03/18/2010 21:31
Bloaty bloaterson
I'm feeling 'that way' again. Sore, swollen, groggy, insomnia, sugar-cravings, feeling bloated (but not looking it!) etc. The 'rock in my intestines' feeling is back after being gone for weeks.
I feel like I have PMS- but last month I did not ever get my period, and this month I have expected for a week to have it... I have woken up 2-3 mornings thinking, 'OH! It started!' but nothing.
What is wrong with me? : ( I want to drink coke, eat chips, eat cookies cookies cookies. I have taken a drink of pepsi or coke each day this week, and up to three drinks a day. That is not what I want to be doing, but it is better than having a can.
I haven't been eating LaraBars so I"m guessing they aren't the source of my stomachaches as originally thought. I've reduced my mean intake and am trying to go meat-free (but something always effs me up, and not even in a 'OHHH THAT IS GOING TO BE TOO YUMMY TO RESIST!' way but in a, 'I don't want to eat this, because it's unhealthy, so I'll just take a OH CRAP THAT WAS BEEF' way). I eat lots of vegetables, I haven't had much water the last 24 hours because i ran out of it and the tap water is reeeeaaallly slimy-feeling and I just can't deal with that : / I keep meaning to buy a filter but forget every time I have a chance.
My weight is dangerously close to 'dropping'. 173.2. I just can't seem to break through that 173 barrier, but I'm comitted to at least finishing this week and getting through next week before I start looking at a new gameplan. I have cut out my snacks mostly (I dont mindlessly snack, I have preplanned snacks) and have been skipping dinner when I"m not hungry or eating a very small portion of whatever.
I do need to see 172 relatively soon to not decide to change more things. I'm not sure what TO change, at this point I can only see getting rid of all non-food calories, but I don't want to give up my coffee in the morning because it really is wonderful and I've felt pretty good drinking it. I have six bottles of it in the fridge! That's like 190 ounces!
I'm looking forward to a bean burger for lunch today. I had one yesterday too. They are so wonderful. I first put 1tsp olive oil in a skillet, heated it over medium for a few minutes, chopped a zucchini in half, then cut that into slices and put them in the skillet until they had gotten some char marks on both sides (flipping required ; )). I took those out, put them on a piece of bread with miracle whip, microwaved a frozen bean patty for 30 seconds, then cooked it up for 5 minutes per side in the same skillet (no additional oil).
This makes an amaaaazzzing sandwich. I used the whole zucchini. Just delicious. It was so wonderful I told my boyfriend it is what he's having for lunch this weekend. He has to give it a try!
Meh. In spite of my weight, I might be willing to get into a bikini this year. I don't feel so bad about the way that I look- just the way that I weigh : P