03/02/2011 06:00
Uh...hmmm...yeah....so....
Unexpected meeting after work. Bogged down with work. Someone suggested Mexican food. I didn't choose to say no.
Excuses? Sounds like it to me.
I have another meeting tomorrow. A planned dinner out after that. So, now what?
Ugh.
The whole point of my starting to blog again was to commit to do what I need to do to be successful at weight loss and better health.
I did make a profound self discovery this evening while talking with a friend though. Maybe it'll help me to better realize what I'm doing and find ways to nip it in the bud. We were talking about retirement (I wish!) And saving money for it. (We're both single so we have to think of how we'll take care of ourselves.) Money talk led to savings talk, bills, credit cards, etc. Well, for the last several months I've been pretty diligent with Weight Watchers. Except for a couple of weeks at Christmas, I had been attending meetings EVERY week and actually losing weight every week. Even if it was just a fraction of a pound.
Well, while my eating had been in check, my spending had not. I had gotten kind of careless and was doing a lot of frivolous spending on things that I wanted and had no desire to wait for. Thoughts of "I deserve this...I work hard...I don't have to answer to anybody" justified what I was doing. It seems that when I realized I needed to quit the money wasting and reel in the spending that I started overdoing the eating again. And because of the overeating I started avoiding my WW meetings and then justifying the gains because I'd been off track for two weeks. "I deserved the chocolate...I've worked hard at losing weight, I can take a "break"...blah, blah, blah...
Isn't that crazy?
Makes me think of when I was trying out the balance games on my Wii Fit, I always got the "UNBALANCED" result! Ain't that the truth?! ha!
So, when it's not eating or spending, then I'm overworking. I'm always overdoing SOMEthing. Now I need to figure out how to seriously stop it and find that balance...