I'm Still Here :)
Boy, when I said I was going to celebrate my birthday for the entire month, I apparently meant it!
But, this is part of the learning process - the learning curve. The adventure, continues, and I've been "living in the real world" of food for the past month. Now I know, that's not really something to celebrate. What is - is that I am still losing inches somehow, and, for the most part, I've maintained. By no real fault - or shall we say motivation - of my own, I am somehow almost back to my lowest weight. To be quite honest, I'm not really sure how.
No, I think I do know how. I still really need to work on the kinks in all of this. But - there is some victory there. I have found that I tend to go back to that skip break (BAD!), skip lunch, maybe eat dinner thing. Drink too many diet pepsi's. I have learned that my danger zone is after 8,.... when I want to stay awake all night, and that's when I want to eat. I've found that I've been reaching for whole wheat instead of white bread. I've found that I'm learning to eat toast without the butter. That I reach for fruit more often. That if we have steak with broccolli, and potatoes, I eat more broccolli than steak, and I skip the potato.
With this said, some healthier habits have stuck it seems. So yes, we do really need to work on the getting food in part, and that's slowly getting better. I don't not eat to lose any weight. It's because nothing sounds good - I literally can't stomach the thought of eating. That's one of the reason's I went on Jenny in the first place, was I was so tired of eating junk when I did eat. I really don't know how to change that - the pizza Fridays'.... the hamburger/hot dog on the grill nights; the hamburger helper nights when honey bunny is trying to help out by cooking. I mean, how do you gently tell them, "it's so great that you're cooking tonight. Oh honey, by the way, could we please not have hamburger helper, and eat something a little healthier?" Steak and chicken breasts are a little expensive as well, have you noticed how much more "healthy" food costs? The veggies - the fruit - good grief, 9.00 for a pound of CHERRIES???? It's so wrong. Yet, the news flaps on about how America is obese, and that we need to get it together, .... the economy is in the toilet, and then you go to the store, and a loaf of whole wheat bread is the same as buying an entire frozen pizza. Hmm. They don't exactly help us out, do they? When fast food is a buck, and a salad is 7.00? And supersize is the way of life. When I see what my two teen boys can consume (and they're thin by the way) - it just blows my mind. How can they eat like that, and stay thin? Thankfully, they have really become more aware of even though they aren't getting overweight eating this stuff - that it's bad for them, and they feel slugish when they eat that way. Eldest son is really getting into eating healthier, and youngest, always has preferred eating the better healthier things. I'm so blessed with him, he'll try anything at least once!
I'm rambling on with this, not saying too much about me I guess. Lots has gone on, and I haven't been dealing with things too well. I've felt guilty about spending the money on JC..... but even DH agrees, that I need to get back with it. When I'm on it though, he's left in control of dinner, and that means some nights it just gets blown off (find whatever you can in the fridge night) - which either ends up in a pizza, or stopping off at fast food, and I hate that. So it requires planning again; making sure the things are here that are healthy. So that's what I've been trying to do - keep lots of chicken breasts in the freezer; lean meat (how bizzare that steak is less than buying hamburger lately?) - but if I plan, it's there, and there's no excuse.
The excersize has been only therapeutic lately. With my back acting up, and my leg, even walking has been difficult. But that's finally on the mend again, and the swelling has gone down; I've stayed off it, and it's almost back to normal. (ankle). I still don't know what that was really about, but I think I twisted it or hurt it when I fell, and because I can't really feel it, and there was really no bruising, I didn't think much of it until it swelled up like a balloon. I've also been afraid to do anything too vigorous, especially abs wise, because of the new piercing. And my friends, if you're considering getting your belly button done - consider this. It can take up to 9 months to heal!!!! Some people, even a year! And so..... I suggest waiting until you can skip the ab excersizes for a while before you do something like that. If at all...... thankfully, mine has been really well behaved, and it is healing well. It has been sort of magical - seems I can't stop looking at it, which has led me to embrace my tummy; something I haven't been able to do ever. We have a ways to go, but I am used to looking at it now, and it doesn't seem so bad. And it seems to be shrinking! I think that may be because I'm accepting the way it looks, and if I believe it looks good, it's funny how other people do too. lol.
Anyway.......... not exactly a good "plot" for this blog, or even a point. Other than to say, I'm doing better, and I miss hearing from all of you. :) I haven't given up, and don't plan to anytime soon. Bigger and better things are on the horizon. :) Keep up the good work guys - pretty soon it will be fall.... then winter...... are you ready? There'll be no "hibernation phase" this year for me! lol. BIG concert coming up in October. And yes, I'm going to wear that red dress, and it's going to look so HOT!!!! Time to move to Onderdland!!!!
xoxo
Trish
