I was getting very tired all the time so i figured out that i haven't getting my vitamins. So i started using daily vitamins again today. Didn't loose much weight since yesterday =] today i am 59.6 kg (131.4 lb). That means i achieved my first mini goal, yay, and i am 400 gr (0.88lb) ahead. So my next mini goal is being 58 (127.8 lb) by the 29th of June. I very much hope to be under that to be honest, but at least this is good enough.
I have an appointment with the doctor soon, i'll show her my abscess again which is growing still and i'll also ask for a letter that i can give in to my uni for the pause i am requiring. So again a very stressful day for me. It's unbelievable but every small change from my dailly routine makes me very stressed. I guess it's one of the side affects of depression. Well anyway, i walked a little bit today and will walk more in the evening cause it's too hot to walk outside. I hope u r all doing fine. It is very nice to know u guys r out there. hugs to u all...
edit: by the encouragement of reaching my first mini goal, i tried all the jeans my sister left me when she was returning from England and yayy, they all fit me now. So that means i have actually more than 2 pairs of trousers to wear =]
So, i am back from london. I also talked with my lecturer on tuesday and with the admissions today. So it seems they'll try to help me, not with the fees or anything but at least with pausing for some time. So yay for that =] My london trip was ok but i got exhausted a lot. Oh god, it was hot. Very hot. It was the worst day to go to london. But i got my ticket now which means i am returning to my country at the end of this month for a month and a half. Yay for that as well =] So before returning there i should be 57 kg (125.6 lb) or at least 58 kg (127.8 lb). When i moved to england last year that was my weight and i really dont want to return more fat. So far so good, today i am under 60kg for the first time this year. So diet plan is working well. I am actually planning to write more detailled what i am doing in a day, but now i am too tired for it at the moment. But still yayy for today's weigh in which is 59.7 kg (131.6lb) By the way, thanks a lot for your encouring messages, i'll visit your blogs today. It's very nice to have friends out there. cu soon...
I haven't loose any grams since the other day. Opps. But i was very hungry yesterday and lazy at the same time. So i ate a lot. Altough it seems like all the food i ate was low calorie, when i added them together it wasn't that low. In fact i havent been eating this much since the start of my diet. Well anyway, didn't gain any weight. Just couldnt loose any. I cant believe myself, after all the effort i made last summer to loose weight i didn't care about it all winter and i now weigh more than the beginnin of last summer and have to count the grams and calories and everything. I should never ever let it happen again. I should remember these days, how difficult to loose weight and never forget them. I am too old to gain and loose wight anymore. I should be more stable.
Well anyway. What's done has been done. And today is a new day. I had my breakfast (my usual sandwich, 170cal) and snack (2 digestive bisc., 103cal). Had a small walk outside and will walk tonight again with yet another try if she feels ok cause her feet was hurting a lot. And tomorrow i'll be in London, yuppiie. Well sort of yuppie, it is very hot to be in london actually, and i dont have any extra money to do whatever i want. But anyway, i'll take my sandwiches and coffee with me and lay down on the nice grass of hyde park.
Tuesday will be very difficult for me, cause i have to talk with my lecturer and i am scared to talk with him. Scared a lot. So probably i wont be writing tomorrow and maybe tuesday as well. See u guys on wednesday. Hope u r all having a nice sunday... x
edit: hey i am doing great today, already walked a few miles before the night walk with yet another try. I'll have a shower and then ll cook myself sth before night walk. Feels great, yay =]
It is very hot here and my abscess is growing. But still i am doing fine with the weight loss thingy. I walk everyday, which definetely helps a lot. And i try not to eat after 6-7 pm. Last night we were watching Lost and i was very very hungry, could eat a whole cow i guess. But yay, i didn't eat anything. So today i am 61kg (134.48 lb) and i guess i am doing fine. I decided to cook today, some veg of course and a little bit chichken maybe so i'll go and do some shopping. Good luck to u all...
I still am in my plan. Today i am 61.2 kg (134.9 lb) so if all goes like this i might catch my goals. I'll be out of town for monday and i'll see my lecturer on tuesday to explain him this depression and everything. I very much afraid of seeing him but i guess i cant avoid it anymore. So if he helps i might have a whole summer to finish these depression medicine without any disturb and i might be ready to start on september. So, fingers crossed, i hope he helps me. Hope u r all doing fine, c u soon... x
I realised i haven't written any short or long term goals here. So here they are: I started at 64.8 kg (142.8 lb) I am now: 61.6 kg (135.8 lb) 16 June 2006 60 kg (132.2 lb) 29 June 2006 58 (127.8 lb) 12 August 2006 54 (119 lb) 01 September 2006 52 (114.6 lb) 01 October 2006 49-50 (110 lb) I know, 29th of June and 12th of August seem absurd, but they are the dates that i am going to my own country and returning back. Until now i seem to be in my plan although i slept 2 days. I very much hope to stay in plan until i reach my goal which seems very difficult now with all those medicine i am getting. Well, it might work anyway. Wish u can all reach your goals... x
i cant believe it. I have been sleeping since tuesday. Nearly nonstop. I am waking up, eating some, getting my medicine and then i cant help it. I found myself asleep again. I guess this depression medicine and antibiotics (very powerful, i must say) altogether making this, not to forget the big pus in my abcess. Well anyway, i managed to get up an hour ago, tried to walk a little bit. But i am too tired to walk. So i came back home. I'll try to walk later when it's a little bit cooler in the evening. My feet still hurt though. Do u guys use something for your feet when or after exercise? Well anyway, i gained 300g back, which i dont worry about, it's less than i expected since all i did was sleeping and eating. Hope i'll be better tomorrow. C u all..
I feel very very tired today for some reason that i dont understand. Got up at 8am to see the doctor. But then slept a little bit more when i returned. I guess this medicine is making me sleepy, one of the side effects. So good news is i am doing ok with this depression medicine it seems. And the doctor appreciated that i am walking every day, she says it helps. But now i had to start this antibiotic again, a very heavy one, for my abcess. I hope it works, otherwise it is very very painful. Anyway, we'll see... And yay for my weight today, i am 61.4kgs. So it was my period affecting it seems. Once it's over i started to loose weight again, yay =] I hope all of u are doing fine, cu later...
I managed to get up at 10:30 without any special reason, yayy =]. So it is nice for one time, but i have to make it permanant, stop sleeping all day. I had breakfast and a snack (170cal 103cal) and i am planning to eat veg and fruits for the rest of the day. I am 62.3 kg today, and yay for that as well =] I am really slow, i know, but still, better than nothing. I'll see my doctor tomorrow about this depression medicine i started using last week and also show her this terrible abcess of mine that again started in the same place. Last time it was so huge they tought i should have an operation. Luckily, it burst out just on the day of operation. Well, i hope it wont get that big this time, cause icant walk or do anything otherwise.
unbelieveable, but i got up at 10 a.m. And if i manage to sleep tonight before 2 or 3 am, that would be a miracle. So here is today's programme 10:30: breakfast 12:00: snack 13:30: lunch 16:30: snack 19:00: supper sleep in between 1 and 3 am I had breakfast as usual with my toast (170cal) and coffee. Ans i shouldnt sleep any more. Maybe half an hour would be very nice, but i am not sure if i can manage to get up again after just half an hour. So maybe not. Better to stay awake, if i can.
