| Height: | 167.6cm |
| Start weight: | 341.20lb |
| Current weight: | 337.40lb |
| Goal weight: | 150.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 3.80lb |
| Remaining: | 187.40lb |
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Sorry to everyone who's posted comments recently- I've been so busy reading and doing research on TTC that I've been neglecting this blog. I'm still dieting- doing very well thankfully, but TTC is such a big part of me right now that I have to devote some time to it. Will try to update more and check on every one soon.
I guess that's pretty good, I'll take it. Better than gaining, for sure. I don't know, I guess I was just hoping there'd be some huge change. There would have been if I'd take my medicine. I'll be back on it soon, though.
I just found out that one of the girls in the office is on it.Seriously- it explains a lot. She is always blowing it up (sorry, tmi) and I figured there was something up with her. Well, it's the Metformin. She's like "I don't really have any side effects." But, maybe she doesn't realize that is one. I just don't want to have to deal with that at work. Apparently the boss from my last job who would whip out the sprays and start talking about people, really gave me a complex.
Anyway, I'm going to move on to something positive. I am loving Keebler low fat crackers with laughing cow light swiss. Yummm. I've been switching up that and carrots w/ ranch for my daily snack. Kick ass. Also, I found this tea at Meijer- it's in a glass bottle and called Sweet Leaf Sweet Tea Diet Original. Frickin A Right, this stuff taste like southern sweet tea. Good stuff.
Ever since I started working here they've gone on and on about this ice cream place that our boss will go to and buys us all chocolate malts. Well, he usually waits until it gets a little toasty outside but yesterday he must have just wanted one.
Of course. Three days into my diet. I mean, how can I resist it when I've heard so much about them? So I got one. But then I walked after I got home from work and had a light dinner. I don't quite think it made up for it- but the important thing is that I didn't let it ruin my whole day. That I didn't say, 'well, I had that, I might as well eat whatever I want'. That's big for me. So I don't feel too guilty. 
I can not believe how busy we are today at work (the fact that I post how busy we are on my blog while I'm here is insignificant). Despite this craziness, I'm doing well. I had a Jimmy John's sub which was pretty healthy but *gasp* I did have mayo on it. It's okay- I'm fat enough that I can slide it into my points for the day and it won't have an effect.
I'm doing kind of a mix of Weight Watchers and the Insulin Resistance Diet. I'm trying to link any carbs I have with a protein because of my Insulin Resistance- also helps with the PCOS. Isn't that just such fun? All my ailments? Gotta love em. Anyway, while linking the carbs, I'm still counting points so I don't get too crazy.
I'm afraid to post my pics on here. Not because I don't want anyone seeing how fat I am- I could care less- that's me, I'm fat. But because- well I don't know why. I'm afraid someone in internet land will try to use it against me. The question is why I give a shit.
Ooh, my Avon just got here. I have to go check that out :)
I think this is the one now. The other seemed kind of immature- I mean, I'm going to talk about how 'this is for my health now, not the silly dreams of wearing cute clothes' and then have my blog description talk about becoming a hottie? Makes sense- not. "Pretty" isn't as bad though. Of course I do still want to wear cute clothes, I'm just looking at that as a benefit now- not as the main reason.
I started taking vitamins today as part of my whole change. I'm even taking prenatal just in case. I know it probably won't happen for a while (it already seems like forever) but just in case . God willing.
Dh has me on this Soprano's kick. I never really watched before, but now I'm into the second season dvd's and I just love this show. It's really helping with the Grey's withdrawals ;) but damn if I'm not saying the F word every five minutes. I already have the mouth of a trucker, this just makes it that much worse.
Anyway, I'm here at work munching on some carrots- avoiding completely the fact that the rest of the girls are going to order chocolate chip cookies from Max & Ermas. They are sinful- makes me oh so happy that I started my diet today. Lifestyle change. Whatever.
That would actually weigh my big ass- results are in 341.2 and a BMI of 29. Good Lord give me strength.
Finally I've decided I have no choice but to lose this weight. It's no longer a silly looks issue, it's a health issue. I come home from work and my ankles and feet are so swollen I feel like my skin is going to split.
I no longer have a choice in this matter. I do this, or die an early death. I want children- won't happen at this weight. So I am determined to blog every day, to track every day, and to move my body- every day. I no longer have time for games.
No more "Oh I can just grab this and I can have that." That's over. I will eat my one meal on Friday nights that will be the flex points and that is it. No excuses and no pints of Haagen-Dacz or Ben and Jerry's. I've eaten my share as well as a hundred other people's share of that crap. Fuckin A right.
By the way, if you're reading this blog- I cuss. I'm open and fun but sometimes bitchy and I don't give a shit. Deal with it.
