The Journey to Thin

My personal journey to the land of thin.

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  • Name: Trishkaa
  • City: Tacoma
  • Region: Washington
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 165.1cm
Start weight: 264.00lb
Current weight: 208.10lb
Goal weight: 150.00lb
Lost to date: 55.90lb
Remaining: 58.10lb

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Before After

From Latin Heat to the Middle East....

So, to be honest, since my carnival ride at the Latin Heat class I haven't been back to try again - but I did get my Zumba kit, and I have to tell you, it is FUN FUN FUN!!! They break down all the moves, and really explain all the steps in deep detail, which has restored my faith that anyone can do this.  I'm not saying it's easy by any means, because when you bring it up to speed it gets tricky.  But even with that - when you start out on the first DVD, it's still not so fast that you can't keep up! Imagine that!!!!  So, I am giving the REAL Zumba 5 Stars!!!!  Caliente~!!!!!
And now.... something I actually know a little about, and have a great passion for.  From Brazil to Middle Eastern Dance.  Bellydance!  All this music, and shaking, and dancing around got my passion going.  So ..... after about a months haitus, I pulled out the chest.  No pun intended.  The big white beautifiul chest, filled with layers of shimmering hip scarves... irridescent veils.... beaded skirts... silk harem pants... the bright colors, and just the singing of the coins as they jingled just makes me a happy happy girl!!! 
No.  It's not Halloween. 
I'm not really a bellydancer... yet.  I'm a self proclaimed intermediate bellydancer. lol.  I started learning, in my living room with a DVD by a gal named Dolphina, about 7 years ago.  Now if you've ever seen this DVD, it's called "The Goddess Workout".  At the time, I thought it was the coolest thing since sliced bread.  She's so cute and sweet - kind of like sticky sweet - she's malibu barbie in a genie costume.  Always smiling, always telling you, "You deserve it.  You're a Goddess."  I liked that.  I AM a goddess. lol.  I liked her a lot, cause she believed I was a goddess.  Everyone should always have at least one person who thinks you're a goddess.  Dolphina believed I was, so we were tight.  Every day I'd get up at 5am, grab my coffee, and start my Goddess workout with Dol (I call her Dol, she calls me Ess) and with a little patience, before I knew it I was shimmying all over the house.  Alas, our relationship wasn't to last.  Soon, I would meet the twins.  Neena and Veena.  Now, if you know Neena and Veena, they laugh at Dolphina.  Because really, after meeting the twins, I realized, that Dolphina was more of a cheerleader in a genie outfit than a real bellydancer.  I was disheartened, but I also realized my time with Dolphina had given me the confidence to try something I never thought I would have.  So thank you my Zen Dolphina!  I then began my friendship with Neena and Veena - who became my new mentors in the bellydance world - and as you start to grow up you learn that calling it "bellydance" may not be the proper politically correct term to everyone.  Nope.  It's "Middle Eastern Dance".  With it I graduated from sweats and a t'shirt to leggings and my first hip scarf.... rows and rows of gold coins, tied around my hips.  I never wanted to take it off, I just walked around the house, spinning in front of my husband, doing the dishes, cooking dinner.... shimmy shimmy shimmy!  Believe me, the first time you put one on, you'll understand.  And Neena and Veena would twirl, and spin with their veils, shimmy their shoulders while balancing a sword.... this was the real deal! 
Or was it?  Oh, I had a lot to learn.  I signed up for classes.  I walked in my first class, terrified.  I expected a room full of Dolphina's, and Neena's and Veena's... all baring their tummies with perfect abs, size 2   20-somethings with hair down to their waists..... boy was I in for a surprise.
I walked in to a room full of women.  Beautiful women, of every shape, size, age, race and color.  There may have been a couple bare belied women there, but for the most part, no.  There were women ranging in age from 18 - 80!!!! And as for the size 2 theory - there was one woman, who must have weighed over 400 pounds, and before you think I'm getting on her for that, let me tell you.  She was the BEST dancer in the class.  She was the most graceful, beautiful woman I think I've ever met, she just glowed.  When she danced, NO one could compare to what she could do.  It made me cry.  I had found my Mecca - a land where all these women lovingly accepted each other for who we were.  And the 79 yr. old, maybe looked in her late 50's.... she too could outdance any of us!  There were beginners... there were intermediates... and there were professional dancers.  And we were all welcomed with open arms.  And I learned that Neena and Veena were more like Las Vegas buble gum dancers lol.  Oh, they are good - don't get me wrong.  But as I had mentioned, I had a lot to learn.  And now it wasn't just Bellydance.  It wasn't just Middle Eastern Dance.  It was now also Raks Sharqi - Oriental Danse - Dance of the East.... so many different names.  So contraversial.  I learned that so many people thought "bellydance" conjured up thoughts of pole dancing for many.  Or strippers.  Not even close.  While it's true that when it came to America, it was seen that way and portrayed that way (by of course the men who had the women portray it that way - it wasn't even true bellydance).  - The true art form, and it is a true art form, is not that way at all.  It's a wonderful excersize the works your core, your hips, and is truly designed for the womanly form.  The movements couldn't feel more natural.  Did I mention it's fun?!  And of course, then there's all those glittery sparkling costumes!  That's just icing on the cake!
I've been taking classes off and on now for the past 5 years, and I love it.  I still use DVD's at home, and some of my most recent finds are Rachel Brice - she's my new BFF, and what I now consider a real bellydancer lol.  If any of you have ever seen her, you KNOW what I'm talking about - her type of dance is called Tribal Fusion, and it's mind blowing.  She's pretty famous for going into a layback (backbend from standing) all snake arms, with pop and locks (there's your fusion/ sort of hip hop) and as she completely mesermizes and hypnotizes you, and you wonder how on earth she can stay so still in that position, she suddenly and without warning drops to within 2 inches of the floor in that same position, and holds it for what seems like an eternity!  
And at that point, that's when I turn on Dolphina..... "Hello Trish, I've missed you.  You know don't you, that YOU are a GODDESS"........
Some great videos to try:
Dolphina - The Goddess Workout/Warrior Workout, Ect (fun, fitness type, very Zen; sort of new "agey").
Neena and Veena - there are several fitness and also actual beginning bellydance instructional videos; take your pick!
The Bellydance Superstars:  Beginning Bellydance - This is the BEST for REAL instruction; they really break down the movements, also a great workout!
Rachel Brice: Tribal Fusion; Serpentine(This is NOT for beginners! Use Tribal Fusion first!)
Jillina - Anything by her!!!!
To find a class near you:  Check your local community college, or your local community center; Some LA Fitness centers offer Bellydance, and also some local dance studios! 
Shimmy On!!!!!!

