a new year and a healthier me

As I was laying on the couch last night, feeling like crap and thinking I need to get my butt up and do something,, I realized that I had had that same talk with myself oh every day for the past 6 months.  I have totally given up on myself and have been just hating the way I look and feel.  I am 43 and too young at heart be so out of  breath after a flight of stairs, I don't want to go thru another spring or summer trying to cover my legs and arms and wishing I was thinner.. I want to be thinner and smaller and healthier, not just for fashion, but for my life.  I feel like at this weight my life is on hold.  that I am just not living my life.. and this is the only one I have.  So.. here we go.