Its Friday!!!! WOOHOO!!!! Im so glad this week went by really fast! Im ready for a nice and relaxing weekend! I have nothing really planned tonight but going to the movies to watch the new movie that came out called Disturbia Im going with my sister. Now she knows im not a big fan of scary movies, but im going to drag myself to watch it. She tells me its not really scary, im fine as long as there is no chopping of heads etc.
Im glad to say I have been OP and there is no getting me off. I finally got off the "fake" weight I had gained over the weekend. Although I blame it to TOM and eating too many chips, im just happy im back down to my weight! Im going to keep on working hard, and there is nothing that is going to stop me!
Im looking forward to each and everyday, and even if I slip im going to not get discouraged or disappointed in myself, im going to learn from it and learn to love it! After all making mistakes makes us grow!
Hello everyone!!!! Im so sorry it has been a long time since I have last updated! Wowzers! The last time I updated was on Friday! Bad Alexia! That will not happen again, I promise! I miss you all and Im sorry for not being on here since Friday, wow I guess time does really fly by!
Okay so on Friday, family arrived and we all stayed at my sister’s house, it was a huge slumber party! After we got everyone settled and what not, all the girls went to Wal-mart to get last minute things we needed for Saturday and Easter. It was midnight and they were dragging my butt to Wal-mart. My mother had more energy than I did! All I wanted to do was be pushed around however and I don't know how this happened, but I got this zap of energy and all of a sudden im ready to take on Wal-mart! I was zipping through making sure we were getting what we needed and not what we didn't need. To make things short we arrived at home around 1:30 in the morning. I was tired, I plopped in the floor and slept. Woke up the next morning, wondering why I made the smart choice of sleeping on the floor. I felt like a piece of solid concrete. Stiff and sore!
On Saturday, we woke up early to go to my sister's kids baseball games and that was fun. It just made me think about how much I would love to try baseball. It just looks so much fun. After watching two baseball games, we headed to breakfast. and from there I fell, literally downhill! What happened to my theory of thinking about exercise?! Ha, I threw that out the door. Golly gee whiz, going to mexican food for breakfast is not a smart idea! After that, I tried to make better food choices but it didn't go smooth, as I expected.
On Easter Sunday we went to a park and had a barbeque, I was excited. We were going to have a easter egg hunt for all the kids, as well as we brought kites and frisbes to play with. I was having so much fun. Food was good, there was hot dogs, hamburgers, potato salad etc. Alot of yummy food! After playing in the park and attempting to play baseball (note to self, never wear a dress when playing baseball) and getting hit countless times, I wassad to see it all end. Everyone went home and it was time to get back to the weekly grind.
After everyone went home, I was eating dinner like usual, and out of nowhere, I got these pains like stomach flu pains. It was so painful. I couldn't breathe, and I felt like someone was pushing my stomach in really hard. After a couple hours soon to find out my TOM stopped bye. I hope this doesn't happen each time now. I have noticed that each month its something new with my TOM.
Sorry for being M.I.A. This will never happen again! I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter weekend and I hope that everyone's week is going well!! I promise to check on everyone, I missed you all!!!! Thank you for everyone who checked up on me! I love you all!
I hope everyone has a wonderful week! Talk to ya soon!
Never ever give up! Keep up going no matter what!
P.S. I have been using my jump rope everyday, and im glad to say I have not quit, even after tripping myself like 60,000 times! haha! Im going to make it to 20!!!
Im posting a quick update! Thank goodness it's Friday! Today has been filled with running errands, and getting everything done before everyone arrives. Thankfully I was able to make it to boxing class!
Today I even bought a jump-rope. I know when I was little I could jump-rope (of course not that well, something about jump-ropes, don't know) anyways, I decided to buy one while I was shopping, and I have decided that Im going to re-teach myself to jump-rope and not be afriaid of it! I quit after the first try because im that bad!! Not this time, its going to take practice, but eventually *crossing my fingers* I will get it!!
Nothing else is new, however I have been OP all day long. Tommorow starts the challenge with a baseball game to go to for both my sister's kids and having a pool party! Im excited and I know it will all be under control! We can all do this! I know we can!!
Yesturday I went easter shopping with my sister. We stocked up on food for the next couple of days. Like I said in my earlier post, we have alot of family coming in and we celebrate practically every waking moment. Anyways we went to Wal-mart to go shopping so the bill wouldn't be sooo $$$. I wanted to go to Costco but she cancelled her membership because she never used it! I would be there buying in bulk every week!