If you can't beat em, order Zumba!

Ok.  Well, maybe not "Zumba".  I joined a local health club that offers something similiar, called "Latin Heat".  I'd never tried "Zumba" or "Latin Heat" before, and I was really excited to give it a shot.  I regretted my choice immediately.
Honestly, I should have known I was in for it, when I went to the first class and it was cancelled; and we ended up doing the step class from Hell.  I should have seen it as a bad omen.  Maybe I'm just a glutton for punishment.  But after that, I figured there was no possible way this could be worse, could it?  After all that step class was the most uncoordinated effort of a hot mess I'd ever seen.  And this was a popular well loved class, so this had to be good right?  Right? 
So I walk in and take my place among several rows of cargo pant clad women,... if you've ever been to a Zumba class you will understand the cargo pants.  The more brightly colored ribbons you have hanging off the said cargo's, the cooler you are.  I didn't get this at all.  Cargo pants?  I was wearing my leggings and my Olivia Newton John leg warmers.  Already, I was uncool. This wasn't good.  About 5 minutes later, in bounds the instructor.  Ribbons flying in the wind, rubber braceletts covering each arm with little bells hanging off them.  Was this a belly dance class??? I was confused.  As a bellydancer, for a brief second I had hope.... but that hope was very soon to be shattered to bits. 
Now mind you, I am coordinated.  I have great rythmn skills - I'm a musician by profession, and I can dance!  I honestly figured I had this in the bag.  So she bops in, hits the music, and with no warning or even an introduction, just goes right into it.  Step ball change, kick kick, hip hip, hop hop, woo woo - OMG!  What the HELL is she DOING??? Did the woman just drink 4 red bulls or WHAT?!!!  The music was on hyper warp speed - didn't she believe in a warm up?   The serious students were all over it... like they'd done this a million times.  All 2 of them.  The rest of the class were like deer in the headlights.  Oh, we tried... we gave it our college best to keep up.  And let me tell you, it just got better and better.  Gloria Estefan up there was in her own little world, at warp speed, and the songs, one after the other just got faster and faster!  I felt like I was on some bad caffeine trip having a nightmare.  No explanation of the moves.... no real warning of when she was going to switch to the next move.... no eye contact or real interaction with the class!!!  This just made me angry. What instructor doesn't interact at all with their class? No acknowledgement at ALL that we were even there! She may has well have been auditioning for "So You Think You Can Dance". Taking things seriously is one thing, but this was supposed to be fun - not to mention several of these people must have been new like me, because there were some pretty lost people in that class.  I just kept telling myself keep moving, keep moving.... as long as you keep moving you keep your heart rate up, at least your doing something!  Throw a hip shake in there and do a hip circle every once in a while, with a woo hoo and you have them fooled! I have to say, it was definitely hot - one big fat hot mess!!!!
At least after the class when I talked to a couple of the ladies I learned that not all the instructors are like that.  Apparently she likes the faster songs, and they don't all teach that way.  I would hope not.  You don't just launch into things like that without explaining a bit about posture and how not to hurt yourself - some of the moves she was doing could definately hurt you IF you aren't using correct posture.  Scary. 
