So I can't eat until my doctor's appointment!!! So last night I went to bed planning, so I won't think about food too much. I usually get up and im eating in less than five minutes, well not today since I have my doctor's appointment. I have to get blood drawn as well as the abdominal check to make sure everything is okay. Hopefully I wont die from not eating! haha! I even slept in so I would just have to wake up and go....yeah that didn't work out at all! Oh well!
I will update later!!!
Update!!
Okay went to the doctor, to get my ultrasound to see if everything is okay, and what is causing all these pains. First off let me declare im VERY, and I mean VERY ticklish on my stomach! So the whole time I wanted to laugh so hard, I was biting my lip so I could hold it in! Anyways, they really didn't say much to be everything looks good, and they will send the results to my doctor, I was like okay. Odd, I was thinking they would explain to me, but I guess not. Anyways got my blood drawn and it went fine. It didn't hurt, and I didn't bruise! WOOHOO!!!
Got alot of errands to run today. Tonight im babysitting my sister's kids so they can do on a date!! It's been a long time since they went on a date, and finally they decided to, so here comes super babysitter!
Have to start thinking what im going to cook for dinner. Im searching for ideas they we can all agree on.
Before I go, does anyone else have a Starbucks obsession? goodness I could go there everyday....bad but true!
Today was a much better day than yesturday! I went to bed last night thinking why am I going to be sad and sluggish! Life is so short and I want to enjoy it, I don't want to be unhappy. Im going to wake up everyday and face it with strength and im going to show it who is boss!
I hope everyone's Wednesday went well! Today I was craving sweets! We all know that when it comes to sweets, I get weak! However, today I thought of something; I could either go and get the Coldstone Ice cream I have been craving, or I could improvise and make something at home. So in the end I saved $$$ and calories! I got a scoop of sugar-free Blue Bunny Ice cream and added my own mix-in. I added one of Newman's Organic Peanut butter cup. Oh my, it hit the spot and it was just what the doctor ordered! haha!
I improvising on things, that I love and I can still love, but healthier and half the calories!
Alrighty, im off to check on you all!!! Enjoy the rest of your Wednesday!!
I have been trying my hardest to make it a good day, but it's just one of those days. I know we all have them and boy do I hate them. It started this morning when my alarm didn't go off, I was late by two hours. How I loved the extra sleep, but I had so much planned. I didn't let that get to me today, went on with my normal morning. Things happen, and I can't get bent out of shape because of them.
Then after a long hectic morning, I had to reschedule my doctor's appointment until Thursday at nine, because I just have way to many important things to do tommorow for school, and I just can't miss it.
Well today when I went to the gym, hoping to get some of my stress off and to get some more energy that I had been lacking I decided to go to the sauna. I rarely do, because im always in a time crunch, but today I arrived early for class and I decided what the heck im going to relax a little. So I get in and there were two other girls in their talking, and talking. It didn't bother me that they were talking out loud, just some of the things, really pushed me over the edge. They started talking about how its sad it is to see overweight women working out. One of the girls commented this, "they are destined to be fat forever." Goodness, I just wanted to slap them, I couldn't believe it, after five minutes of hearing what a perfect body was to them, I no longer payed attention to how hot it really was. I was already fuming with anger. Then they went on about how they think its funny that some women can only run for like five minutes. That right there, pissed me off to no end. I don't ever get mad, but I stood up with sweat dripping and I said "It doesn't matter if they can only run for five minutes, so what if they only run for two minutes. We all have different levels, and different bodies. We have to adjust and train our bodies to run faster, and longer. At least they are trying and pushing through. At least they are actually making a difference in their health, and most important they are not giving up. That is better than you two just talking away in a sauna and calling it your workout, next time you start to talk about other people, just remember karma comes back to you in ways you never wished it did." I walked out with fumes coming out of my ears, and went to my workout.
Im not going to let anyone damper my day, especially with talk like that. I finally got the guts to say something to girls like those. Well anyways, im off to bed. Even though I had a sluggish day, I didn't give up, life is too short to be upset and sad.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Tuesday, and I hope you all have a wonderful Wednesday!!!!!
