I'm inspired! I'm almost through a whole wk of absolutely no fast food, no late night snacks, and sensible meal solutions. I brought my brkfst and lunch to work, excercised a lil' 2 times this week (will do more next wk) and I got on the scale and saw that I lost 6 lbs.! And even though I have a lot of weight to loose I'm proud of myself. I resisted temptation and I'm feeling confident.
I read my old blogs and get nervous because this has happened before. I don't want to be pessimistic so I'm going to focus on the here and now and not dwell on the past.
One thing that helped me this week is lots of water, and going to bed early! lol I had a slight headache on Monday but the next day my body had adapted to the reduction in calories. I'm aiming for 1200-1500 cals. a day. I only did 1 mile twice this wk but I'm trying to convince myself to do 2 miles on the treadmill tonight. But I'm a lil sleepy. Starting tomorrow I'm doing 1.5 miles and the following week 2 miles at least 3 times a week. Gotta crawl before I can walk.
My long term goal is to be under 200 lbs. My short term goal is to be under 300. (sad but true). My short short term goal is to get through another wk. I'm a week strong. I know in just a few more wks I'll see some change and that'll be the motivation I need to keep on truckin'! lol
IT's day 5 and no weight loss . . . but that time of the "month" for me so hopefully in a few days I'll see something. D@mn! lol I'm on a roll but don't know how much I can keep this up with not one freakin' pound of a shift on tha darn scale! okay . . . I'm breathing, and relaxing. I didn't work out yesterday because I was mad. But I'm going to do some treadmill cardio in an hr or so since I"m off today and opt for an evening work out session as well. Wish me luck! And Happy Friday my fellow "extra-pound-ers"! lol =)
Just got out the shower after doing my nightly treadmill cardio work out. It was rough, but I got through it. I challenged myself more and burned more calories and finished up 2 miles in a lil less time. Still took forever but in due time . . . I'd love to do the LA Marathon so we shall see.
It's wierd because normally by now after only 3 days I'm cheating a lot and giving up. I haven't lost any weight. I think maybe a pound that fluctuates depending on the time of day but I'm not letting it get to me. I'm not even hungry much. I'm just not really thinking much. Just enjoying every day and actually really reflecting on how I "feel" right now.
So today's re-cap. B: 2 oatmeal packs S: 100 cal cheese nips L: turkey subway sandwich no cheese, light mayo w/baked barbq lays, diet coke S: jello and 100 cal chips a hoy cookies, Cheat: 1 piece of chocolate candy w/marshmallows/peanuts D: 2 chicken corn dogs Excercise: 34:27 minutes on treadmill, 2 miles 382 cal. burned! =) . . . gonna try to stay off the scale til' Sunday. By then I hope I'll see at least 2 lbs. (crossing my fingers)!
Day 2 Recap . . . just got off the treadmill. It was a lot tougher than I thought. I'm going to try to do 1 mile in the morning and 1 at night to even things out a bit. I have to take baby steps. I don't want to do too much and end up at the McDonald's drive thru in frustration! lol
So today I ate Brkfst: Oatmeal- 2 packs maple brown sugar/low sugar 160 cals. each (320) total. Snacks: lf choc jello pudding (100), 2 100 cal snacks (200), and Dinner: el pollo loco chicken salad and chicken breast ( /- 800)
Excercise: 37 mins 45 secs on treadmill. 2.03 miles, 330 calories burned . . . weight: 320 =(
Happy New Year! . . . to anyone who reads this. I'm not going to make loosing weight this year's "resolution". I opt to just focus on getting healthier for me. Not because of the new year. It's crazy reading everything I've written and knowing that I'm back at square one. I started Monday 1/6/08. I've eaten well for the first 2 days. I did only 15-20 mins. of Tae Bo last night and realized how out of shape I am. Tonight I'm going to hop on the treadmill and attempt to do 4 miles. I'm not looking forward to it! lol . . . it's hard! I'm out of breath after 5 minutes. lol
I want to watch Biggest Looser tonight. I think it comes on. So inspirational . . . and right now I could use that extra kick of motivation.
To anyone reading this that is starting . . . my prayers are with you and me both! But we can do it. I got a great quote emailed to me today. It said something along the lines of "Discipline is the bridge that brings goals and success together." Or something like that . . . that's all it takes for me to make it . . . Discipline! Is it going to be hard? hell yeah! But is it going to be worth it?! Of course!
I'm tired of not living. I'm here but I am not actively participating in my "life" . . . I avoid people/conversations/events/fun! . . . because I hate the way I look. I can't even take a compliment. It's hard. But enough of that!
I'm excited. My birthday is in a lil less than a month. I'll be 25 on Feb. 3rd. My goal is to be under 300 lbs. Which I know sounds terrible . . . it is. But I have a hell of a lot of weight to loose. I'm sticking to short goals. My friend gets married next yr. in May and I want to be under 200 by then! It's so possible though. I'm going to do it. I owe it to myself to be happy. =) So on that note . . . let me go change clothes and hop on this treadmill! =( lol
I logged into my account and have been reading some old posts of mine and I can't belive I let so much time slip by. I'm pretty sure I've gained some weight back but am not getting on the scale for at least 2 wks or so. Maybe longer if I can help it so I am not discouraged.