So there's my rant - please forgive me.  But I'm not going to let some boppy red bulled instructor put me off of this - so I went home and ordered the real deal - Zumba.  It came today, complete with the shakers.  And imagine this! Even though the moves ARE fast and furious, they break everything down first.  (I knew it!) And as you start out, the songs aren't 90 mph... they work you into that as you go.  You don't have to start out going 900 mph with your hair on fire to get a good work out! Infact, most of the moves, if you do them right, you're going to sweat going half speed as long as you're keeping steady and dancing it up!!!  Do know this. My girlfriend takes Zumba classes at a local community center and just loves them. Apparently you can burn up to 1,000 calories an hour and now I can see why! So I hope you won't let my little rant discourage you at all if you've been considering trying out this very fun dance/excersize class.  If I hadn't ordered my Zumba set, I would have asked the instructor to show me some moves - and I would have talked to her.  Infact, I still might, because she needs to know that someone new like me is going to be completely clueless in there. But maybe she was just having an off day, and I'll give her another chance.  I just can't imagine someone who has a hard time with coordination; it intimidated me! What would you do? Would you say something to her?
Regardless,  my plan is to learn the moves, and get comfy with it, and then I'm hitting the class up again. It really does look like too much fun and is such a good workout, it would be a shame to give up on it.  Besides, I'm invested in it now! ha! So, back to class I will go. 
I'll be the one wearing lots and lots of brightly colored ribbons...... sewn onto my leggings!!!!.  

What a Great Show!

Last night was our big concert, and we played to a sold out house!  I wore my new "toy"; my Bodymedia Bodyfit arm band, and during our time on stage, apparently I was burning up 9.8 calories a minute, and completed almost 9,000 steps!!  I'll take that!  I did pretty well getting food in during the day, but shows are always hard.  I don't like to eat before a performance so even though I did bring food, I didn't do so well getting it in.  Today is a new day, I can relax a bit now and I am doing better with my intake so feeling like that's a win.  And it sure felt good last night to have a couple of people who hadn't seen me, almost not recognize me!  The hard work is finally apparently starting to show.  I really notice also, that before, I would start to sweat just thinking about walking on stage - last night I got through the show without hardly breaking one! That's a huge victory for me and it felt really good. 
So on to today.  It's a beautiful day for a walk, and I'm going to continue to work on getting more food in.  This business of getting in only 600-800 calories is NOT good and needs to stop NOW.  It certainly isn't helping my weight go anywhere any faster.  I'm sure I'll get a good chewing by my counselor tomorrow lol.  The good news is Bellydance classes start up again tomorrow night, so maybe that will help increase my appetite, but I think the big culprit is drinking too much coffee.  As much as I love it and want to hang on to my Hawaii experience, I think the Kona mac nut coffee is going to have to go on the back shelf for a while!!!!!  
I hope everyone is doing well!  Have a great week, and here's to a good weight loss this week!

Meanwhile, Back at the Ranch....

Yikes!  It's been 3 years since I was last logged in.... I rejoined Jenny Craig in October of this year and have lost 49 pounds so far.  Oddly, when I looked today, my weight was exactly the same as when I left!  So I am back to the lowest I had gotten which is exciting.  By the way, hello! My name is Trish.  I wonder if any of you still remember me.  I made some wonderful friends on here; MIssybelle, I wonder if you're still out there :)  This is such a great site, and great motivation; I'm glad to be back.  Hope to post more in the future, but for now just taking it a day at a time.  Excersize is the toughest part for me, always has been.  I love to bellyance and that has become my new love.  I take a class once a week and use videos during the week which has helped a great deal; it's great for your core!  Wishing you all good luck! And you'll hear this alot from me, my favorite motto:  Progress, not perfection!

