*I need help here, im stuck in something and i need to know what to do*
Okay, so this past week i was doing really good, then i went out to dinner with the family and what i thought was going to be a good dinner turned out to be bad, i ate everything in sight of me, and i never felt the feeling of "fullness" like i had felt that night. Well i got over that and told myself it was okay. Well this week i have done really good but when i get around workers or im at work i tend to snack alot! There is always food there around me and im always eating it. Last night didnt help either, i was doing good then at midnight when out and had taco bell I cant do anything this morning. Im letting it take over me. The feelings are taking over my body. I feel so guilty i dont know what to do. I keep blaming myself. I try and tell myself its okay and it happens, and that no day is perfect, but it seems as though my body doesnt want to hear that. This is where i need help. I dont know how to get over things, i know that their are days where we splurge or go a little overboard, but i take it out on myself. I hope im not the only one feeling like this....Worst of all i have a meeting tonight at work and theres going to be lots of food...
I hope that today can be better and i dont get like this anymore.
Sorry for the vent, I hope everyone is having a sunday! I cant wait for Monday to start.
Hello Thursday! Wow, I can't believe its already Thursday and that only means one thing....FRIDAY IS TOMMOROW!!!!! Yes im smiling very wide i need the weekend badly!
I woke up this morning not able to move my upper arms, its amazing how much you need them when you cant really use them. I cant even lift my purse! haha
Anyways, tonight im going to dinner with the family, excited to go because i have really been craving pasta And we all know when we crave something we really really want it.
The other day i was adding up all my inches of how much i have lost since i started and total for me has been 34 inches!!!! I was like wow! That is alot!!! So i was roaming around my house thinking and i came up with this idea! And i think you should all try it!!
**Add up how much you have lost so far since you started, whatever number you get, take out your measuring tape and some ribbon and measure the ribbon to how much you have lost. After you have done that cut it and really hold it up and you will notice how much you have lost. I think this is really cool, because when you want to dive in and go for the sweets or maybe the pantry get the string out and you will really re-think your actions. We just see it as a two digit number but when we see it in perspective we really think "wow" that is alot and i have come a long way!! I think its a great motivational boost!**
Like I said you dont realize how much you lost or how far you have come until you see it in perspective.
Hope today is a wonderful day for everyone! Never give up and never forget to smile
"One of the secrects of life is learning to make stepping stone out of stumbling blocks"
Good evening to all! Im updating while cooking dinner, tonight is mexican food night!!!! Im making quesadillas! mmm yummy!
So today was WI and i was feeling really iffy about it. I had both good and bad feelings about it, but in the end i came in weighing 165.6!!!! I lost 1.8 pounds this week!! So far my total is 68.2 Pounds!!!!!
Im really excited, it just hit me that im only 1.8 pounds away from hitting 70!!! That is my next mini goal and i was thinking if i lose it before thanksgiving or after either way im happy because i have come so far and i have acchomplished alot. :)
I hope everyone else's weigh in was fantastic! Im sure it was! KEEP ON GOING!!!!!
Oh and i was reading Leanne's Blog and she was talking about a goal towards new years! And im going to set my goal as well, i want to lose 5 pounds, and i know if i dont get there no worries.
Alrighty, im off, got to get crackin with my bills i have to pay!
Alrighty, good evening to all! Im so glad this weekend is over! Party #2 went down with a slam and im finally going to be able to relax without my sister calling me every three hours to help for the party!
So all day Saturday, i baked and baked cupcakes. Lots of them. I was tempted the smell made me want to scarf down the whole bowl but i didnt lick anything! I decorated them and put them in the rightful place which was not my stomach! During the party i was pretty happy with myself, i told myself i was only allowed three pieces of pizza and that was all i had. Even though trays of pizza kept coming as one tray was finished, i only had three slices. I was doing good until we sang "happy birthday" and out came the paper plates filled with cake!!!!
I wanted to run, and i did towards my plate!! I ate two slices of yummy white cake with buttercream frosting! I enjoyed myself and the party was fun, everyone was having fun chatting and laughing. So even though i ate two slices i enjoyed them!
So now no more gatherings until Thanksgiving! Which means i leave in two weeks!!
A few weeks ago i discovered something so yummy and i have been meaning to share but i kept forgetting! When i was making a sandwich i decided that i wanted to steer away from mayo and i added avocado, oh my!!! it is soooooooo good and 1/4 cup on one slice of bread only adds 58 calories!! yummy!
This morning i woke up and rushed as i always am, i really dont think about much accept what i need to do and what time i need to be out by. However, this morning i was doing my hair and im looking in the mirror, i dont really make a time of the day to stare at my body. I was looking at my body and i stopped everything i was doing and took a minute to look at myself. I couldnt believe what i saw, i have never seen my body look like this ever. I started to touch my body making sure i wasn't dreaming. It's all real. It dawned on me that everyday my body is changing, and im becoming a different person every second. I'm happy, and i have never been so happy in my life.
I will never see the body i once was, but i will never forget who i was either. I guess what im trying to point out is we should appreciate our beautiful bodies at any time and we should love ourselves for who we are. I think its important to notice how beautiful we look and be thankful :)
I love Thursday's because you know its so close to the weekend! More birthday parties this weekend, i have to say im non-stop until after Thanksgiving!