While at Wal-mart we were buying easter candies to fill the baskets and for the easter egg hunt for the kids and of course how could we forget the adults. I of course told my sister I will be participating this year in the easter egg hunt, considering last year there was floating dollars in some of the eggs! We picked up bags and bags of candy...Kit Kat, Snickers, M&M's, Butterfinger, every kind of candy I just wanted to inhale. Then we passed along the Cadbury Eggs. I have never tried them and I thought him well I could treat myself to one, so I looked for the nutrion label and I had to look in the box it was in and there popped in my head 180 calories! What 180 CALORIES FOR ONE EGG!!! No thanks! I could get a starbucks, ice cream scoop from baskin robbins, 2 scrambled eggs, a cup of cereal with milk, I could have alot more for that one egg, and it would last more than a couple seconds!
So after thinking about it, I think my plan to conquer this fun filled weekend of eating, is to think about what else I could eat, think about how much more I could eat then settling for a piece of chocolate, etc. That and I will just think about how hard I workout boxing and how much I sweat. Just thinking of all the hard work we put into exercising, makes me stay away from the candy!
I will be in control!!!
I have a list of things to do today! Have to run! I will check on you all later!!
Before I go!
I forgot to mention, I just found out Taco Bell is going to start serving Breakfast as of today. I thought it was intresting, I looked on their site, but nothing yet of nutrition facts.
oh yeah! I posted new front and side view pictures!
EEK! It's already Wednesday! Holy Macaroni! I have family coming into town this Friday for Easter Weekend, and I still have so much to do! Like clean up my place, and I have to go and help my sister with the grocery shopping for our celebrations. Usually when family comes we have parties everyday they are here! Which means I need to start thinking about my eating plans for this weekend because Im not going to go off plan, and go crazy with my eating. OP I will stay!
My eating has been OP this week and Im feeling SORE! I wish I could describe the soreness, if you poke me, I want to cry like a baby. I went to kick boxing class yesturday after going to Boxing on Monday. She really kicked my booty! I have alot of learning to do. I was mad at myself the whole night because I let other people who have been going their longer than me intimidate me. I have to stop this! I will learn, and I will get there as well! So even though im sore, im still going to go to class today. I have to build my body to be stronger. Singing *I will survive*.
Today we are supposed to hit the 90's! Holy Smokes! Im going to be on fire! Got to get the sunscreen out!
Im feeling so much better than I was yesturday!! So much better!!! So last night I went to this new gym that specializes in boxing and kickboxing. I was intrested because I love boxing, and at LA Fitness they offer it but like I said its not challenging enough and its more aerobic than anything. So I went to go and check out this gym, now before I keep going im going to tell you that this gym is a small gym it has a (ring), boxing corner, maybe 10 workout machines and the rest weights. So its not a huge gym. However when I walked right in I felt something that I didn't feel with LA Fitness. I know this sounds weird, but I felt more welcome, like a comfort.
Its owned by two wonderful people and they talked to me for about an hour about everything, not just the gym! So I took the boxing class, before I took the class however, I had to learn how to protect my hands with wraps, and how to properly hit. Im sad to say I wasn't taught this at the other gym. It was an amazing feeling putting on my gloves!
Class started and it was brutal, there were only about 12 people in the class, and the instructor has been boxing for 11 years and has been in many competitions. So he kicked my butt. When it came to AB work, we were using medicine balls (10lbs) and I wanted to stop, well he made me do five more! Learned my lesson! I pushed through the whole class, and afterwards I felt this huge weight lifted off from me. I was happy, not stressed out and I was like this the whole night and still today! Im so glad I found something that is going to help me.
I think that sometimes change is needed in any journey we go through. I think this change is for the better. I have to take things one step at a time, nothing is going to be easy, but im ready for anything!
Thank you everyone for all the reassuring me in the time I needed it the most! Thank you! Im so glad to have all of you, and I couldn't ask for anything better!
I hope everyone has a wonderful Tuesday!!!
"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it."
Good Afternoon to all! Is it nice outside, or what?! Let me just whip out my sunscreen and water and im ready to go outside and bask myself in the sun! Ahhh, how I love this warm weather. Unbelievably it’s not even hot to me; I think it’s just perfect. Like I have said many times after losing all this weight I find myself being cold all the time, well I’m liking that even as warm as it is its perfect, and there is no more chills all over my body!! WOOHOO!