I am sooooooooooooo drained. I feel helpless but realize I shouldn't because it's so simple. Eat less and excercise! I'm going grocery shopping this wknd and going to journal everything I put in my mouth and excercise as much as possible. My birthday is in 2 months and I would LOVE to loose 30 lbs. by then. IT's a bit much but I think I can do it.
I was listening to the WEndy Williams Experience as I tend to do everyday while I'm working online. And she read a quote that some famous older former rock star said. He didn't want to let himself go as he aged, and said "Nothing TASTES as good as being thin FEELS" . . . I was like wow, so simple, but a GREAT lil' quote to add to my collection. It's actually worked. Last week was my 1st week slash adjustment phase and I gave up after 4 days and no shift on the scale.
HOwever, Sunday I thought about the quote and said u know what that's right. I almost went through the drive thru at wienerschnitzel but decided to at the very least get something healthier if I wasn't going to cook. I opted for el pollo loco, and felt better. I want to give myself a free day if I do well during the week. But I was just proud of myself because I did bad one day during the week when I was discouraged. Instead of falling off the wagon completely I told myself it's not the end of the world, and to just do better the next day. And I did! I'm excited. I try not to weigh myself daily. That is truly a difficult task. But, I'm putting it up and gonna try to go as long as possible with out it. It's exciting to see a smaller number, but frustrating when I don't see what I want to see. Soooooooo . . . that's that. I'm loving the lean cuisine pizzas, and fetucinni. Doing lower carb stuff for breakfast . . . eggs, turkey bacon, etc . . . and small portioned dinners and damn near a gallon of water!
I'm learning that I don't like myself this heavy, but owe it to myself and my daughter to make a change and live life to it's fullest. I'll be 25 next year. And I want it to be my best birthday ever. Normally I am depressed as my birthday approaches because I usually go out to dinner with the fam bam and with all the attention on me, I feel bad. Another yr passes, and I continue to get heavier! I know I'm not the only one who notices! lol . . . but 2008 will be different! lol . . . can't wait to shop! . . . =)
Well I just got back from the gym. It has definitely been awhile. I told myself I wasn't going to feel down when I saw the lil skinny minnies walking around half naked. I was gonna focus on MY workout and that's exactly what I did. I only did 15 mins on the eliptical and 5 mins on the bike. I read somewhere that 20 mins of cardio is sufficient. But you have to add weights because it helps you burn more fat calories in the end. So I did a bunch of weight machines at 24 hr fitness for my legs, arms, and stomach. It felt good. I feel like I could have stayed longer. Was there about an hr. but I don't want to over do it.
I'm tempted to weigh myself but I think it's best to wait at least a weak. So I can't wait til' next Thurs. morning to see if there is even a pound of a difference. My goal is to loose 5 lbs this 2st wk and 2-3 lbs each week thereafter but I want to take it one day at a time. I'm off to shower, and eat a salad and sandwich I guess.
Well I've been gone for quite a while . . . 2 months to be exact, but who's counting. In 2 short months I've gained 10 lbs! I'm trying not to focus on the negative but that makes no fre@kin sense! It's quite pathetic and I've reached my all time highest weight, and I have never felt so down. But the good news is I realize sitting around being depressed because of how fat I am does absolutely no good! Action is what I need . . . and a WHOLE lot of it! lol
So, today I really haven't been dieting. I'm going to the grocery store today to pick up all the things I'll need for the week to cook healthy and take my lunch to work. I normally don't even bother taking a lunch. I sit down at my desk ALL day and eat out some days breakfast, lunch, AND dinner. So when I think about it, it makes perfect sense that I gained so much in so lil' time.
I'm going to try to blog every day and definitely excercise in some fashion every morning, or evening. I'm not setting any goals because I never reach them. I am making an effort to eat better, excercise and should I fall of the wagon, get my fat a$$ back up and keep on fighting! lol
so tomorrow is new life long weight loss jorney . . . take 2! =) . . . wish me luck (i'll definitely need it!)
I look back and read my old posts and get soooooo depressed. It didn't take much for me to fall off tha darn wagon yet again (surprise, surprise). I'm so tired of being fat. And I'm so tired of not being able to persevere REGARDLESS of what's going on in my life.
And I guess I'm just venting because I know the answer is to excercise! It's as simple as that. Yet . . . here I am. I attempted to change my life, failed, and gained more weight in the process. I think I'm going to just get a tummy tuck and remove all the excess fat and then that will motivate me to keep up the new me and change my lifestyle. lol . . . til next time . . .
Next week I'm going to try again. I need some time to prepare myself so that (hopefully) I won't fall short yet again. Congrats to those who actually stuck to their word. I do envy your will power!