Wow - Everything's different!!

Oh my goodness.  I'm away for a while, and everything has changed!  Is everybody still around?  Missy?  Ducky?  Rasberry?  Tatums Mom? 

I think I fell back into a black hole for a while.  My last post, I'd gone back to Jenny Craig.  And again, I only ate about a portion of the food, and haven't touched it since.  My contract job at the college came to an end, and I've been trying to find a great new job.  I'm upbeat about it, and I've applied for something that would be wonderful, I'm just hoping my resume was good enough to get picked from the pile. 

So I've crawled out of my hole, am dusting myself off... adjusting my sunglasses, cause boy is it bright here lol. 

But I haven't given up by any means.  I've pretty much maintained, which is amazing.  But I admit, the motivation to even think about it at all has been very low.  So we're going to start - again. :)  Little goals.

  • Drink water
  • Eat breakfast
  • Walk for 20 minutes twice this week.

Time to once again ax the coffee, and the soda.  I also think I need to completely stay away from ice cream or chocolate, because I never want that stuff unless I end up having it.  Then I want it ever day for a week, and I think that's what started this little "vacation" in the first place!

I really hope all of you are doing well.  I've missed you, and I'll check in this week, it really does help. 

Love, Joy, Peace!


Yes, I called Jenny! Have YOU called Jenny yet?!

This will be quick - but yes, I did go back to Jenny yesterday.  Got all my food, and I'm ready to go this morning.  I'm excited again, feel good about it, and got a couple new foods I haven't tried yet! 

My weight is up, yes - 5 pounds, and that was my limit.  I know that will be gone by the end of the week, and not worried about it.  But that's the key - never let yourself go up more than 5 pounds before you "reign it in".  So back on program, and I'm ready now.  :)

My goal is 2 days of cardio - starting slow, and setting goals I know I can achieve; it will be a busy week, but don't want to over-set goals yet.  I'm nervous about my belly button getting caught on something, but they have bandaids for that lol. 

I have to get to work - but wanted to report it, and tell everyone to watch out, because Trish's back in town!!!!! 

Have a great first day of the week!!!!



Yes, I'm still alive :)

Hi gang :)

I know it's been a while.  Thank you for all your support, and for writing.  MIssy, thanks so much for all your care and support :)  You are wonderful - all of you are.

I've pretty much been staying in my "hard protective shell" the past few weeks; I'm truly a very typical "Cancer" that way.  I don't run; I pull inward, and stand my ground and wait.  Not sure what I've been waiting for - the world to end?  For my weight loss to magically continue?  But I didn't want my melancholy mood to infect anyone else.  I don't even know if you can call it melancholy.  Numb is better. 

I haven't been excersizing, I've been afraid to anger my new piercing.  It's healing well though, and I think I can start again today.  More likely tomorrow.  I was supposed to go back into Jenny today, but having no sleep all week, I called and said I'd reschedule - which I still have to do before they close.  I am trying to steel myself - my will - to get back with it.  I've done ok, but I did finally weigh today, and I'm up 5 pounds.  That's my limit - time to get crackin.  My pretty belly jewel reminds me that I'm never going to let myself get up more than 5 pounds again - so it's actually been worth it; I swear I can see that 5 pounds, and I feel fat and lethargic again.  Funny, as I still have a lot to lose that I would feel that way, but the feeling of euphoria as the weight was falling off me has definitely turned to omg - I have to fix this NOW.  And so close to the Onderland mark, not sure what spooked me and made me stop. 

I think about that....... I've done it before.  It's almost like I know I'll love my new body, but I also know it won't magically make anything else change.  But it will make ME feel better, and that's what I need to remember.  All the other little silly things that happen will work themselves out the way they're supposed to, but no one is going to take care of me.  That's up to ME.  And I've just sort of gone to this place of numbness.  It's not "I don't care", it's hard to describe.  I've still been watching the portions, but I'm definitely not eating enough.  Not even close.  These habits are going to be hard to break, and I have to break them.  I guess I'm just feeling tired, a little worn out.  But break is over.  I know I said that last time - ok, and the time before.  I've just let myself be consumed about everything else but me this past month, and it's time to get back to being good to myself again. 

