Path to my enlightenment

Thoughts about my journey

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  • Name: Thinkthin
  • City: Jersey City
  • Region: New Jersey
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 177.8cm
Start weight: 300.00lb
Current weight: 301.00lb
Goal weight: 190.00lb
Lost to date: -1.00lb
Remaining: 111.00lb

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only 6000 steps today

I can't believe I only put in that many steps today - what an eye opener!!  I was in the car for 5 hours today, so hopefully tomorrow will be closer to 10,000.  That's my goal for this week!  No wonder the weight is clinging to me!  That pedometer is going to be a big motivator for me - I'm so glad I got it!

It was great to spend some time with my husband and we have decided to go see my parents for a couple of days near the end of June - really excited about that!!  The last 2 times I've seen them this year was for funerals.  We are staying at mom's and if anyone wants to see us they have to come to my mom's house!!  I finally wised up!  I don't have time to run all over creation to see everyone.

I'm working through Tuesday then heading home Wednesday and Thursday.  The 5th is Mosaad's birthday and I have to bake him a cake and fix him dinner!  He won't tell me what he wants for his birthday - and I'm clueless. 

Well, I'm back on my turkey kick.  I've been eating lots of veggies and fruits too - I feel so much better when I don't eat a lot of processed foods.  I do pretty good most of the month if you know what I mean.  There is about 4-5 days a month where I crave salty baked french fries with vinegar and something chocolate -which just ended on Thursday.  Glad that's over!!

I have not been drinking enough water at all, but am going to make a concentrated effort to do better this week!

Well, hope y'all have a great weekQ

 

Rain tomorrow

At least that's what the weatherman says....I'm believing differently!  i want blue skies for my trip home tomorrow!!  I'll be off Wednesday, Thursday, and back to Mass on Friday.  I can't wait to see my husband and he is taking Wednesday and Thursday off.  No real plans yet and that's just fine with me

I do NEED to clean out my clothes storage area - I have about 4 different sizes I need to donate.  There is definitely no room for clothes that do not fit!!

I've planned the menu for both days, so that is out of the way and points are counted - now if I can just get my 12,000 steps in I'll be good to go!  Well - hope y'all have a great day!

 

 

 

Finally!!!!!!!!! McDreamy & Meredith come to their senses!!!

Ok, this post has nothing to do with my weight - still haven't weighed myself, however, tonight was the finale of Grey's Anatomy and it was great!!!  I can't wait until this season comes out on DVD!!!    Finally Dereck and Meredith  - why did it take her so long to figure it out!!!  And what about Calli and Erika - woohoo!!  And I think that Meredith's little sister may have a crush on George!!!

Now the wait begins - it will seem like forever before the next season begins!!!  Oh well - they've always been worth the wait

My brain is mush!!!

Well, everything since Sunday is a complete blur....Sunday I worked 9am-9pm - ate all three meals at Cracker Barrel- as well as every other day so far this week - I'm sick of Cracker Barrel food!!!

 - Monday was 8a,-1030pm, Tuesday was 7am - 230am on Wednesday morning.  Then this morning I went back to work at 9am and left around 4pm.....and today I could feel it - my brain in a sludge.  So, I definitely didn't get anything productive done outside of the employee schedule  and finally gave up - I went to the grocery store and picked up some ground turkey to make turkey burgers - there's a recipe on Oprah's website for the best turkey burgers - if I can muster enough energy to make the chutney and chop all the veggies.  May have to order in - don't think I'm gonna make it...I wish the organic cafe delivered - oh well!  At  least I have the ingredients to make the turkey burgers tomorrow after I get some rest. 

I am off tomorrow and my plans are laundry of course, and maybe a movie if something good is showing!  I haven't really been shopping around here and I really want to get a new phone so maybe I'll do that too.  I really want to go home, but, with just one day off habibi and I decided to just wait and take 3 days next week. 

well, I haven't been on the scales for a minute - I'm actually quite nervous to get on them.  I haven't been journaling or even really thinking about what I'm eating - as a matter of fact most of my meals the last 5 days have been eaten standing up.  Isn't that horrible.  I didn't even take enough time for myself to sit down and eat 3 healthy meals - no excuse for that - I'm almost embarrassed to share that information.  I'm aware that I have an issue putting myself first and my friends seem to see this trait in me(Jennifer) and I am trying to change my behaviors, but I don't think it's gonna happen overnight!  I'll just take one day at a time.

Hope everyone else is having a great week - oh and by the way, despite my long hours and lack of rest my back feels really good!  That's a blessing!

Down for the count...

Well, wouldn't you know that my time off was spent in bed.....and I think it all started with the ride home.  I left Mass at 11 am on Wednesday and didn't get home until 730pm, now it's only supposed to be a 4 hour ride.  My back was killing me - I typically only sit for about 1-2 hours during a normal workday.  I was ok that night and then the next morning habibi and I decided to purge the kitchen....I bent over to pick up a stock pot and couldn't get back up.  Now I'm only 37 - this should not be happening to me.  I couldn't stand up straight, sit down or lie down.  It was horrible.....several Motrin and lots of whining and whimpering later I felt somewhat better....could at least sortof sit.  Thursday was a little better, Friday a little bit better and then this morning I felt about 90% - of course I had to come back to work today which meant another 4 hrs (at least) sitting in the car.  I did stop every hour to walk around - so I guess I could be worse off if I hadn't.  I made it to work and worked 6hrs and now I'm here. 

