05/05/2009 18:20
the beginning of the rest of my life
Okay maybe that sounds a little sappy. But I really want this to be it. I want this to start off what realy is the weight loss of my life. I am so sick of struggling as much as I do. I want to lose this weight, but what scares me is that some days, I feel like I don't have the energy to do it. I know that it's me who has to do this. I have no one else to blame but myself. I just hope that I can find the strength and courage to finally do this. Sometimes I wonder if the reason I haven't actually lost the weight is the subconsciously I can't imagine myself not being the way I am, even though my other conscious wants it so bad.
We'll see if I can do it!