Like I said from my post on Sunday, thank goodness for Monday's! Im starting fresh this week!! Today all I have planned is to clean, clean, and clean! Spring Cleaning it is! I have just got to get organized with all my paperwork and other things around the apartment! I know once I get my place organized and cleaned, my life will slowly de-clutter itself! I think this going to help me alot!
So Today, I start a fresh, new week ahead! If I fall along the way, thats fine with me. I make mistakes (love them) and I learn from them for the future!
I know If I write them down, it will do be better :)
Goals for the week:
Eat more at home and cook my own meals, exercise 6 days a week for 60 minuites, and strength train three x a week, and to always be happy!!!
Last week with the whole busy schedule, I ate out more than I wanted as well as I didn't fit in all my exercise and opps, I forgot to strength train last week! No, No! Anyways those are all my goals for the week!
I will be going to the doctor later on today so until then im going to clean my little away!
I will update later! Thank you to everyone who is praying for me and behind me, it means the world to me.
Update! Okay so went to go and have my ultrasound and I had been waiting for a good thirty minutes. They call me up to the window and explain to me that the tech has decided not to go ahead and do the ultrasound because I have eaten and can make everything complex. Well, when I called the office to schedule my appointment no one told me about how I could not eat! Am I just supposed to assume? I even asked her is their anything I need to do! Ha-ha! So I had to go home re-schedule. BAH, HUMBUG! I was mad but I calmed down and told her well things happen. So I have my next appointment at nine on Wednesday. This time it will be for sure, and I will not eat! Oh well! You can’t do anything about it! I am off to cleaning and then to check on you all! J
Happy Sunday to all! Im happy to have a new week start tommorow! I love new weeks especially after this hectic, stressful week, im ready! Bring it on! Haha!
Thank you to everyone who commented me about yesturday's post. Made me feel assured and is just gave me that extra boost I needed. Thank you!
Yesturday, at work the pains kept coming off and on. I tried to ignore it and go on with my work. However, by 9:30 I was so tired and the pains were coming so much more that I had to go home. Came home and just went to bed. Im feeling much better, Im just not going to try and think about it. I really do think alot of this has to do with stress. I have been stressing more than usual. If I think about it I think I cause it to come back. So, I'm just going to hold it out until tommorow, when I go for my abdominal sonogram. Im crossing my fingers its nothing. We will wait and see.
Nothing planned for today but working and TRYING to get myself re-organized! I have a stack of bills and paperwork that needs to get filed away but I have been putting it off because I haven't had the time. Well this week and today, Im going to just that!
My goal for today: not stress at all. Have a calm Sunday!
I wish everyone a wonderful Sunday! Have fun and enjoy!
Happy Weekend to all!!! The weather is beautiful over here, the sun is shining through and Im crossing my fingers that was the last of the weird weather! Lets bring on the warm weather!!
Yesturday, I went to my doctor's appointment. She was amazed at me! When the nurse took me in to weigh me the doctor was standing writing notes and she looked at me quickly and then took a second look. She came to me and said "you are looking hot!" I laughed and she kept going on how she can't believe how I transformed into this beautiful young lady. I was blushing with all of the wonderful comments. Its funny, because I never used to get compliments and now they pour and I blush whenever I get them. but at the same time im happy as can be!!!
After waiting for awhile, she came in and we talked. I told her I wanted to get blood tests done on me. So she sent me to get everything tested so I know where im standing. Now we just have to wait for the news! However, I also went because lately I have been having pain in my stomach. Like a pressure pain, where it hurts to breathe and its painful. Well the past couple of days I have started to have a nausated feeling with my stomach. However, I dont throw up it just feels like I want to. I know its not the stomach bug because I think I would have already reacted. Well at least I think I would.
