03/10/2011 01:04
Gimmicks
I have fallen prey :(...(why cannot I not use the frowny face icon and then keep typing?) Anyway...
I have two sisters. I am the middle one. My older sister was stick thin all her life, all through high school. She gained weight with her pregnancies and now carries it in her belly, mainly. She's not happy about it, but doesn't ever seem motivated to do anything about it.
My little sister was always very active and athletic throughout her school years. She became pregnant very young and has had two more children since. She's yo-yoed with her weight but always takes drastic measures to lose the extra. She's very thin now but never "feels" thin enough.
Me, I've been overweight since 1st grade. When I was very young I got terribly ill and since we lived in a border town, my aunt began taking me to Mexico to some doctor who for some God-forsaken reason began giving me steroid shots! Well, my weight ballooned and I almost died. I don't know how all of that affected me, but I've been overweight since! I guess I'm blaming the steroids! ;)
Anyway...
My little sister, who never thinks she's thin enough, began taking some diet pills from across the line. I swore on my life that I would NEVER take another Mexican drug for as long as I lived. This summer I had gotten so fed up with myself that I didn't care..."Bring 'em on!" I told her...and she did.
The first time I took a pill it was really amazing! My mom had made my favorite meal for my dad for Father's Day and I could barely finish my first serving. I was HOOKED! I began taking a pill daily, started eating less, and began losing weight. Well, no sooner had I made the pill a part of my routine than she couldn't get them anymore! They had been discontinued. This sent my sister into a frenzy looking for a replacement. She found a different pill and so we began to take it. It didn't seem as effective. Then she learned about another pill and bought it so I did too. It seemed to work for the first couple of days.
Then she read about apple cider vinegar and began drinking that. So I tried it too. All it did was give me a stomache ache! And most recently, we started drinking a tea that my boyfriend SWEARS helped him lose 30 pounds.
What's next?
Meanwhile, I joined Weight Watchers, began eating better food and exercising, albeit inconsistently, and as long as I followed the program, I lost weight. So, what makes me think I need a gimmick? I need to give it all up and do the work to get the results I want. I KNOW that...but it's soooooo HARD! (<----My students aren't allowed to say those words in my classroom!)
This weekend my family was visiting and then the fella got sick on Monday and I spent two days looking after him. Needless to say, I can't seem to get myself on track. I want to so badly. I can see the difference that 20 pounds has made and want so desperately to take back the control and continue on, but am having a heck of a time doing....and I guess I keep hoping that one of the gimmicks will work and save me all the trouble!
Ugh...