Tara B's Year Long Quest

Working my way down!

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  • Name: tarabpsych
  • City: Vancouver
  • Region: British Columbia
  • Country: Canada

My Weight Loss

Height: 165.1cm
Start weight: 224.00lb
Current weight: 221.00lb
Goal weight: 135.00lb
Lost to date: 3.00lb
Remaining: 86.00lb

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I wonder what needs to happen for me to get serious about this????

I really do need some good motivation!

I have been ill on and off it feels like forever...and the only people i know who want to work out with me want to go at 6:00 am in the morning...and we all know i am not a morning person.

I have added an additional 6 months onto my goal day.   Why?  because i want to do this the healthy way.    I could have dropped most of the weight by my birthday...but i worry about baggy skin and baggy boobs...and falling off the wagon cuz i pushed it so hard!

I have joined weight watchers...but i am already forgetting daily to write my food down!  and i really need to get my exercise done!   My measurements are all down...well except my forearms....wierd!   So that feels good...I am back on track and finally down again.    I went up past my start weight so i had to come all the way down again and now finally pacman is back in the pluses!

I dont know what to do....am I lazy?   I think im totally motivated to lose the weight and be healthier....so why am i sabatoging myself?    I do so good...then an emotional or physical set back comes...and i sit back again....what is that?

God I wish i had someone who understood what i was going through so i could talk to them!

Oh well we march on right.    today is a new day...we will see what happens i guess.

OH crap for crap

Here I am 4 days from cuba...and I am back at my original weight...what the hell.

I really got off track when I got sick.    Apparently sleep is not good exercise....oh dear.

I now have a wedding to plan and slim down for as well, which is good will still put me on track for losing the weight by my birthday.   My schedule has got to even out at some point right?

New Year...New Anthem...New Attitude and New Routines...Lets get at 'er!   Its about health and not figure!

Artist : Mary J. Blige Title : [Take Me As I Am] ----------------- [Verse 1] She's been down and out She's been wrote about She's been talked about constantly She's been up and down She's been pushed around But they held her down in YC She has no regrets She accepts the past All these things they help to make she She's been lost and found And she's still around There's a reason for everything, yeah [Chorus] You know I've been holding on Try to make me weak But I still stay strong Put my life all up in these songs Just so you can feel me So take me as I am Or have nothing at all Just take me as I am Or have nothing at all [Verse 2] Yes she's older now Yes she's wiser now Can't disguise her now, she don't need No one telling her what to do and say No one telling her who to be She's on solid ground She's been lost and found But she answers to G-O-D And she's confident this is not the end Ask me how I know cause she's me [Chorus] You know I've been holding on Try to make me weak But I still stay strong Put my life all up in these songs Just so you can feel me So take me as I am As I am Or have nothing at all Nothing Baby This is me, this is me [Bridge] So it's all or nothing or all Or nothing at all Don't you know I can only be me, yeah So it's all or nothing at all Or nothing at all Don't you know I can only be me So take me as I am Or have nothing at all Just take me as I am This is me, this is me Or have nothing at all

I am not doing very well!

I have all my tests back...and the diagnoses....STRESS!    So i have taken up yoga...at least I try to go but something always seems to come up!    This is why i cancelled my gym membership!  I was feeling pretty crappy today....and then i got this asrticle in my email....it made me feel sad, convicted, enlightened and excited!   I thought i would share it with everyone!

22 Reasons You May Stay Fat Forever
By Dr. Matthew Anderson

I imagine you have realized by now that long-term, healthy weight loss is difficult. You may sometimes feel that it is impossible. Either way, you have probably often felt frustrated and would love to have some honest and productive advice that will make a real difference on your journey to weight loss.

I know what it is like to have difficulty losing weight and keeping it off, and I really dislike writers who offer silly and superficial advice about it. I, therefore, made a commitment to myself and to my readers three years ago (when I began to write for eDiets.com) to be as honest and as helpful as possible. This article reflects that commitment.

EDITOR'S NOTE: Dr. Anderson has created a special one-hour audiotape titled "WAKE UP AND DRIVE YOUR LIFE!" It contains powerful techniques that will help you wake up and take charge of your goals (including weight), your dreams and your life. You can order this tape from his website: www.mattcoyote.com.

I imagine you have realized by now that long-term, healthy weight loss is difficult. You may sometimes feel that it is impossible. Either way, you have probably often felt frustrated and would love to have some honest and productive advice that will make a real difference on your journey to weight loss.

I know what it is like to have difficulty losing weight and keeping it off, and I really dislike writers who offer silly and superficial advice about it. I, therefore, made a commitment to myself and to my readers three years ago (when I began to write for eDiets.com) to be as honest and as helpful as possible. This article reflects that commitment.

 

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I have listed 22 of the most powerful blocks to weight loss that I could identify. I want you to take a look and see how many apply to you in any degree. This list is not meant to make you feel more hopeless. It is designed to help you clearly identify the real blocks to your weight loss and encourage you to productively confront and manage them.

Once you truly know what keeps you from reaching your healthy weight-loss goals, you will be able to create a realistic plan. I faced my own blocks three years ago, and I lost 64 pounds. You can do this also if you take my list seriously!

