Hello

Hi Guys

I'm sorry I haven't updated. My prioroities have been elsewhere for the last month or so.

I'm getting there. I have good days and bad days. We are trying again, but I'm trying not to focus on it too much, even though its so hard.

We are getting another puppy soon, so hopefully that will help to keep me busy.

I've started a new non weight loss related blog. It's about my thoughts and feeling along this new journey I am undertaking. You can find it here if you want to read it.

I am going to give up my Slimming World group. It is nothing like I thought it would be, and quite frankly, I've got enough on my plate at the moment. I am going to post my letter today I think.

Miscarriage of Injustice

On Friday last week, I found out I was pregnant. Yesterday, I had a miscarriage. I'm heartbroken. I don't know what else to say.

Was it my fault? Was it something I did, or didn't do? Is it a punishment for something I've done in the past? It's just not fair. I wanted this so much.

Hubby has been great. He doesn't really know what to do or say. But he's trying. He's as upset as me, just handling it differently. My mum has cried with me. His dad just said "well you knew it was early"

Tonight, we were supposed to be going out for dinner with my best friend to tell him the good news. Instead, he knows something is wrong, but doesn't know what, so is currently driving over here to find out what is going on.

We are going on holiday to Canada on Saturday. The doctor suggested we thought about cancelling, but I've got some advice from a pregnancy advisor, and she said that if it was her, she'd still go on holiday. If i stay here for two week, I'll drive myself crazy. I need to keep myself busy.

Time for an Update

Ok. So yes, I have been slack. I’ve had loads going on. Haven’t had a free weekend for ages, and even evenings have been quite busy so I haven’t found the time.

Too Good to be True

Well, I didn't post last week. Sorry. Loads going on. You want to know what? Well. Where do I start?! I had my away day with work, hence the gain as there was much alcohol involved and lots of food that wasn't on plan. But the downside of the alcohol is that one of the guys at work (JW) tends to get a bit much after a few drinks. It's not the first time he's done it to me, so lets just say I'm in the process of going through HR procedures to get him done for sexual harrassment!

Then, my mentally handicapped brother got his locker broken in to at the gym. They stole his car keys, house keys, wallet and phone. In his wallet was his driving license and insurance documents, which means that they had his address, which means that they knew where hs car was parked which they had keys to and they had keys to the house. Thankfully, they found his wallet and his license was still in there, but his insurance docs weren't. So I've been helping mum and and dad sort that out.

This weekend, we had some friends over from Kent, the couple I'm being a bridesmaid for. We went out for dinner on Saturday and I had a pizza and a pudding and I still lost 1.5lbs. How, I don't know, but i'm not complaining as I will probably gain next week.

I have been eating sooooooooooooo much this last week. I don't know why, but I've been so hungry, and tired. Really tired. I've been trying to fill myself up on free foods though, and I've discovered a liking for cottage cheese with pineapple. Yummy!

Anyway, that's all I have to say. Hope you are all well and that you're losers!!! x

Serendipity Fell off the wagon she was on

So a pound up this week. I don't know what's wrong with me but I can't seem to shift this last half a stone. I'm really struggling. I must do better. It's driving me mad.

Good group tonight, best number sign in yet, so that's great!

In other news, hubby and I are trying for a baby. We were going to wait until July, purely for work reasons, but we decided not to put our life on hold anymore for a job that I'm not 100% happy in at the moment. So wish me luck!!

Serendipity is back on the wagon!!

I weighed in tonight at my lowest. 9st 2.5lbs. 7.5lbs away from target. Hooray!! It's so close, yet so far! I can do it. I know I can. Just can't let myself slip now that I'm this close!!

So I have run my first two SW groups, and they are going realy well. My manager came to watch tonight and she was really pleased. There's a few things I need to improve on, but I'm fine with that as it's only my second week. I was chiffed tonight as I had over 20 people stay to group. I'm still not on very high earnings, but that will hopefully change in 4 weeks. Fingers crossed!

