Off topic

This post will have nothing to do with weight loss. Why? Because I suck at it! Well, maybe I'll add something at the end...we'll see...

My boy - that student I have that I wrote about a little while back. Well, can I just say that I LOVE that kid? I do. I don't know what it is about him, but I've fallen hook, line, and sinker! Poor little guy is lower than dirt academically. (Is that mean for me to say as a teacher?) Well, he is. Asking him to write something is like telling him to fly an airplane. He has no idea! And he's always in trouble. Not in the classroom, but I send him out anywhere -PE, Music, recess- and 9 times outta 10 he comes back in some kind of trouble. I can see it in his face now. If something went wrong, he'll just give me this look...

The other day he came back all upset from PE. I steered him away from the other kids and asked him what was wrong. He started crying because he had gotten in trouble with Coach. "I said a bad word!" he told me. "And I don't know why because I don't say bad words!" It was so cute I wanted to laugh, but I couldn't let on that I thought it was funny. So we had a little talk about choices and handling our emotions.

In one ear and out the other...but I'll keep working with him. I'm not entirely sure what his home life is like, but he has a little trouble handling his anger. And he has this speech impediment and he mixes up his languages and I just couldn't adore him more. I was bringing the students in from outside this morning and he was running to catch up with us and I turned around to look at him and he says, "You forgot about me!"

"Oh no I didn't forget you!" I said. He just brightens my day. And today after PE he came back with another problem and after he told me all about it, I just hugged him. All these years of teaching, all the students who have come and gone, and this one has just tugged at my heart like no other.

And I like this class a lot. Even the little liar girl. (Sorry, that's probably mean too!) You'd think I'd resent her for what she did, but when it comes down to it, she's just a child and I can't expect her to reason like an adult.

I guess I'm posting all of this because I had a long talk with my friend M this evening. We missed each other after school and I thought she had gone home but she was at the gym waiting for me. I never made it. But anyway, we were talking about work stuff and she is just so tired of it all. She has a lot of stress in her personal life and work stuff has just gotten to be too much to handle and she's having a hard time. I listened. She said that if she left tomorrow, she wouldn't miss it. I hope and pray that things get better for her.

But I wondered if I left tomorrow, would I miss it? And, yes, I would. Not the paperwork, not the stress, not the testing, but the kids. I just love working with the kids.

So, like I mentioned, I missed the gym today. I ate like crap today. Our school counselor is a Weight Watchers receptionist. I asked her today if she was still doing it and she said yes then asked if I was thinking about going back. "Oh, I'm thinking about it," I said. Truth is, all of my rebellion is weighing me down. Literally. I don't want to count POINTS but I know that doing so will help me get a handle on things. So, the plan is to join on Tuesday (her night). And she works with a leader who I really love as well. I used to go to his meetings years ago and was very successful - until I started going through a divorce. So, I'm hoping that rejoining will give me the push I need to get this thing under control again. I'm really getting tired of these false starts!

points

i'm rebelling against Points, too, but I know it will help me.  My weight will go down, and I will feel good about myself.....  why would i snub all that good stuff?

I'm falling for the cute little kid, too.  What a sweetheart!  LOL.  The story about the bad word is precious.  I used to be a nanny and worked in a preschool, and there were a few kids that i just adored for who they were.  I still get choked up thinking about them and I wonder what they are like now, so many years later.  Do they still love so easily, or have they been scarred in some way....  I'm thankful I don't know the answer to that, actually!

Awwwww

You are such a good teacher!! It seems like every few years or so I will have a child that I just want to take home with me and keep forever. Some of them have such a rough time at home.

What DO you want?

Sometimes you just have to think about what you really do want.  I know counting point/calories/whatever sucks.  But I also know that I apparently can not eat like a normal person.  So, choices... What DO I want?  What choices will take me there?  I have to think about this everyday.  And the answer may be different each day.

You are such a great teacher!  We need more like you.

Awww

That is awesome that you have taken an intrest in the one kid.  You know being a teacher is hard, you guys don't get the credit you deserve but by you showing that little guy that you believe in him and that he is special you are laying the groundwork for him to become something wonderful. 

Awww

If my son had a teacher like  you I would thank the Lord above.  Seriously!  How wonderful that you care so much about those children.  You may not think they are hearing you, but I know that have to KNOW you care.  ((((hugs)))) to you for doing such a wonderful job!! 

Maybe the community of WW ladies will be what will help you get back on track. I read a great thing on one of your rescent blogs.  A quote form a lady saying that if you did something that worked, do it again.  I know that's probably not word for word, but I remember it.  If this group helped you before, maybe it will again.   It won't hurt to go see.

Have a great night.