We all have different quirks about us. Things that just us go "ick" or even slightly 'stand-off-ish.'
Mine just happens to be the - you guessed it folks - scale. What is it about that damn little thing with all those numbers that drives me insane? I mean, heck, I am BIGGER than it is and I am frightened and consumed by it. I walk past it "I am not going to get on it." Yes, I do. I walk right up to it and demand to not be intimidated by it. Freakish little thing. Trying to run the world with it's numbers. Mind you, NO one knows how much I weigh. Just my doctor and now that lady at weight watchers with that silly little grin on her face.
So a couple of girls at work decided they want to join WW with me. Fabulous! The more the merrier. Great support system. At least with a couple of them. We all walk to the break room and hop on the scale. We decided we would all let each other see our weight and just have that accountability with each other.
I don't know what the heck we were thinking. Bunch of over-zealous chubby chicks with nothing better to do, I suppose.
But, I will say this, I OWN that number. It is MINE. All mine. It is number I will get away from. It is accountability and probably one of the best things I have done in a long time. I don't know why. It's odd and I guess it just feels like a complete release.
Here I am. Adding and budgeting my points. And I have 5 left over for the day. I thought I had gone over on my points but Hell, I am a big woman and I get 30 points per day!! Kind of a scary thought. AND, it's a lot more food than what I thought. I know, I know. NOBODY LIKES BRAGGERS, RIGHT? That number will go down (hopefully) and then I will be saying I need more food!!
Maybe I will pop some popcorn and finish my Sex and the City DVD marathon tonight. Find out what's going on with the girl's in this season. It is Season 2.
Which character are you more like? Now that's a good question!!
You know what really sucks???!!! I just joined WW Wednesday night which means I actually started the plan yesterday (Thursday). My schedule just got changed and now I have to go on Monday. So I have 4 days of dieting and then I weigh-in. If I gain in those 4 days I am going to run out of there screaming. The mad, fat woman running, pulling her hair, and screaming will be me. No need to stop and ask me if I am ok....I ONLY GAINED!!
You know what I really want? I want my thighs to not rub together and cause a friction that is sure to create a fire at some point. Maybe I should just walk around with a fire extinguisher. It's just mortifying. I know there are worse things in life, but for today, for me, I feel as though this is the end-all. And I hope the rest of you don't experience this thigh-rubbing thing but if you do, I know you understand my thoughts and experiences and the fact that trying on clothes is ABOSLUTELY NO FUN. When I was thin it was fun and I could spend all day doing it, but not anymore.
hmf.
I don't consider myself shallow, but hey, I want to go try on clothes and prance around the dressing room. OUT OF THE PLUS SIZES!!
That's my soap-box rant today. Hope you all enjoyed....
Wow...you just ever have one of those days? Sure you have. We all have. I felt like punching myself in the face or stabbing myself in the eye. Probably would have taken my mind off of everything else.
And I wanted some chocolate. Then, of course, I realized my monthly cycle was here so that could justify the sweet craving. I ended up having one of the Nestle Stix (Dark Chocoloate) just to satisfy the craving. I thought I would end up eating the whole box, but no, the one satisfied me.
I know most of you have watched "Sex and the City." I have not. I was overseas for most of seasons and only seen a couple of episodes of the final season. I was flipping through the channels a couple of weeks ago and actually watched a couple of episodes. So, I put them on my 'queue' on Netflix and have been watching this stuff a couple of times per week. This show is actually pretty funny. I guess I now see what the hype was all about. I am actually on Season 2 right now.
I went to my first WW meeting last night. I guess several people also had the idea of New Year's Resolutions...I felt like I was at a conference. I almost stood up and said, "Hello, my name is _________ and I like food." But, we'll see how it goes. I am trying to set myself up to succeed and not fail and maybe accountability is what I need to get myself going. That commitment and follow-through.
New Year - New ME! As I said below, I have never really set any New Year's Resolutions and thought I would this year. Obviously #1 for me now is:
LOSE WEIGHT!! - not that it is the end all of everything, but it seems so imperative at this point where I am at that I lose some of this. I have always been a pretty upbeat kind of person but for the last couple of months, it's just not happening for me. I have to get rid of it before I drive myself insane as well as everyone around me.
I have a couple of others but that is my #1 and I will work on the others at the same time. MULTI-TASKING AT ITS BEST.
How about everyone else? What is on your agenda for the next couple of weeks or months? If you don't want to share, that's fine. I am just curious and hope we can push each other along.
AND....
BIGGEST LOSER STARTS TONIGHT!!I have never truly watched this show until last season. Where the heck have I been? This show is truly good. I admit, I seem to DVR most of them so I can fast forward through the commercials and everything later.
So, everyone, have a great evening and will check back in tomorrow. Hope you had a safe evening and your New Year was SPECTACULAR!!
Christmas was fast, fun, and fabulous and New Year's is coming QUICK! Aren't you guys just completely excited about what we can do for ourselves in the New Year?
I don't think I have ever been this excited about the New Year and what it holds.
By the way - thanks for my 2 dear internet/extrapounds friends for posting and making me feel re-welcomed!!