MIA

I am SO sorry I have been so rubbish at posting.

I must try harder!! I must try harder!! I must try harder!! I must try harder!! I must try harder!! I must try harder!!

OK, so I'm down a pound this week which is good. I'm aiming for it to be more when I get on the scales this week though. Just for ease, weigh day has changed to Tuesday as that is when my first group will be.

So this Tuesday will be my first group and I must say I'm kind of regretting my descision. I haven't had nearly the amount of support that I should have. The story about me won't be going in the paper as my manager hasn't been as forceful as she should have been. Instead, another consultant has a story going in about one of her members, which I'm really annoyed about as it should be new consultants are a priority.

Also, I should be aiming to get 25 new members in to make my earnings worthwhile. Somehow I don't see that coming. New members from last week count as well to which there were 4, and I have had one phonecall from another woman who will come this week. Where I'm going to get another 20 from, I don't know.

I'm also still not well. I've been ill for 4 weeks now. At first it was like a cold type thing, but now it's on my chest and it's really affected my asthma. I saw the doctor two weeks ago who gave me a different type of inhaler. She said to try it for a few weeks, and if it didn't work to go back and see her. So I went back on Thursday and she told me to make an appointment with the asthma nurse. That was it. Why didn't she just say on my first appointment that if I wasn't any better to go and see the asthma nurse and save us both time?

Also (getting a bit personal here), I came off the pill in Feb. Hubby and I are going to start TTC (trying to conceive) in July, but before that, I wanted my body to regulate itself. So I had my normal withdrawl bleed when I stopped taking my pill, and I've had nothing since. It's now been 43 days. I'm not pregnant, I've done a test and we've b een using extra precautions, and will continue to do so until July. I mentioned this to the doc and she just said that was normal. Doesn't make me feel any better though.

So that's what's going on with me. How are you guys doing? xx

Rubbish

Yes I've been rubbish, I'm sorry. Been really busy recently. It was hubby's birthday last weekend, so we were away, hence a one piund gain this week. Not surprising really.

We have been busy the last few days leafleting, trying to promote my new group. Boy it's hard work. And obviously, today being Easter Egg day, I have eaten an easter egg. I really need to get back on track otherwise I am never going to reah 8st 9lbs.

We are out leafleting again tomorrow, hoping to get them all done and out of the way.

Happy Easter x

Hello!

Well, I don't have much of a voice, and I have a chesty cough, but I'm still going to work as I can't afford to have any more time off sick after my operation.

I went to the group I am going to be taking over and I had a sneaky peek at the scales even though it's not official weigh day, and I'm half a pound down, so that is good. What's even better is that I bought some size 10 jeans on Saturday. I've decided that my target is going to be either a total loss of 3 stone, or me fitting into a size 8, whichever happens first.

Talking of my group, can someone help me understand? 32 people signed in today, but only 14 stayed. Why would you pay £4.50 and then not stay to group? I don't get it.

We were in Kent at the weekend, and my friend has chosen her wedding dress and the bridesmaid dresses. It makes me look really slim, I'm chuffed.

Well after that little update, I am off to read and comment on your blogs x

I told you so

Well I was right. I gained. Two pounds. My consultant was pleased, I was not. I'm so near, yet so far.

This weekend we are at my friends place down in Kent, the one I am being bridesmaid for. It's a very long and complicated story which I won't bore you with, but I haven't seen her in ages, and I haven't met her chap yet. So it's going to be good fun.

Next weekend it's hubby's birthday, so I am taking him to the Cotswolds for the weekend. Then the weekend after that, well, that's when I start my promotion for my SW group. I have to deliver 2000 leaflets and put up 50 posters. I also have to have an advert in the paper and a piece about me in the paper with some before and afer shots. I rooted through some pictures taken in June last near, and Oh MY God, I looked awful!!

Sorry I haven't stopped by your blogs, but I haven't been well, and I'm still not. I shouldn't be in work today, but we have a team building thing going on. If it wasn't for that, I'd be in bed!!