You can skip this, if you want to; warning; boring and just letting my feelings out.
So lately I have noticed some changes in myself. Inside and outside, I have started to see these changes. Im not going to say these changes are bad but im not going to agree that they are good either. This journey of weight loss has taught me that changes can be bad and good but I have learned to take them in as a good thing, it lets me grow in so many ways. This past week, I have been in the slumps. I try not to write it out on my blog as much, because I don’t want to sound like a downer but It’s trapped inside of me. I have tried communicating with others than my family but their response to it all is nothing that I would want to give to anyone. Some of them tell me to sleep all day long or go and eat my favorite meal. That is not going to do anything to me and I want something more than just food and sleeping all day long. Therefore, Im going to write out my feelings so I can un-trap all my emotions that are stuck inside and hopefully start feeling better soon.
First off, im not going to lie this whole maintenance thing is a lot harder than the losing weight part. I think that has been a majority of my problems. Im not sure where I want to go from here. I know im happy with my weight but every time I look in the mirror, I see something that makes me want to change it. I know im not the only one that has felt like this because we all have. Im admitting to it because im human. I have tried talking to myself and telling myself that Im beautiful and that I should not let flaws that im not happy with make me down. I just feel like I could keep improving myself. I want to get this out of my head, as much as I want to its just not that easy.
Stress has been causing me to not want to do anything but be at home lying in bed. This is not me, Im such a happy, energetic person. If you were to meet me in person, I have all this energy; I could go on for hours. I want to be that person again, nothing used to get me down, and it seems like I all my energy goes towards worrying about my weight and food. I swear it’s on my mind every second of the day. In my head I lay out a map of when all my snacks and meals are, and when Im exercising. Im not saying this is bad, but I feel like it’s in my head all the time. I just want to wake up one day and know that everything is in place. Yeah I will keep working out everyday and eating right, because its all second nature to me but is it bad to be this obsessive?
I need to slowly work on the deeper things in my life. I need to work inside then outside; I need to create a balance over everything. Slowly im learning that im not going to let a simple thing such as a day-to-day weight fluctuation or a flaw on my body get me down. I tell myself why would I let something like a tiny gain or anything get me down and ruin my day. I want to prove to myself that im not only stronger than food but im stronger than a machine. I want to know I have control of myself!
Sorry for the long not very happy blog, but I needed to get this out. You ever have something in you just bothering you and you will not be okay until you let it out or tell it to someone? Its just one of those things, that has to be let out or there is no peace.
Thank you for reading my post, if you did!!! I really appreciate it!
Today, I signed up to a new gym, it’s not really a gym with machines or anything like that, but a gym that concentrates on boxing, and kickboxing. Even though I go to LA Fitness, and there boxing class is a class they offer it’s more of an aerobic class if you know what I mean. I want the real thing, im ready for a challenge! So today I have a class to try it out and see if I like it! Im excited! I will let you all know how it went later on!
I hope you all have a wonderful Monday! Happy April to everyone!!! Keep on going and remember to never ever give up even through hard times, we just have to push through them a little bit harder, but I promise we can break down that wall, holding us back. Push through it!!
Now I know this is a day where people around the world play jokes on people, but im never good at that. From all my attempts in the past years, Im just not good pulling off tricks! So there will be no April Fool's prank from me! Haha! However, this is the day where people come to me and always play jokes on me! I think its fun, after knowing its a joke. I will go the whole day forgeting its April fool's, and then when someone tells me something, or does something im going to believe it! Then they are going to say April Fools and there I will be a fool! Haha!
Its four in the morning! Yes four, and I cant go to sleep. Holy smokes, I need to go to sleep. Im tired! I just went to the bathroom and was thirsty and I went back to bed to layed there for an hour and with my eyes wide open trying to go to sleep. If I don't get sleep im gonna be a grouch!
So along with it being Aprils Fool's it's also the first day of April! A new month!!! March is gone with and what happened in March is in the past, we are moving towards the future, and im going to start out new.
I really only have one goal this month, and thats to keep on going and to know that I can't beat myself for every mistake I make. I just can't. Im human and mistakes our like BFF.
Well I hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday and 1st day of April!
