I am absolutely NOT MOTIVATED to eat right or walk or even run... what is my issue? I haven't even had the motivation to write you guys back. I SUCK! I'M SORRY!  grrr...

Motivation Level: Zero

Disappointment Level: Ten Bug-a-zillion.

Hey everyone!

*PHEW* My final final is over and BOY AM I HAPPY!  For everyone who cares, I did great and got the grade I needed in my hardest class!  Warning: For everyone looking to take macroeconomics... take it IN THE CLASSROOM... Distance Learning courses are hard as hell and there is no one there to help you when you have questions.

Now, as for the weightloss... I haven't been on the scale in two days because I've woken up late for work both days... so I can't tell you where I stand. I tried to eat as well as possible... but between the coffee and soda, I'm sure it's not going to be good.

BUT on the upside, now that I'm done with work, I can start my running! I'm very excited about it!  So is my husband who is going to start running with me!  I found a fabulous running program on Runners World that will help get me from the couch to running 30 minutes straight.  That program is 8 weeks long, but I'm sure it'll take me longer considering my weight... but I'm OKAY with that. I can't even think about running for a solid two minutes, much less thirty!  So even if I can't run the FULL 6.2 miles by April 25th, I will at least be able to run the vast majority of it!  I'm very excited about that!  Wish me luck! I'm thinking about starting this program on Saturday, so I can psych myself up for it until then! (Oh... and buy some running clothes... because I'll look like an idiot running in jeans!)

Anywho, that's all for today! I will catch up with everyone by the end of the day!  Love to you all!  hope your journey is going great!

~Stef

2nd post in 10 minutes, I know... but FYI, I'm slowly catching up with people! Give me time!  Thanks again for everyone's support!

Hi Everyone!

This weekend was fabulous!  But I only mean that if fabulous means tearing your hair out with stress... which it does...FAB-U-LOUS!  I sat at the computer from 1pm-9:30pm on Friday... 10:30am - 10:30pm on Saturday... and 8:30am - 9:30pm on Sunday... My butt.  Is numb.

What kills me is that the VAST majority of my time was spent sutdying complicated equations that were only partially explained, with theorems that were only differentiated by teeny-tiny grey hairs on the back of a strangers neck!  It was so utterly confusing!  Come to find out when I took my test last nigh (one of three by the 10th!) that those complicated equations weren't even necessary!  UGH!  So, colassal waste of time!

However, I can't let this blog go by without sharing 2 pieces of good news!

I went down 1 lb this weekend!  Which considering my activity level is astounding!

AND...

My husband rocks!  I received a Christmas gift this weekend that I REALLY wanted!  Running shoes! They are SO cute and have pink on them. I've decided that these shoes will get me through my first 10K in April, then upon completion of it, I will gift myself with a new pair!  Apparently running shoes are only good for about 350 miles and in my training between now and then, I hope to achieve that.  But that averages to 87ish miles per moth or roughly 3 miles per day... HIGHLY unlikely... but I'm all about shooting for the stars! Hey! Let me have my moment!

Now I'm just hoping for a little tiny IPD and a ton of I-TUNES money to help get me through the runs! 

Happy Monday Everyone! Let's make this week count!

~Stef

Happy Friday Everyone!

Friday's make me happy!  I know I will spend the vast majority of my weekend with my head in the books, but either way, Friday's make me happy!

This morning I set aside a bagel with some butter to take to work. I wasn't hungry when I left for work and I try not to eat unless I'm hungry... It doesn't always work, but that's okay!  I was going to take the bagel to work, but alas... I left it on the counter.  Which forced me to make a good decision this morning at the cafeteria... I had 2 breakfast tacos... with 1 egg in each, 1 slice of bacon in each and just a little sprinkle of cheese... and salsa.  That's not too bad, right?!  It's at least A LOT better than the choices I've been making before.  I also left the Dr. Pepper alone and opted for water.  I feel better about my decisions so far today and hopefully that will keep me motivated!  However... I am going to need caffeine to study and I'll probably be up all night studying... I wish I liked coffee without sugar and cream! AHHH

My husband and I have decided to do a 10K on April 25th.  And we've decided to do it timed. It's only three more dollars and knowing the time will inspire me to do better the next time around.  My friend Kristin, the marathon runner, is so excited that I'm doing it that she's going to do it with me and help me train... which really excites me! 

So... I've been thinking... who needs January 1st to make a personal goa or a new years resolution?!  NOT ME!  So... with that in mind... I think I'll do mine on December 5th. 

For YEARS my new years resolution has been to lose weight.  Well... that really hasn't worked out all too well... SO... Instead I'm going to make a PERSONAL GOAL which will help me become more active and will hopefully spark some weight loss.

So... My December 5th, 2008 - December 5th, 2009 personal goal is to run 2 10k's.  Time both of them.  And decrease my time the second time around from the first.

Ofcourse all of this means training, so my Christmas list this year is running shoes and running/exercise gear... And that means running multiple times a week!

MY DOG IS TOTALLY GOING TO LOVE ME!

Wow... when I put it that way... I am going to totally love me... which no offense to my dog... but that feels so much better!

Today is a good day... let's hope it turns into a great one!

The scale went down again today!  Though it definitely shouldn't have!  I ate out TWICE again yesterday... breakfast and lunch.  Last night I just had steamed jasmine rice (so good!)  I'm sure the lack of eating anything really substantial for dinner made this morning's scale look so good... but I know I'm still not making good decisions.

This morning I made yet another bad decision. I went to McDonalds... but in my bad decision I made a good decision... I got a bottle of water instead of soda.  Which much to my surprise, they DIDN'T charge me extra for.  And now I'm at work and I'm just sippin on water.

I can't believe I've eaten out so many times. I keep giving the excuse that there are no groceries at home, but do you know how many HEALTHY groceries I could have purchased for what I've spent going out.  I complain I'm broke and I go out to eat.  I complain that I'm fat and I go out to eat.  I want to be someone's inspiration, but I can't even be my own! I swear, I'm an idiot sometimes.

So something I've never mentioned before is that I REALLY want to start walking/jogging/running.  I've always wanted to be a runner. I've always wanted the freedom to just turn off my brian and run.  Or think through all of the problems of the day.  You always hear that it's such a stress reliever and boy do I want to relieve some stress.

There's a 10K at the end of March here in town that's kind of a big deal.  The weather won't be terribly hot yet and really I can walk 6 miles no problem... and you would think that in 4 months I could TRAIN to at least jog part of the 6 miles.  And I think I really want to do it.  Plus... runners bodies are HOT!  And if I could get me one of those would be awesome.

My friend Michael, who is a runner, just told me he just cleared his 600th mile.  HE HAS RAN 600 MILES.  That's amazing to me! And I want to amaze someone else with that!  Not only would it be awesome to be able to say "I run 400 miles in a year" but I next year at this time I could say "I run 400 miles in a year and I've gone down 6 dress sizes doing it!"  and even if I DON'T go down 6 dress sizes... I'm going to have to go down some! 

I'll give you that 400 miles in your first year for someone who is overweight and lacks motivation is a big extreme.  But maybe I should attempt 20 miles in a month... Hmm... We'll revisit this after the 10th...

On any note... I'm down... let's hope that's the case tomorrow! =)

Have a Wonderful Wednesday!

Much love to all who have written me wonderful messages! I promise I will get back to you soon!  Sorry, just completely overwhelmed right now! *HUGS*

I challenge you... get up and do 10 jumping jacks RIGHT NOW.  if you're in your office, your house... it may be difficult in your car... hold on i'm going to do it myself...

Feels good doesn't it?!