22 Reasons You Might Be Fat Forever.

1. You are still looking for a quick and easy solution to weight loss.

2. You think that diet and exercise are the only essential factors involved in weight loss.

3. You have not identified the psychological reasons that drive your eating patterns.

4. You have not learned to manage or heal the psychological reasons that drive your eating patterns.

5. You have a fear of or resistance to growing up and becoming a full adult.

6. You use food as a reward or a treat after any or all stressful events.

7. You think you can lose weight without making exercise a regular part of your day, every day.

8. You think you can lose weight by doing it “your way.”

9. You expect to lose weight without making significant lifestyle changes.

10. You refuse to learn to become a good receiver as well as a good giver.

11. You have never learned to be effectively and appropriately assertive.

12. You have not learned to express your anger in a healthy, honest fashion

13. You have not learned to be self-nurturing except with food.

14. You are excessively self-critical.

15. You refuse to take responsibility for your life.

16. You resist learning to love yourself.

17. You resist learning to love your body before it is thin.

18. You have not faced your inner fears of being thin.

19. You are certain that spirituality (a connection to a force greater than you) is irrelevant to weight loss.

20. You think you can lose significant weight without the support of others.

21. You have deep emotional wounds that you refuse to explore and heal.

22. You are not prepared to have weight be an issue that you will have to face each and every day for the rest of your life.

OK, now you have some incredibly important information about yourself and the things that are blocking your weight loss. You now have a choice. You can get depressed and go into avoidance or denial, or you can choose to make a renewed and informed commitment to your growth and well-being. The decision you make could change your life and your body for good!

If you want additional effective tools and/or encouragement for this process, please email me at mattcoyote@aol.com. I know what you are faced with and I want to help you with it.

Read it...think about it....put it into action....start at No.1 and work your way down the list on all that apply to you!   I can do that!

Back up on that horse.....why does it have to buck so much...Its like I live on a chocolate ranch...and every time I fall off...its into a deep puddle of dark chocolaty goodness.....its so hard to get up!   Why can't they make yummy no calorie chocolate???

I appreciate everyones help!  Love Tara

1 week since I have been home

Down 2 pounds...thats a good pace!

Brooklyn and I have a contest...heheh

So here it is....Brooklyn and I are both going to Cuba in January.   To provide incentive, we have put a little wager on, we have to lose 40 pounds before cuba!

The loser will have to do something horrible, that is yet to be determined...any ideas?   Dont forget we don't want to get arrested in a foreign country!

So here we go!

This will require....45 minutes per day exercise (yeah for xbox trainer!) 3 meals at 400 calories each, 3 snacks at 100 calories each.  

Additional exercise after that can garner higher calorie snack or meal.   however a 1 hour walk would give me enough calories for 1 beer and 6 hot wings! LOL

New Challenge and New Rules

Seems we got Denise signed up for this and now She, Jenn and I all have the YourselfFitness personal trainer!

Its time to see who unlocks what and gets to platinum first!  Nothing like having a little competition!   Excellent way to encourage each other and push each other on!

Anyone else want to join?

My divorce is final

So here I am...a divorced woman...and what did i do the last week of my married life...I threw it all down the toilet!

I had a rough week, I did some emotional eating and basically all i did for two weeks was sleep, work and sleep some more.  I haven't worked out in two weeks (except for a few walks here and there!).

So what do I do...beat myself up or get back on the horse!

Beat myself up...no just kidding.  I get back on the horse.   I throw out all the junk food that made it in to the house (thanks tanya, andre and jen...next time eat more!!) and i get back on the ball! Literally!

Tonight when I go home, I will do my measurements and see how badly i messed that up!   Hey at least I am at a place in my life where i can recognize that i was emotionally eating.   Now on to the next step where i don't do it at all.

I hear that bikini in cuba calling my name!  Lets get at 'er!

So here is the skinny....

Measurement                June 6              June 30, 2006

 

 

 

 

 

Sit ups                          38                                53

 

 

Push ups            L1        1                      L1       8

 

 

                         L2         7                      L2      20

 

 

                         L3        14                     L3      20

 

 

 

 

 

Timed               Walk    9.5 Mins     Run         7.08 Mins

 

 

 

 

 

Neck                            17.5                             17       

 

 

Shoulders                     48                                46.5

 

 

Chest                           44.5                             44

 

 

Waist                           46                                45

 

 

Stomach                       51                                47.5

 

 

Hips                             51.5                             50

 

 

Biceps                          13.5                             13.5

 

 

Forearms                      10                                11

 

 

Thighs                          26                                24.5

Calves          17                    17    

So I lost 10 inches all over.   I went up in my forearm...but last time she measured my left arm and this time my right (and I am right handed!)   Even though I gained muscle I also lost 8 pounds!

Not bad for a month huh!

First Day

So Boot camp is almost done...I need to keep the momentum going!  So here is my personal weight loss blog!

once we get our comparison measurements etc from them, I will post for all to see.  

Join me in my year long process to my ideal healthy weight!

Love ya

Tara

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