I Don't Know

I don't know what it's going to take for me to change. REALLY change. I just don't seem to have the motivation. And I honestly don't want it to take something drastic for me to see the light. I see the light...it's way off in the distance somewhere. I see it, I know it's there, but I don't want to do what it takes to get there.

 

I got up all gung ho Tuesday morning. Reset my weights in eTools and weighed in for a new starting point. I was just sickened by what I saw on that scale. And you would think that would be enough for me to change. It wasn't...I just kept thinking..."I have to lose nearly 50 pounds to get myself below 200!!! How the @$%^ am I going to do that?!"

 

I know you're not supposed to look at the big picture. I should make a small goal and reach for that and when I meet it, I make a new mini goal. Easy enough, right? I KNOW...yet it isn't.

 

I'm not throwing in the towel, though. That's one thing I decided I would never do. I just don't FEEL well lately. I'm thinking it's all the extra weight and unhealthy eating. My stomach always hurts- not full-on PAIN, just always an achey feeling, sometimes nauteous -and I'm TIRED...physically tired all the time. When I first started feeling this way I blamed it on work...I was super stressed and just attributed it all to that, but now there really should be no reason for it. I'm getting plenty of rest and really have nothing to be stressed about.

 

It's nearly time for my yearly physical and I'm thinking I'll just wait until then to see my doctor about this. And I keep thinking that if I just start eating right I'll feel better. I don't know....

 

Tomorrow's another day.

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Have you had your thyroid checked? Extra weight will give you all those symptoms of feeling lethargic but it could also be other factors. I know that before I had my thyroid surgery I had all of those same feelings as you did.. especially the acheyness. Maybe you should ask your doc when you go in for your physical.

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Wow!

OMG you're right! We ARE the same person!!  I know EXACTLY how you feel!! I get on my scale and am sickened by the number..yet I do nothing to change it.  And the part where you said you feel tired all the time?? SERIOUSLY??!!! I get so tired by the end of the day that Im ready to conk out the minute I get home, and from what?? I have an office job! Nothing strenuous! Uuughhhh...you'll get it lady. 1/2 the battle is realizing the problem. Goal #1 accomplished!