Well - what a mess I've made.... 

The last 8 months have been a downwards spiral.  Work situation didn't pan out quite the way I'd hoped and as my unhappiness increased so did my weight.  Now here I am right back to where I started from.  I have managed to improve the work situation by finding a new role in the company I'm in - starts Jan 2. YAY!!!

Despite the great news, I am feeling very down.  I feel so fat and to top it off, I had my hair cut yesterday and it looks terrible.  I just get to a place where I seem to have no respect or care for myself.  Then I do something rash like getting my hair cut without really thinking about it.  

I just need to get out of this cycle of self destruction.  Hopefully this is the lowest I will feel.  I don't want to live like this.  I want to be slim and fit .  There - my resolve is set.  I'm going to work out today, eat sensibly, make a new hair appointment .  Focus on the new job and thinking posiitively - I've done it before.......Wish me luck!