Well guess what it's already November! I know October flew by and left us with November, i cant believe its only 23 days until Thanksgiving. Im nervous and excited, im visiting family i havent seen for years, and i mean years. So its going to be fun and exciting to catch up on old times. Okay so every first of the month i write down my goals for the next month.
I'm praying to the lord to let me get through this month with no complications, im past hospitals, and being sick. I want to finally know im back to normal without any complications. So this month my number one goal is to get my health back to where it was before all this.
My weight loss goal for this next month is 4 pounds
If i dont make it theres no punishiment, last month my goal was 5 pounds and i lost 2 so thats okay, i still lost and thats better than anything.
So this is a message to my fellow EP friends, i hope this next month is filled with happiness and that we get through any obstacle we get thrown with. We are strong and we can get through anything :) I promise :)
I'm very excited for Halloween, today im going to my sister's house to celebrate and go trick-or-treating. Just my luck my weigh in falls on Halloween too haha! Good thing its at 2!! Then im off to go and bake cupcakes! Lets just hope i can keep my fingers away from licking the frosting. This year im not dressing up at least not that i know of. I didnt find anything i wanted to be, and every year i feel the costume places have the same costumes...nothing popped out i wanted to be.
Im really nervous about my weigh in i keep telling myself i did good but im on my TOM and i wouldn't be suprised if i didn't see a gain. Well got to run but before I go, i hope everyone enjoys their Halloween and may it be filled with fun and scary times!
I will update later about my weigh in!!!!
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Hey!!!! So i got back from me weigh in and like i said earlier i was going in with this feeling in me that i didnt do to well and to my suprise i did really well!!!! YAY!!!! I lost 2.6 pounds which brings my total loss this far 66.4 whopping pounds!!!!! I cant believe i have lost that much! I offically broke my 65 pounds mark. Yay!!! Im off!! I will check in later!
So we all now that with TOM comes cravings. These cravings are not small cravings they are more like massive give me every piece of food in site kind of cravings. I knew it was coming because i wanted everything in my sister's pantry. I couldn't give in, but i did when i went to lunch and there in front of me was a glass case (luckliy behind the register because if it wasnt i was going to attack it) full of delicious yet destructable treats. Lemon bars, brownies, cookies, cake, and tarts danced in my head like i was in heaven. I dove in and i ordered the lemon bar, i sat down and took a bite and then the bite turned into several and in two minutes i had scarfed down a slice of decadant lemon bar.
All day, sweets called my name i heard it "ALEXIA EAT ME" and all day i ate the sweets and now im paying for it. I have a terrible stomach ache and im afraid this is what i get. I lay in bed and it only gets worst oh the joys of too much sugar. I ate it and i payed for it. So as fas as my Sunday, it was nice until now!
Hope this week is good, good luck to all!!!! Don't give up!!!
This is the forth time i have been kicked off and my entry erased!!! Im going to kill my computer! haha
Alright, as I have been trying to say, i feel as though this week went by really fast. I still feel like its Monday and not Thursday! I have a really good feeling time is going to be going this fast until next year :)
Im really excited for the weekend. On saturday im doing a 5K race and then going rock climbing afterwards That has been one of the things i have always wanted to do. Im a little nervous, because i have never climbed up a wall, but i have to start somewhere!
My weigh-in is just around the corner and im very very very excited to weigh in! I weighed in at home and i know sometimes my scale is a little off. We will see!
Well im off because I have lots of errands to run, but before I leave I created a picture album of my weight loss progress because i cant post alot on here. I know there is not alot but i was never really a camera person because i was embarresed of myself. Enjoy! I also posted new pictures of me taken last week!!!
I love tuesday's because i have the rest of the day off after school and i dont have to worry about work :)
I was catching up on "Ugly Betty" episodes, and im glad to say that i could not get away from the computer. Thank goodness for free episodes. I don't have to worry about missing a show! haha
Today, im glad to say i feel like my normal self. I really do think that by not eating well over the weekend even if it was three days, i felt out of it and not my normal self. Its hard to explain.
I was thinking and it just hit me last night that their is only four weeks until I leave for Texas for Thanksgiving! The holidays are coming faster than i really expected! Then its going to be 2007!! Time sure does fly by.
I have beent thinking about taking up a dancing class. I really want to step out of the box and try new things, i know i have tried alot of new things, i would have never have done and im happy :)
I finally went and bought myself some cycling shoes they look soo awesome! I cant wait to get on the bike and use them!
I weighed in at home and the scale read 170.2 so yay!!
I cant do anything this morning. Im letting it take over me. The feelings are taking over my body. I feel so guilty i dont know what to do. I keep blaming myself. I try and tell myself its okay and it happens, and that no day is perfect, but it seems as though my body doesnt want to hear that. This is where i need help. I dont know how to get over things, i know that their are days where we splurge or go a little overboard, but i take it out on myself. I hope im not the only one feeling like this....Worst of all i have a meeting tonight at work and theres going to be lots of food...
I enjoyed myself and the party was fun, everyone was having fun chatting and laughing. So even though i ate two slices i enjoyed them!
I lay in bed and it only gets worst oh the joys of too much sugar. I ate it and i payed for it. So as fas as my Sunday, it was nice until now! 
That has been one of the things i have always wanted to do. Im a little nervous, because i have never climbed up a wall, but i have to start somewhere!