I don't want to update my weight, don't want to see that gain on screen, but I need to.  So here we go again, and my resolve is still there.  It's just been clouded a bit this past month.  After all I have a huge concert to get ready for, and I am going to look great in that red dress.  More importantly, I'm going to be in great shape to sing up on that stage and dance for 2-3 hours.  So time to quit this now, and get back to it. 

I think sometimes, we want this weight loss to change our lives so much, that we forget, that really, it's not going to change any of the outside stuff going on.  That's why it has to be for ourselves.  It can't be for anyone else, not for a concert, not for a husband, not for a wedding - it has to be for US.  Otherwise, as we get closer to our goal, we lose steam - but also, we realize that all those things we thought would change in the outside world, didn't - and then we become dissillusioned; making it harder to keep going. 

Spend some time really going inward, and finding that reason you want to do this.  Find that small spark, and turn it into a flame.  I say this to me, as much as I say it to you.  :) 

I think we all do it.  We get to a certain point, where we start to get a bit cocky... a little overconfident.  Soon you're telling yourself I deserve a break, I've been soooo good.  Look at all this weight I've lost.  I can do it on my own.  But that's dangerous - because then you can quickly end up becoming complacent about the whole thing.  Then you start reasoning, I've come so far - I look good.  That's what I wanted, right?  No big deal, I can do this - tomorrow. 

But my friend - there is no tomorrow.  Tomorrow never comes.  So.  It's time to do it - Today. :)

Love, courage and strength to you!

Trish :)

I'm Still Here :)

Boy, when I said I was going to celebrate my birthday for the entire month, I apparently meant it! 

But, this is part of the learning process - the learning curve.  The adventure, continues, and I've been "living in the real world" of food for the past month.  Now I know, that's not really something to celebrate.  What is - is that I am still losing inches somehow, and, for the most part, I've maintained.  By no real fault - or shall we say motivation - of my own, I am somehow almost back to my lowest weight.  To be quite honest, I'm not really sure how.

No, I think I do know how.  I still really need to work on the kinks in all of this.  But - there is some victory there.  I have found that I tend to go back to that skip break (BAD!), skip lunch, maybe eat dinner thing.  Drink too many diet pepsi's.  I have learned that my danger zone is after 8,.... when I want to stay awake all night, and that's when I want to eat.  I've found that I've been reaching for whole wheat instead of white bread.  I've found that I'm learning to eat toast without the butter.  That I reach for fruit more often.  That if we have steak with broccolli, and potatoes, I eat more broccolli than steak, and I skip the potato. 

With this said, some healthier habits have stuck it seems.  So yes, we do really need to work on the getting food in part, and that's slowly getting better.  I don't not eat to lose any weight.  It's because nothing sounds good - I literally can't stomach the thought of eating.  That's one of the reason's I went on Jenny in the first place, was I was so tired of eating junk when I did eat.  I really don't know how to change that - the pizza Fridays'.... the hamburger/hot dog on the grill nights; the hamburger helper nights when honey bunny is trying to help out by cooking.  I mean, how do you gently tell them, "it's so great that you're cooking tonight.  Oh honey, by the way, could we please not have hamburger helper, and eat something a little healthier?" Steak and chicken breasts are a little expensive as well, have you noticed how much more "healthy" food costs?  The veggies - the fruit - good grief, 9.00 for a pound of CHERRIES????  It's so wrong.  Yet, the news flaps on about how America is obese, and that we need to get it together, .... the economy is in the toilet, and then you go to the store, and a loaf of whole wheat bread is the same as buying an entire frozen pizza.  Hmm.  They don't exactly help us out, do they?  When fast food is a buck, and a salad is 7.00? And supersize is the way of life.  When I see what my two teen boys can consume (and they're thin by the way) - it just blows my mind.  How can they eat like that, and stay thin?  Thankfully, they have really become more aware of even though they aren't getting overweight eating this stuff - that it's bad for them, and they feel slugish when they eat that way.  Eldest son is really getting into eating healthier, and youngest, always has preferred eating the better healthier things.  I'm so blessed with him, he'll try anything at least once! 

I'm rambling on with this, not saying too much about me I guess.  Lots has gone on, and I haven't been dealing with things too well.  I've felt guilty about spending the money on JC..... but even DH agrees, that I need to get back with it.  When I'm on it though, he's left in control of dinner, and that means some nights it just gets blown off (find whatever you can in the fridge night) - which either ends up in a pizza, or stopping off at fast food, and I hate that.  So it requires planning again; making sure the things are here that are healthy.  So that's what I've been trying to do - keep lots of chicken breasts in the freezer; lean meat (how bizzare that steak is less than buying hamburger lately?) - but if I plan, it's there, and there's no excuse. 

