The End is Near!

           Pretty strange how different I feel knowing that this will be the last time I have to start this process from such a high weight. High weight of 243 just blows my mind. I'm sure I will always have some type of 'struggle' with my weight, but it will be so much easier to get on track and stay on track when I am only trying to lose 5 lbs. When I do get to my goal, I will watch my weight very carefully and I will not let myself get back here again. I never have understood why anyone...myself at the top of that list...would go through all the difficulty of losing a ton of weight, just to pack it on again...plus some. What is that? I guess it's a sickness. I consider myself reasonably intelligent...so what has to go on in my head that I would allow it to happen again and again. I have been unhappy with my weight for 15 years, there is no telling how much weight I have lost, just to put it back on, plus. This time, I make this vow to myself...I will not allow this weight to 'creep' on again. I love knowing that I'm on my way for the last time, and that this time it will stick because of my decision to stop yo-yo dieting and do it healthy and for the long haul. For years I have resisted making that lifestyle change that the experts push. So, for years I tried pills, plans, programs, gimmicks, all with the same result...failure and disappointment. This time I'm going to lose it right, so that I can lose it for good!