So all last night, I coudn't sleep at all. The pains were so painful. I was close to going to the ER but I hate the ER. After my experience last year with the spinal tap, and blood patch, I think I had my dose of the ER. So im sticking it out. I have a sonogram on Monday to see if maybe they can see whats going on. God im praying its nothing bad. I have been praying all day, and its not helping that im worrying to much. I need to breathe and relax. Im in God's hands and he's going to take care of me.
Other news, I work all day long today! Im actually excited, get my out of the house for a little bit!
Oh! I added new photos to my photo album! I added a new starting photo as well as halfway photos! I found them and I was uber exicted, because I didn't really have alot of photos to start with. I have it posted on my fridge. I look at it and I smile, because I made the change to change my life. I still can't believe im 87 pounds lighter! Just a little side note to everyone. Anything is possible in life, you have to push through every obstacle and hang strong, and focused. You can do it! NEVER GIVE UP!!
Well I'm off! Have a wonderful Weekend everyone!!!!! *hugs to all*
P.S. Sunmaid chocolate covered raisins are amazing, and addictive! Oh my! You were not kidding Leanne!!!!
First, im not going to even tell you what today is! Oh how glad I am that Friday is here Yesturday after one, I went and exercised and relaxed the whole day. Of course I wasn't at home relaxing, but I went to the book store, caught up on some reading and it was just a no-rushed Thursday. Today I have my doctors appointment so we will see how that goes!
Its so cold!!! *shivering* I didn't think the rain and winds and cold weather was going to hit like this! But they said by Saturday we are supposed to get back to the 70's! I know weird!
In other things, when I came home last night I was checking my emails and when I started to read all the comments about me being on the homepage! I was shocked and excited!!! I knew it was coming, I just didn't know exactly when!!! Its funny to see yourself pop up on their I still can't believe it! I told my whole family about it and they were laughing because I made it seem like the end of the world! Well, I told them this is big news to me! I was very excited and heck I still am!!! <------ This is how I look right now!!! Excited and proud!
Last night dinner was awesome! I remembered why I love Mimi's Cafe so much! I ordered the 1/2 roasted turkey sandwich with a side of fruit! LOVED IT! Only I forgot to ask without mayo, but don't panic, I just scraped it all off! Afterwards I went back to my sister's house and she had made this chocolate cake. I didn't want any that was until I stepped in the kitchen and their it was this beautiful layer of chocolate cake....mmmmm. There are no words to describe it! I took a piece, but I didn't feel guilty at all for taking it like I would have done in th past. I was treating myself and the good thing is I know when to stop. Before I could of eaten the whole thing, I stopped and controled myself!
Alrighty, im to go and check on you all! Thank you so much for all the countless support you guys give me. It means the world to me and I just wanted to say I love you all, and im glad to have you all! Thank you!
Its Thursday!!! WOOHOO!!!! Goodness, I don't think I could be any happier! It's not one o'clock yet, but it's going to be here soon! Then im off to go and exercise and relax, there is going to be no more hopping up and down like a bunny rabbit until next week. Hopefully, some of this stress I have been building these past couple of days will disappear into thin air!
This afternoon for dinner, im meeting my sister and her family for dinner at Mimi's Cafe. I have really only been their once of twice, not too much. I went on their website and looked at their menu and options, so im prepared. I can't wait im excited!
You know I was thinking today, about how this is all just second nature to me now. I mean I can't ever see myself doing anything different. I know that I will never ever go back to the weight I once was, never, because I have faith in myself and I trust myself. I hold myself accountable for every choice I make and even with bad choices, I come out a winner just like everyone else. I love making mistakes! Without them, it would be a no fun journey!
Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday! Smile and remember to be proud of what you have acchompished and don't let anyone ever say it's impossible!
Good morning!!! Okay so this crazy busy schedule has offically taken over and its not stopping until at least Thursday at 1 haha! However, even though im running up and down I have managed to keep sane! Huge acchomplishment! I have so many things to catch up on and talk about so here I go!