The excersize has been only therapeutic lately.  With my back acting up, and my leg, even walking has been difficult.  But that's finally on the mend again, and the swelling has gone down; I've stayed off it, and it's almost back to normal.  (ankle).  I still don't know what that was really about, but I think I twisted it or hurt it when I fell, and because I can't really feel it, and there was really no bruising, I didn't think much of it until it swelled up like a balloon.  I've also been afraid to do anything too vigorous, especially abs wise, because of the new piercing.  And my friends, if you're considering getting your belly button done - consider this.  It can take up to 9 months to heal!!!! Some people, even a year!  And so..... I suggest waiting until you can skip the ab excersizes for a while before you do something like that.  If at all...... thankfully, mine has been really well behaved, and it is healing well.  It has been sort of magical - seems I can't stop looking at it, which has led me to embrace my tummy;  something I haven't been able to do ever.  We have a ways to go, but I am used to looking at it now, and it doesn't seem so bad.  And it seems to be shrinking!  I think that may be because I'm accepting the way it looks, and if I believe it looks good, it's funny how other people do too. lol. 

Anyway.......... not exactly a good "plot" for this blog, or even a point.  Other than to say, I'm doing better, and I miss hearing from all of you.  :)  I haven't given up, and don't plan to anytime soon.  Bigger and better things are on the horizon. :)  Keep up the good work guys - pretty soon it will be fall.... then winter...... are you ready?  There'll be no "hibernation phase" this year for me! lol.  BIG concert coming up in October.  And yes, I'm going to wear that red dress, and it's going to look so HOT!!!!  Time to move to Onderdland!!!!



Keep the goals coming! :)

Good Morning!

I'm hoping to keep the goals for this week coming, and thanks to those of you who did!  Don't forget a reward :)  You know how big I am on rewards!

I am in big pain today; it's a cross between the bruises from falling on the bike, and TOM making an appearance out of nowhere. Usually ibuprofin knocks the pain right out, but so far this morning I've had 800 mg (prescription dose), and nothing.  I am seriously wondering how I'm going to manage work today, but I have no choice. :) 

Last night I got so sick - this has been happening right before.  I also became

so sleepy, that I just couldn't keep my eyes open - it was weird, and though I've had that awful nausea, never the tiredness like that.  I had been going strong all day though, first with the Ab ball, then the 30 minu shred, then a little belly dance.. then later I did a kamakaze clean out of the bedroom.  About an hour later, I was just sick, and literally so sleepy I kept falling asleep while I was trying to type.  Even with some coffee this morning, I'm still feeling really groggy.  When the cramps are this bad, the only way I can really escpape the pain is to sleep - not even the strongest medicine I have for my back will even touch this.  Only Ibuprofin works on the cramps.  Weird. 

So I'm sitting here, checking in - I still need to take a shower, fix my breakfast, and my food to take to work today, and find something pretty to wear.  At least that will be easier now that my closet has lost about 50 pounds of unwanted junk! lol.  Still.... I hate deciding.  Especially when I just want to stay in my "jammies" and curl up in a ball and forget everything. 

I'm so up and down this week, and now I understand why that's been too.  At least this time it sort of snuck up on me - other than the mood swings, no awful back pain, and minimal hyperventilating.  Yes - I've had it checked out, and there's nothing they're really willing to do.  Hormones don't help me. But I'm going to look into some herbal supplements.  I know the vitamins (the B-12) has helped some with everything but the cramps, and actually sometimes it has helped with that too.  But you have to take it faithfully that entire month before anything happens. 

So back to goals this week - I did do the "ab ball" workout.  I got the Ab Ball at Jenny Craig, and it came with a dvd.  It's awesome, and really, not so hard that I couldn't get through the reps.  So either I've gotten stronger, or it isn't too bad.  (I vote for not too bad lol) though I do have to admit, I know my core is stronger and that's good!

