had a very nice talk. Afterwards we ran a few chores. Got a new food processor at Bed, Bath & Beyond. Watched Memoirs of a Geisha & FlightPlan. Memoirs of a Geisha was good, very dramatic at times a little bit slow, but overall a good movie. FlightPlan was EXCELLENT. I highly recommend it. I had no idea what direction the movie was taking until WHAMMO it showed itself. Jodie Foster is a great actress. I think in this movie she is starting to look more her age than previously she looked young.
Sunday was the day from hell. Mike's dad decided he wanted to see Cars & go to dinner for Father's Day. We all had a nice day planned. We arrived at his father's house. Mike, trying to pay me a compliment, stated that I now I only weighed 3 lbs more than he does. I said yeah but we aren't going to mention EITHER of our weights. Mike's father said, yeah but that's not great you (Mike) have gained alot of weight and called him tubby or something along those lines. So then Mike says Yeah but I (him) have lost a few lbs I now weigh ***. So now that he announced HIS weight they all knew my weight. I was so pissed off. I couldn't believe after I JUST said we weren't going to mention our weights he blurted his out. So then we get ready to head to the movies. I was wearing a new black skirt I got from Old Navy, it was (what I thought) a little loose but nothing major. WRONG!!!! We got out of the car. I was standing behind the car when suddenly I realize my skirt is down around my ankles. I screamed and pulled my skirt up quickly. Mike's dad and sister turned when I screamed. I was completely and totally mortified. Not only were we outside in public but in front of Mike's family, who I've had a shakey relationship to begin with. According to Mike's stepmother his dad and sister saw nothing that I was already pulling my skirt up. I wanted to die. I still feel totally like crap. I want to go to bed and forget the whole day happened.
first of all the scale moved up on Monday (I'm guessing it's just water weight because I haven't gone off my eating program) and I've been fighting all week with it. Secondly I am again bloated and constipated. Took a Correctol last night...still waiting for it to work. I have plenty of gas *UGH* but nothing 'substantial' to report. I could use any good thoughts or encouragement anyone might have to offer. Only good news from this week I have to report is that my bf and I are getting new Dell desktop machines. Our current machines are about 5 years old, mine a 1.1 ghz, his a 1.0 ghz. Either his ram OR some of ram slots on the motherboard went up so we figure mine isn't far behind it. So in about a week or so we'll have sparkling new 2.8 ghz machines. :-)
People really piss me off. There are certain 'tones' that I don't take well to be spoken to in. Condescending tones, angry tones, nasty tones...none of these will get you ANYWHERE with me. I was just a breath away from telling a coworker to go 'f' himself. I'm going to start giving back exactly what I'm given. Respect isn't freely given but instead EARNED. I am not the person you want to tick off. *sigh* Thankfully it is Friday and in under 6 hours I can abandon this nonsense for at least a little while.
This past weekend we went to Balticon a local sci-fi convention. It was very interesting and a lot of fun. We got to meet the 2 guests of honor we were most interested in. Neil Gaiman, the author and Lisa Snellings-Clark, the artist. We managed to snag one of Lisa's sculptures from the art auction. Darn...I was hoping to locate a picture of it on the website, but alas I don't see it. But you really should check out her website. http://www.lisasnellings.com/index.html or here... http://www.slaughterhousegalleries.com
Yesterday we went to a cookout at my aunt's house. I was a VERY good girl, had only FiberOne cereal in the morning. That evening had some grilled shrimp, grilled steak, small portion of potato salad, fruit salad and splurged just a touch on a piece of strawberry shortcake. It must have all agreed with me since this morning I was down another lb. YAY ME!!! I am only 7 lbs away from my first major goal which is to weigh less than my boyfriend.