I haven't gotten any exercise in 5 days.  Now - I'm not big on exercise, but I do love to walk.  Anyway, I tried to walk on the treadmill this morning - no way was that gonna happen.  The staff even noticed that I wasn't moving at my usual speed, then scolded me for being at work, but I honestly felt better today up and moving around than I have any other day!!

I have inventory on Tuesday night and will be able to breathe as soon as that is over and done with.  I think because of the distance I will go home every other week - habibi and I talked about it and he's going to work the same so that we can take of a couple of days together at the same time!!

Not much else going on - didn't get to a meeting and it looks like I stayed the same...boo!!  Really wasn't expecting a loss after the last few days though. Well, I hope y'all have a great weekend and I'll catch you tomorrow.

Are we there yet?

I've got a lot going on with work, but I'm just too exhausted to just focus on my to do lists.  Tomorrow is truck and if I'm going home there are several things I have to do when I'm gonna be off for a few days so, it will take me about 3 hours worth of office work to prepare to be off.  I'm going to be off Wednesday and Thursday and head back on Friday. 

Eating to lose can be difficult at home - Mosaad likes to cook for me.  I've explained to him that he needs to bake everything to help me stay within my points, but he's a huge fan of frying in olive oil, or even drizzling it on everything he eats.   At least he was able to keep the treadmill set up in the spare room so I can try to get 12,000 steps in both days.

Haven't had a chance to go to a meeting although I know where I can go.  I'm planning on attending a meeting on May 21st - the day after inventory.  Oh yes, that's right - inventory, which hasn't been done in this store in a year and a half.  Y'all pray for me.  The worst part of this one is that inventory is scheduled on truck day which means we will get in a truck - process it that morning and then come back and have inventory that night.  I think I need a vacation.... no, I know I need a vacation.

I think I have my priorities confused, I need to be more worried about myself than my job right?  I'm having a hard time putting  myself first.  Any bright ideas out there on changing that?

Well, it's getting late - I need to get to bed.  Hope everyone has a fabulous day tomorrow and I'll check in after work.

McDreamy

This is my show - but I do wish I could shake some sense into Meredith.  And Derek - slept with Rose - WHAT!!!!!!!  He loves Meredith, so why doesn't he - well, I know why he doesn't - Meredith won't let him.  A girl can still dream though!!!!  One day they will be together again! 

Other than that, my day went pretty well.  Weigh in is tomorrow - I'll post my weight - hope everyone has a great Friday!!

What day is it????

I thought it was the last day of work before my day off, but -----no------someone called out for 10-4, so I have to cover for them tomorrow.  So, now my list of things to do is sleep in until 8 - work 10-4, pick up dinner at my new favorite spot here in Mass - Life -Alive and then I have to get some light shopping done.  I would really like to do some laundry too.  This weekend will be nonstop at work.  Mother's Day is the busiest day of the year for our restaurant and we have lots of fun things planned for our guests, so hopefully it will go very fast.

Jenn is coming Friday night and we will probably go out to dinner - maybe a movie too - who knows.  No matter what we do, it's been nice to have a girlfriend semi-close enough to see once a week. 

I am planning on going home next Wednesday and Thursday to see Mosaad - it's been 8 days so far - it will be 15 total before I get to see him - that's way too long!  I'm not waiting that long again - he get's too testy!

Well, hope y'all have a great day tomorrow!

No change...

I didn't actually get to go to a meeting, but I did weigh in on my own scales - I stayed the same.  I didn't journal everyday - so I'll let that be a lessoned learned - oh wait, wasn't that something I've already blogged about.....hmm.

Why is it that I don't do what I know will make me successful??  For example, today I was in such a hurry to get to work that I threw half of my lunch in the trash.  I put the strawberries and yogurt in my lunch bag and for some reason put the sandwich and the hummus and baby carrots right in the trash can.  I thought one of my employees got hungry or something - then after I got to the room and started fixing dinner I found my lunch when I emptied the trash.  That's a little scary - where was my mind when I did that???  Oh well - ageing - don't you love it!

Tomorrow is going to be a wicked long day - I will be going in at 6am to prep for the truck - should be finished by 5 pm with that then I have to set up for a meeting that begins at 7pm and lasts until 9pm.  I will be good for nothing on Wednesday!!  I will have a day off on Thursday though.  I will not be going home since I am only getting one day this week, so I'm just going to catch up on laundry and I also have to get one of my tires checked out.  I've had to put air in it every other day - and this is one of my new tires!!!!  AARRGGHH!!!!!

Well, I'm turning in early tonight so that I won't be grumpy tomorrow!  Hope y'all have a great Tuesday!

Finally some girl time!

It's been over a month since I've been able to spend anytime with a girlfriend - actually longer than that, but tomorrow, Jenn, my friend from Rhode Island is going to come up for a night out  - thank goodness.  We are gonna check out an organic cafe that I'm excited about that is really close - if y'all wanna check it out you can at www.lifealive.com - their mission is about living life alive - sounds like a cool place and the food sounds yummy, so I'm really excited about going.  Then hopefully we will be going to see the new Patrick Dempsey movie - he's my hottie of the year!  So unfortunate for him that I'm taken!

Work was long today and I feel like the stockroom is progressively getting worse - we are moving in the wrong direction, however, I have plans to spend the first 4 hours of my day back there organizing, so I'm sure I'll feel much better about it tomorrow!

I'll check in tomorrow night - y'all gave a great weekend!!!

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