I also followed that with Jillians 30 Day Shred - it's only the second time I've done it, but even the second time, it was easier.  Probably because I knew what to expect.  The only think I don't like, is that for someone my size, she doesn't really take into account that it might be difficult for someone like me to go from jumping jacks, to laying on the floor in a time span of 30 seconds.  She alternates 3 minutes of cardio, then 2 minutes of strength, then 1-2 minutes of ab/floor work.  And the change ups are maddeningly quick - but that's part of the success of it I guess - keep moving!  If you do get this dvd, you'll want at least some kind of mat - and yoga matts don't quite cut it for me, so I also fold a blanket under mine for a little more padding.  The other thing you need is hand weights - anywhere from 2 - 5 pounds to start, depending on where you are with weights.  I started with 3 pound weights, and they are just enough.  You want the last few "reps" to be almost too difficult - otherwise your weights are going to be "too light" - at least after the first couple times.  The first time I did this, I didn't use weights at all.  And she doesn't give an alternate for jumping jacks, but I still can't do them (my "lame" foot) - so I do brisque marching in place instead.  That's the only modification I make, and hey, it's our program, why not.  As long as you're getting your heart rate up - that's the important thing, and I do do my arms as if I am doing jumping jacks with the marching in place.  Just much more low impact.  Other than that, I think it's a great workout. 

So my goals this week, narrowed down to 2:

  • Alternate 30 Day Shred and Ab Ball - 4 days this week.
  • Eat PER the program - all the way - no "cheating"!  I have to get back on track before I start "playing" with things, and really, I have some lost time to make up, so I don't even want to mess with that!

So with that........... I'm off to get the day started.  Hey.  I already feel a bit better.  Maybe the motrin is finally kicking in - yeesh!



Diet Vacation Over! What are your two goals this week?

So it's been about 3 weeks, that I have been "off" Jenny Craig.  I've had a lot of stress going on - but despite the gain, I've mostly been hitting different excersize to deal with the stress, rather than turning to food.  I know that the gain is more from allowing myself a few too many tropical fru fru drinks.  The sun comes out, I want to sit in the sun with a fruity umbrella drink in the chase lounge.  Which is fine.  Just not every day! 

Today will be my last day of "vacation" plan wise.  I went to Jenny yesterday, checked in with the counselor, and got my week's worth of food.  I haven't been getting in enough water, but I have been doing different excersizes.  Yesterday was a really bad day, but instead of using food to comfort, I got on the bike and just rode and rode until I was no longer angry.  Unfortunately, I took a big spill, trying to stop the dumb thing at a stop sign.  I was fine, but the bike is just a little too tall for me, and when I put my foot down to balance, over I went.  At least it wasn't while I was riding at warp speeds!  So now I have a lovely set of bruises all up and down my right side. 

Yesterday, with my Jenny food, I decided to finally give in and buy the Ab Ball.  It's a "medicine" ball, but it has handles, and weighs 8 pounds.  Add that to my collection of hand weights, my yoga matt, and my new dvd's - these "toys" will be great for the 30 day shred when I get to the second and third levels.  The ball also came with it's own dvd routine, which is great. 

I've also been considering getting a "kettle bell".  Don't know if you've heard of those, and really, I'm not sure I'm strong enough yet, or if my back could handle something like that yet.  It looks like a cowbell almost,  - hmm, well maybe not.  It's like a cannon ball with an inverted triangle handle on it.  You swing it!  Through your legs, above your head - this definitely looks like something you should do outside! lol!  But it's all the rage in Hollywood right now I guess lol - with the "trainers to the stars".  So silly, but I love that stuff. lol.  If you haven't heard of kettle bell training, you will - it's starting to really take over as the "next big thing", and it's supposed to really work every part of you because no matter how you're "swinging" it, you have to engage your core.

My belly button is really healing nicely!  There's a little bruising, that was mroe from the clamp they use than anything.  But the sites themselves, are really nice - no ragged edges, there's been no bleeding, not even when he pierced it, and no "crusties".  (again, maybe TMI, but you have to really watch it carefully, and it takes about 6 weeks to heal at best).  You are supposed to take a shot glass with sea salt water (less is more) and put it over the piercing and just soak it for 10 - 15 minutes.  Then you have to use the anti-bacterial soap, and make sure that you get it completely dry when you're done.  And you NEVER EVER tough anywhere near it, unless you've completely disinfected your hands.  It can be tricky, because they can get infected very easy; but so far we're on day 4, and we're looking great!!!!  The only "bummer" is that I'm supposed to stay out of the hot tub, and I don't know that laying in the sun is the best for it either - espeically if I were to get sunburned, and I can't really put spf anywhere near it in case it reacts.  But I found one of those kids easter eggs - and I'm going to use one half, to cover it, so I can lay in the sun lol.  I also got waterproof bandaids, so that I can go in the hot tub.  And I guess I can, I just need to make sure that I really clean it really well, immediately after getting out.  But enough of about piercings!!!