Good Morning!!!! It's so beautiful outside, a little chilly (well if you ask me Im always cold ) but the sun is shining out so beautiful!
Quick update as in in a time crunch!
Friday was awesome! First It was not only a day off for me on my workouts, but I also met up with sas3!!!! It was awesome! First it was nerve racking, but after the first two minutes It's like we knew eachother and we were just meeting for lunch. We went and ate at a local market in town. It was very yummy!!! We talked for a good 2 hours! Very nice!!
Anyways, in the evening I went out to mexican food with some gals, and oh my goodness. We all know that me and mexican food were once BFF however we are now huge enemies! In otherwards, If you put me in front of mexican food their is a very good chance I will not push it away. Thank goodness their is no such thing as Mexican buffets! Can you imagine all the food?!
Okay well after three my eating kind of went down the drain.
I ate, 8 chocolate chip cookies (chips ahoy) 5 double cream chocolate cookies, I shared a Apple filled Chimichanga with ice cream! Oh and I ate a whole lot of chips and salsa and then dried pears and lets not forget the orange juice, oh and im sure more cookies! < -----------how my tummy felt afterwards!!
Goodness, as I write this out it looks bad!! So no more eating like that! Even if its only once in awhile, I just didn't feel good afterwards, I was moody, my tummy hurt and I had the worst headache. Just not worth it!
Im not sure if it's just me but this week went by fast. Maybe, everything to me is just flying by now!
Babysitting last night, was lots of fun. We watched Happy Feet! Happy Feet just makes me laugh so hard, I that movie! As for the whole dinner thing, I gave them options such as (fish and rice; sandwiches and soup, burgers and mashies, or bean burritos with rice) well Im over here thinking pick the fish and rice! Ha! First they wanted Mcdonald's, yeah my answer was a quick, no. They were like, well mommy takes us their. Well first off my sister always takes them to fast food places because its fast, but it's killing me to see my little four year old niece, know more about Mcdonald's than anything else. I told them it wasn't healthy for you; they replied with yeah we know.
So they ended up having sandwiches with popcorn, and fruit! They loved it and best of all good for their little bodies!
Random thought: On Wednesday night at five in the morning, I guess instead of sleep walking, I was sleep calling. I called my brother's cell phone five times at five in the morning! I know, it was so funny. I didn't know about it until I woke up and he called me asking if everything was okay. I was like, its five in the morning! Why are you calling me, he was laughing, he replied to me and said you are the one calling me. I looked at my call logs sure enough! Haha! It was a wonderful moment!
Oh yesturday when I was working out, I sometimes read magazines to not pay attention to time, well as I was reading I came across this....
"Another reason not to let the numbers creep up on the scale: People who have peeled of pounds need to work harder at maintaining their new weight than those who never gained in the first place. Successful losers ate about 5 percent fewer grams of fat and logged eighr more minutes of vigourous exercise daily. No gain, less pain." Self Magazine
Intresting, but its the truth!
Alrighty, im off! Have a wonderful and relaxing Friday and weekend!!!!
Im so sorry it has been a long time since I have last updated! Wowzers! 
The last time I updated was on Friday! Bad Alexia! That will not happen again, I promise! I miss you all and Im sorry for not being on here since Friday, wow I guess time does really fly by!
however and I don't know how this happened, but I got this zap of energy and all of a sudden im ready to take on Wal-mart! I was zipping through making sure we were getting what we needed and not what we didn't need. To make things short we arrived at home around 1:30 in the morning. I was tired, I plopped in the floor and slept. Woke up the next morning, wondering why I made the smart choice of sleeping on the floor. I felt like a piece of solid concrete. Stiff and sore! 
Not this time, its going to take practice, but eventually *crossing my fingers* I will get it!! 
We picked up bags and bags of candy...Kit Kat, Snickers, M&M's, Butterfinger, every kind of candy I just wanted to inhale. Then we passed along the Cadbury Eggs. I have never tried them and I thought him well I could treat myself to one, so I looked for the nutrion label and I had to look in the box it was in and there popped in my head 180 calories! What 180 CALORIES FOR ONE EGG!!! No thanks! I could get a starbucks, ice cream scoop from baskin robbins, 2 scrambled eggs, a cup of cereal with milk, I could have alot more for that one egg, and it would last more than a couple seconds!
Got to get the sunscreen out!
) but the sun is shining out so beautiful! 