So, I was gone for a few months. 6 months, to be more exact. I had a little health issue that I needed to take care of and all seems to be going well now SO I AM BACK ON THE WEIGHT LOSS WAGON WITH MY DR'S APPROVAL.
This how my New Year will start. Weight loss and re-dedicated to the fullest. I was doing so well and it was so frustrating for everything to happen but, it did and here I am. No worries. I can and will do this.
I will reach ONEDERLAND!! It's imperative. I have to. It's driving me nuts. I will be the one to try on a swimsuit in the department store with all those damned three-way mirrors making me look like I have 6 thighs and 6 butt-cheeks, looking as though I am at a carnival.
yes, for real. I really mean it. tee he he. We know how that goes.
How the heck is everyone? Christmas is here. Yea!! And I have set myself some goals. I never really make New Year's Resolutions but I thought I may try it this year.
My Dear hubby is driving me nuts right now. Or making me feel like I am nuts. I am not sure which one is more accurate.
Going to go to the movies in a few minutes. Seeing the new National Treasure. I aboslutely love movies. I actually go on average at least once per week. I should be a movie critic. My dream job.....
Hope everyone is doing well and making great progress!
Been out of sight, out of mind lately. Thanks Sparkly_Star for noticing and dropping a quick line. It's amazing how something small can make someone's day.
Got busy with life, just to tell the truth. Travel with the job and loose ends after my dad's death. Seems like a never-ending cycle sometimes - the cycle of life, that is.
Been in New York for the last week and a half. Love this big city!!! I am jealous of you all that live there!!
When I read that part in the book, I went kind of nuts. I worked HARD to stay slim. Running 14 miles is no easy task, no matter how great or in shape you are. My eating habits were much better as well. I sweated and was psychologically "there." In the zone, so to speak. My mantra was NIKE's logo - JUST DO IT.
Yes, my foot is in my mouth because I LET MYSELF GO. No one else let me go. I made choices and my choices got worse.
Now, this was in no way meant as a jab at the book. Other than my post below, so far the book is pretty good. I just disagreed with that part.
"If you're thin, then you believe that fat people must be doing something wrong to make them fat. But if you're fat, then you blame the environment, or your genetics, or anything else." - taken from YOU on a Diet by Michael F. Roizen, M.D. and Mehmet C. Oz, M.D.
Is that true? Now, for most of us here, we have thought this way to some extent. A few years ago, before my accident and the weight crept on, I was running 14 miles a day at 4 times per week. I was in the gym 4 days per week lifting weights. I was in physically great shape. Then came "life" and it's surprises. Obviously my eating habits and steroids, and probably even depression (who knows, I was never diagnosed) and ANGER at the circumstances, the weight came on. I was never overweight until then because I fought it off like it was the bubonic plague. I had always felt like I was destined to be fat (family history of obesity) so I worked hard to not be.
So, yes, I was guilty of looking at extremely overweight people and thinking, "How could they let themselves get that way?" Here I am folks, foot in mouth and choking on that shit.
This week I showed absolutely NO weightloss. I maintained. I even had dessert this week. Strawberry shortcake and it was absolutely divine. I indulged in every bit of that basketball-sized serving. (OK, DH had some - but I was nonetheless pig-ish).
But, I am ok. I feel fine. Time to jump back in with gusto and get my head out of my butt and make things happen.
"The battle against extra pounds isn't won with force, with sweat, with trying to diet. It's won with elegance, with smarts, and with healthy choices that become automatic." (Also taken from YOU on a Diet). Sure, I agree with the smarts and healthy choices so I basically understand with what they are saying. But folks, my extra pounds come off with S-W-E-A-T. it's just that plain and simple.
and sense of accomplishment! This morning I used my NIKE iPOD and went OUTSIDE for my walk/jog. (I normally do it inside on my treadmill) Heaven forbid a fat woman jogging. We know it's all about skinny folks looking hungry when they jog.That's not my accomplishment, though.
This being my first walk/jog with it - I did 3K and jogged most of the way. about 2.25K jog and .75 walk. Yeah me!! The first .25 of it walking to get my muscles warmed up. It's pretty cool - this lady comes through and talks to you on the headphones and tells you how far you've gone, which I didn't know, so when I reached .5K and she came through the headphones, I thought, "I bet I can make it to 1K jogging the whole way...." So, I just talked my way through it along with the unknown entity voice.
Everything else is going pretty well, also. I didn't eat too well on Tuesday (day of dad's funeral). It wasn't horrible, just not what I have been eating. But, I paid the price for it. It felt like there was a homicide going on in my stomach. I don't know how else to describe it. Other than I spent the rest of the night in the restroom. Little TMI, I know.
How are YOUR workouts going? Baby steps....Just get up and get something done. Wash the car (don't drive through one..LOL) mow the yard, whatever it takes to get you motivated.
taebo.diva
The first .25 of it walking to get my muscles warmed up. It's pretty cool - this lady comes through and talks to you on the headphones and tells you how far you've gone, which I didn't know, so when I reached .5K and she came through the headphones, I thought, "I bet I can make it to 1K jogging the whole way...." So, I just talked my way through it along with the unknown entity voice.