Well, except for this.  Since I got it done, I notice that I'm really focusing on wanting to slim my abs.  And, I'm finding that I'm becoming much more accepting of the way I am right now with my tummy - before I couldn't even look at it, I hated it.  But now I'm starting to not feel so bad about it - and the more I find that I'm accepting it, the more I want to wittle that area down.  I mentioned in one of my blogs about how our aerobics teacher told us one time - to not hide in sweats in class.  Instead, wear shorts - wear the spandex tights and tops - show your body - because the more you get used to looking at it, the more you start to accept and love yourself - and that is a huge transformation in helping you want to see the changes!  I noticed once I started wearing those cute "aerobic outfits" (and this was in the 80's, leg warmers and all lol) - the more I realized that I did look ok...... and that I was getting better every day with my body shaping.  Wearing those big floppy sweats, just makes you feel bigger and more sloppy!  And all that time, I thought it "hid" me.  Instead, is just made me look even bigger than I really was!  So maybe try it sometime.  Brave those bike shorts.  Brave the sports bra/top.  Even if it's just at home in your living room, it gets you in the "Hey, I am an athletic type person after all!" mode.  That's something I love about belly dance too - at first I wore big bulky shirts.  But the instructor also said, no, wear something we can see your movements in so we can make sure you're doing them right.......... and the more I wore those things, the more confident I became, and the better I felt.  I actually felt sexy for the first time when I'd put on those clothes. 

Bottom line with that - when you put something on that makes you feel great, or sexy, it brings out that motivation to keep going!   Taking pictures along the way - one when you start - one at your first weight loss goal - another at your next, and so on.... then comparing the pics... you can really see where the weight is going.  Where when we just look at ourselves, it's sometimes hard for us to see it at all.  Especially in the beginning. 

So I'm jumping around here......... but now I have my new toy, the ab ball, and I'm going to give it a go.  I'm just about to review the workout video and then pull the matt out and try it.  I might even go outside, use the lap top to view the workout, and give it a shot out in the sunshine.  Tan and tone at the same time!  Woo-Hoo!  I'll have to let you know how it goes!  I'm excited!  I've been a little nervous about doing ANY ab work because of the new piercing, but since there's been no pain, as long as I'm careful, I think it will be fine. 

Ok.  So here's to phase two.  Break over people!  This phase is going to be all about excersize, and getting out there and moving.   These are some goals:

  • Try my new ab ball workout
  • ride the bike at least twice a week, even if it's just around the block
  • belly dance at least once a week
  • 30 Day shred - once a week, and adding up to 3x a week.  This will be my number one workout for this phase.
  • park further away and walk more
  • If I go to the mall, to walk the entire mall, every nook and cranny, at least once around at a good pace - and I can window shop at the same time! lol.
  • Take the stairs instead of the elevator
  • If an escalator is the only option, walk the escalator!
  • Be less efficient when I pick things up - in other words, instead of trying to pick up 5 things at once to save the walking - do one at a time, so that I have to walk back and forth more.
  • Ballet workout one day a week.

So those are the fitness goals.  I'm really going to hit the weights at home - it will really speed up the metabolism and the bonus, is you will still be burning calories a few hours after you've worked out!

With that said......... enough talk, and it's time for some action.  And tomorrow morning it's back on Jenny food full scale.  Weigh in is Saturday.  Wish me luck on phase two!  And for all of you - yes, I noticed too that many of us have been having some stressful times (one blog I read, someone had commented that many of us seem to really be struggling with emotional stuff)... so hang in there if you are, and know that this is a chance to practice your "food coping skills" if you're an emotional eater.  My goal is to replace food comfort, with excersize comfort!!!!  And remember... even if you don't have time or room to excersize.... you can always do "isolations", where you're squeezing your abs, or your gluts... and every time you do some of those, you're tightening and toning!  And it can be done anywhere, without anyone knowing what you're doing! lol!

So - is anyone excited yet??  Are we ready to do this thing??? TEAM EXTRA, Lets GO!!!!!!  If you're reading this post (and actually made it through another of my long winded ramblings!) - first, congratulations!  Second.... please respond with 2 things you're going to do this week, new or old, to help you stay with this.  It can be mental - physical - or food wise. 

Ok!  You're turn!  Oh! And remember to list your "reward" for completing those two goals this week!!!!

Shimmy On my friends!!!!

Trish :)