One thing I learned yesturday.....Jelly Beans are really good.....yeah they are yummy! Especially when you have a whole bowl at work, huge bowl with all kinds of flavors. Oh and then next to the bowl was this handout of how you can mix different jelly bean flavors and make "sweet treats". So I made all kinds of sweet treats including my favorite strawberry coconut! Anyways, to make this short, I couldn't keep my pesky fingers from this huge bowl! So I was eating them all day long at work! Oh my, they just kept me coming for more! After about a couple handfuls, I learned my lesson! While they were good for a little bit, my tummy said NO to them an hour later. Wow, overloading on sweets like I used to before just doesn't work anymore. Thank goodness! One lesson learned! Don't have handful after handful of jelly beans!
I was listening to the news like I do every morning and were supposed to be getting rain and cooler weather! I give up! Thats all I have to say!
So with my weight issues, i have been thinking about what my plans are. I have an appointment with my doctor this Friday to make sure everything is okay. Im going to request another blood results, not because I liked to get pricked but because I want to know where I'm at. Otherwise, im going to be on thinking mode for a little bit. Im going to be playing with all of my eating and exercising. See how my body does with all of it. Its going to be like this for awhile. Im still going to weigh weekly as an offical read, to assure me that im staying on track. However, I still weigh in daily, but thats for my own benefit. Today is weigh in. We will see how it goes!
I will update later, after weigh in! Talk to you all soon!
Afternoon update! Wow, they were not kidding about it being windy! Oh my goodness! While I was outside, things were flying right towards me as if I had a sign on my head that said "objects towards me!" A piece of carpet hit me as well as leaves and other random objects!
Went to weigh in today! Came out with exciting news! First off lost another pound! I will take it! WOOHOO!!! So im down to 147.2!!!! Gosh I still can't believe it, I close my eyes and open them just to make sure it's really REAL!!! WOW! As well as I have lost a total of ready......49 WHOPPING INCHES!!!! I made a new ribbon and its hanging on my fridge! Im going to keep on going and nothing is stopping me!
I hope everyone has a wonderful Wednesday and weigh-in's!!! Come on we can all do it! Never, EVER give up!!!
Monday's will always be Monday's. Today has been nice but just long! Wow, I felt like the hours went by soooo slow, thankfully im at home now, got pass the traffic and all of the construction zones, and im here relaxing. mmmmm how I love to relax haha!
Today was a very busy day, you ever have those days where its nothing but running up and down. Those days, where lunch is five minutes long and snacks are on the run! I had one of those days! Thankfully I came prepared. Made my lunch this morning and brown bagged it! By the way, I forgot to buy bread last night while grocery shopping. I know how does something like that slip my mind, I do not know. So there was no time to go and buy bread, so i improvised! I used an english muffin instead! Wow, was it just as yummy! Oh my goodness! It was sooo good and filling! More sandwiches to come of that!
I know this is very random but I was bored and came across this. I thought it was funny and neat. "How Much do I weigh on Mars?" Its fun to mess around with and see how much you weigh on oh lets say pluto....9.929!!!!! I know! Haha! Totally random but intresting!
I have a busy, busy week ahead of me! So I will pop in as much as I can!! I hope everyone has a wonderful and healthy week ahead!
"Risk, dream, make a new start. Above all, believe in yourself. Have courage and grab at life-it's all there for the taking."
So last night I went to bed planning, so I won't think about food too much. I usually get up and im eating in less than five minutes, well not today since I have my doctor's appointment. I have to get blood drawn as well as the abdominal check to make sure everything is okay. Hopefully I wont die from not eating! haha! I even slept in so I would just have to wake up and go....yeah that didn't work out at all! Oh well!
Anyways, they really didn't say much to be everything looks good, and they will send the results to my doctor, I was like okay. Odd, I was thinking they would explain to me, but I guess not. Anyways got my blood drawn and it went fine. It didn't hurt, and I didn't bruise! WOOHOO!!!
However, today I thought of something; I could either go and get the 
improvising on things, that I love and I can still love, but healthier and half the calories!
Today has been nice but just long! Wow, I felt like the hours went by soooo slow, thankfully im at home now, got pass the traffic and all of the construction zones, and im here relaxing. mmmmm how I love to relax haha!