1st weigh in occurred on 11/15 -- down 3.2 lbs!  Not bad for only being on program for 5 days.     My husband is also down a little over 4 lbs.   So - I hate to say it but it works. I don't love eating frozen food all the time. But I really need to jump start this weight loss... and it is working!!

SIDE NOTE: The birthday girl turned 37. She is friggen beautiful, smart, funny and a heck of a lot of fun. Great job, owns her own condo, loves kids and sex. She is an incredible woman. She isn't married and wants to be..... bad. She wants kids and feels her clock ticking away. We were all confessing how crazy we are about various things... when it was her turn, she said... I feel like I am alone because I am fat. She is NOT fat. She has been a weight "manager" for the last 6 years I have known her and she looks great. I just want anyone reading this to know that NO ONE is alone because they are overweight. That isn't the reason. Lots of plump people find love. Don't let the scale define you or who you want to be. I wish I could take my eyes out and put them in her head and hold up a mirror so she can see what I see... an amazing person... who happens to be beautiful!

Sunday, I was off program too. But the worst thing that I did on Sunday was not eat enough food. I feel back into -- skipping lunch thing. I make a great chicken dinner -- with a large salad and bread (bad, but oh sooo good!).

Weighed myself this morning... Weighed only a few oz more then Sat morning.      

Back on track today!

NEXT hurdle -- how can I make myself drink more water.... UGH! I hate drinking water. I could drink Latte's all day long and be perfectly happy. Gross, I know... Any suggestions? Ping me!

Lexapro update -- back on and feeling better -- which means that I really need it and that makes me sad. :( Ah well, I'd better drink some water.

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Day 3 on good old JC (not the carpenter, the diet regimin).    Things are looking up as my weight has already started to go down.

I know you aren't supposed to weigh yourself every day, but I am a freak and I do.  The good news is that I am way past the whole disposal of waste THEN jump on scale - repeat 2 more times a day.  So, there is hope for me yet!

Back to the food -- the first day was unbearable for me.  I had a friggen headache, I was tired... and felt like I was shackled to frozen food.  My husband felt the same way, but not as desperate as he is able to add a sandwich here and there (2000+ calorie menu plan).  Lucky bummer!

2nd day, was better.  I was busier at work and that helped get my mind off the freezer.  That was good.   I also hit the gym yesterday... which wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  I saved a "snack" aka piece of fruit to eat on my way to the gym. That gave me a nice boast in my energy and the 30 minutes flew by!  

**  IMPORTANT TO KNOW  **

There must be a ton of fiber in JC cuisine...  Both my husband and I report lots of movement in the lower regions of our bodies (not in a sexy way) and it is not pleasant.    Just a warning.  Not good when you are on the elliptical machine during peak gym hours!  Its hard to clench and move your legs at the same time.

**  CONFESSION TIME  **

I should confess that I do have a Grande soy vanilla latte everyday -- you see, I have a small Starbucks problem and If I were to cut this out of my diet at this point -- I could be lethal.    I have also snuck in about 8 almonds a day and 2 dark chocolate Hershey kisses (first day).    This is a vast improvement of just a month ago when I could and would sit down with a glass of milk and a bag of milk chocolate kisses and have at it.  Gross when I think about it.

Okay, day 3 -- scale shows that I am 185.6 today... started at 188.somthing... and down to 185.6 in 2 days.  Not expecting that to continue... but happy to see the loss.

Today is the day I meet my trainer -- so, I am really thinking about saving my "snack" again for the commute to the gym.   This is the 2nd time I have worked out with her - I bought 9 1 hour sessions with her.  She really pushed me the first day and I don't like how I wimped out -- don't like to lose (unless it is weight/inches/bad cholesterol/crappy boyfriends/etc).    

So, I will leave you with this from my favorite workout song and will catch up with you tomorrow!

Risin up

straight to the top

had the guts got the glory

went the distance now I'm not gonna stop

just a WOman and hER will to survive

It's the eye of the tiger

its the cream of the fight

risin up to the challenge of our rivals

and the last known survivor stalks his prey in the night

and he's watching us all with the eye of the tiger

The eye of the tiger......

The eye of the tiger......

The eye of the tiger......

Something happens in your 30's --- people warn you when you are in your 20's to be careful and that things change when you are older. I brushed the warnings off and now look at me.

►34 years old and 50lbs over weight,

► 29.5 BMI - 50% of that is all fat!

► 34 HDL count (good cholesterol -- should be greater than 45).  Bad cholesterol is okay.  Seems "bad" isnt so bad anymore and the good needs to be really good! ugh!

► Knees crackle like crazy when I go down stairs (so, good by cute high heels! -- but that is okay, cause the cute clothes that went with those shoes don't fit anymore anyway!).

► Increased anxiety - thats an understatement.  Back and forth I go with Lexapro... love/hate relationship.  Without it, I feel like I am going to have a heart attach: chest pains, arm pains -- an EKG later, people look at me like I am crazy.  Take a few Lexapro and POOF!  Chest Pain gone!  Which means it is all in head --- and that I am crazy.

► Lack of libido -- probably doesn't help that I cant wear those cute high heels anymore.

Some say, having a baby changes you as well. I cant say for sure, but my energy level is non existent. And I HAVE to have it. Really... I have a 2 year old little boy that runs around the house and his Mama needs to keep up!   Plus, I want to give him a brother or sister.  I want to have another baby... but at this weight/health level, I dont think it is a good idea. 

Tried WW -- liked the program... but the meetings were so super goofy. Where are all the cool leaders? Young leaders? My husband doesn't like the food on WW because it means reducing beef, white rice and potatoes from your diet.

So, we decided to join Jenny Craig this week... and we did. Yep, my and the hubby. And holy shit it is expensive. $20 for 20lbs... okay... no biggie.... PLUS $164 for food for one week, times 2 for my husband and I  (not including the produce and dairy products you need to buy).   So, I am a little less then stoked to be on JC - but will give it the ol' college try for the next 10 weeks.

Today is day 1 -- And with all day one's on any diet.. I am completely fixated on food and therefore unsatisfied and hungry. Funny how that works? Too much time on my hands... thinking about food. Writing a blog about food. The food I have eaten so far for the record is pretty good. French toast with berries for breakfast and some Asian inspired lunch containing beef and noodles. good.

I am going to the gym in an hour and wonder how I will make it without eating something else... I may have to break into the nuts I have here. Not sounding like a good first day (already diverting from the planned meal).

I promise not to sound so blah about this tomorrow... it is the first day blues... even perky One Day At a Time girl must have had the first day blues. Right Valerie?