DP says 1084 calories for the day.  I am pleased with much of how today went. 

Alarm went off at 6:30 and I was tired and turned it back off.  Up at 8 a.m.  I would really like to do better with this. 

By myself - (good job, me!) -  I went for two laps around the track and ran/jogged more than half of the time.  The battery to my pedometer died.  It may be cheaper to buy a new pedometer than a new battery.  And it may be more accurate.  I am considering what to do. 

Home and fixed 2 eggs with a cup of steamed spinach.  It was too much to eat.  After this I will scramble a single egg, or just add a second yolk.  I did some research into the nutrition in eggs and most of it is in the yolks. 

Did a load of laundry (towels) and ran the dishwasher.  The dishes seem to keep piling up lately. 

My daughter is stopping by tomorrow at some point with a bed.  I need to get the upstairs room cleared out. 

Packed my lunch for work.  My plan to purchase dressing, chicken, and some hardboiled egg was almost perfect.  They had no eggs.  I have decided to hardboil my own at home, four eggs at a time, and use just the yolks.  The cost of what I did purchase:  $1, and my lunch was much better than if I had put it all together at home.  I also ate most of my raw veggies.  Cucumber, radishes, carrots.  I didn't get to my grapefruit. 

Home around 8:40 and changed for the gym.  Even though it was snowing.  Partly because I was out of salad fixings for tomorrow and the grocery store is next to the gym.  So I went, and I went 2.25 miles in 33 minutes and ran at 5.0 and even at 6.0 for a few minutes.  I was pleased with me.  I could see my reflection in a mirror at the opposite end of the gym and it was motivating.  Nothing but treadmill. 

Wandered around the grocery store for probably 20 minutes looking for healthy convenient choices.  Did you know that a Marie Calendars pot pie is nearly 700 calories?  I picked two frozen dinners, a head of romaine, 3 bananas, a cucumber, and some cottage cheese. 

I am watching Hoarders.  It is late and I need to get to bed.  Morning awaits. 

Oh, one of my teammates gave me a chocolate cupcake on my way out the door.  It is figured into my calories but it is sitting on the kitchen table, uneaten.  I might be able to throw it in the trash tomorrow. 

I want to feel good again.  Physically, mentally, emotionally.  I want to wear all the cute clothes I purchased last summer that don't fit any more.  I want to feel beautiful and young and healthy. 

I want to allow myself to feel once more.  Because I shut myself down last fall with all the D nonsense. 

I miss him again today.  I wanted to text him, head over to his apartment so I could feel his arms wrapped around me, laugh at his dry sense of humor and hear him say, " oh, really..."   I am going to ignore it.  He has no capacity to love or have a healthy relationship.  Remember this.  Spending time with him causes me extreme anxiety. 

Let's have a really good day tomorrow.  Get lots of typety typety done.  I have a ride to the office two hours earlier than normal.  Don't forget to be ready for work at 1:10.  And tomorrow, see if you can refrain from dropping the salad on the floor. 

Bets on whether I will go for my walk in the morning in the snow:  50/50.  If it isn't icey I will go.