Feeling empty.
Maybe I'm just tired. Or I've been hopeful for awhile and nothing is happening. I'm not just talking weight loss. Just everyday things too, like boys, work, money, school. It's all catching up to me, and surprisingly I'm not being an emotional eater.
This morning I woke up still with a slight tummyache. I texted Crystal (Crystal2105@EP/V8STANG2105@SP) and told her how I just didn't feel like getting up. But she talked to me and motivated me to get up. So I got up in time to shower before heading to WW and the gym.
WW... Was interesting. I sure did feel good about showing up. And the topic of the week was really helpful and I wish Misty (mistacious@EP/MISTICISM@SP) was there, maybe it would've been motivating to her as well. Oh well. Anywho, I weighed in and sat down. Took a look at my book... My last weigh-in (before today) was August 1, 2009 @ 222.4 lbs. Today's weigh-in- January 2, 2010 @ 224.4 lbs. How CRAZY is that? Lol. I told my friend Anthony (he's my male "support" group) and he said it was bad news, but I said that I could have been way worse, considering I was off the program for 5 months. So that was my amusement for today.
I went to the gym. Pretty much stayed on the treadmill, which is weird, I usually hate treadmills. But I put it on the cardio program for 30 minutes. My target heart rate is 158, so it kept inclining and declining. My average incline was 10, that was a killer. But once again, my face was dripping with sweat. I was feeling good. *Yay* After I finished that, I did a few crunches on this ab/back machine and then a few minutes on the rotary machine. I don't know the names. But that got me sweating a little bit- which was strange.
Idk- I feel like I'm doing something wrong. I used to be able to be on the elliptical for an hour and do 4 miles (yes, I'm slow) and not sweat as much as I do now on the treadmill. Hmm, Idk, my brain hurts, and my thought processor is broken at the moment. Hah.
Anywho, after the gym I came home to find a package from one of my BFFs. She sent Christmas cookies with my lovely gifts... I ate one and felt SOOO guilty. Especially since I just came home from the gym. The second that cookie was gone, I felt like I bloated up 5 sizes and then felt like I wasted all my time at the gym. Sooo, instead of feeling like the biggest loser and feeling discourage, I took my pup out for a short walk. Only 20 minutes and it was kind of a slow paced/laid back one. I was tired already and I would've gone longer if I didn't have to work. I didn't really sweat, but I felt just a tiny tiny tiny tiny bit better about burning off those cookie calories, but I wasn't completely satisfied.
I did go healthy grocery shopping after work today. Bought bananas, pita bread, loaf of whole wheat bread, and almond butter (yummy!). I'm still deciding on the hummus... I heard it's good for you but has an acquired taste?.. So not sure on that one.
But over all, right now, I'm feeling good. And I'm craving gym time right now, but it's 2:25 AM and I know my legs would strangle me while I'm sleeping if I did go to the gym right now. So I'll save it for tomorrow.
CRYSTAL- I bought a book today. Hah, I couldn't help it.