I got back a week ago and I didn't gain any weight. What I did bring home was a flu that put me in bed all week. So much for getting back on track. As a result, I think I've gained it all back. I haven't weighed myself... I am not ready to be depressed, I'm still feeling yucky. I don't know about other people, but when I get a headache or feel flu-ey, I crave carbs. Between the poor eating and lack of exercise (or movement for that matter) I haven't even begun to stay on program. I haven't even been to the gym.
In Canada, we are having a long weekend, and we're having a barbeque tomorrow. I guess I'll start again on Tuesday, but tomorrow I'm going to drink a lot of water, and try to get off the carbs.
Our trip to Arizona was great! I was very happy I had found a few sun dresses that fit for the trip because it was HOT! I came home to 2 days of snow, which was very sad, but I got a sunburn today so things are looking up. The weather is always an interesting topic in my hometown - Don't plan what you're going to wear tomorrow 'cause mother nature will mess you up!
Looking forward to feeling better tomorrow... and my hubby is back from his long time away.
Next trip for me (so unusual... my typical excitement is traveling to the grocery store and to work ... yipee) is Montreal, Canada! 2 weeks to go, so I better get back at it!
This morning, I just had to see if the scale was actually working yesterday... and... it was!!! I had lost another pound. I'll be so happy to never see the 190's again. ( I'm sure I will yet, but not for long!) I went to the gym this morning and had a tough time with my workout - I'm a bit tired for some reason. I guess I'll have to start slowing down again and follow the doctor's orders.
Well, I am being a good girl and going for a nap - this is SO not me.
2 days before our trip to Arizona - I hope I don't gain all my hard earned weight back!
I am shocked! I am unbelievably speechless! I broke into the 180's!!! I don't know what happened, but all of a sudden the scale began to move. I think it must need batteries - I am not sure if I should trust it at this time.
If I am still weighing in the 180's (oh my!) tomorrow, I'll celebrate! Hopefully this proves that if I stick with the program there will be a pay off.
We had another kid party here last night. My 12 year old had his first party where girls were invited - not as buddies, but as girls. It was too cute, they barely talked to each other. Our house has become the party house for all my boys' friends. We have high expectations for behavior, but always offer a place for the kids to meet. No alcohol, tobacco or drugs allowed, and they must be respectful. Oh... and I can check out the party at any time - my house- my rules. So far no issues.
Last night there was a lot of junk food and I had to bake a lot of cupcakes - apparently it was someone's birthday. Baking is hard for me. I can easily resist the final product, but I like to taste the batter. Although a few small things from this myriad of temptation got sampled, I think I managed OK.
I am finally down 5 pounds. I eliminated some of the carbs from my food choices and it made a huge difference. I think it was the carbs, but my girly cycle is a bit messed up, so I may have been PMS ing. That will hold the weight in place for me. I don't really care about the reason today, I'm just happy to see the weight gone!
Yesterday, I went shopping for appropriate clothing for my trip to Arizona. I am hard to fit at any weight, but right now, I find shopping impossible. I am short waisted with narrow shoulders, wide hips, and a bigger bust. Plus sized bottoms fit, but I swim in the tops. Regular bottoms are almost always too tight in the legs and hips, and the tops fit the shoulders, may strain at the bust, but rarely fit over the hips.
I have to try on a lot of clothing to find one piece , and more often than not, I buy clothing that doesn't really fit; it's good enough, not great. Our city's shopping experience is not very good. If you want something nice, you pay a very high price, and those shops are aimed at the "trophy wives" who make it their job to stay in a size 3... my size is not really available. (That was a rotten comment - I'm just jealous of their tenacity, great bods, and available money - but not their husbands. Mine's great!)
Yesterday, I was lucky! I found 2 dresses, a pair of pants and a shirt! And they actually almost fit! It's amazing how your self esteem goes up (and with that motivation) when you feel pretty in your clothes. I am trying to stick with sale items right now because I don't want to buy too much at this size... wishful... no determined thinking, but I think the boost is worth it.
I have been looking at heavier celebs lately, and they look sexy and great including, Oprah, the women from the View, What Not To Wear makeover participants and some that I don't know. I think, "Wow, they look good and they're not twigs!" (Can you tell I'm new to TV watching? I don't know any names.) If I believe they look good, why don't I believe in myself? I can look and feel sexy at this weight, I just have to dress right and find some confidence.
SO, I highly recommend buying a great outfit. One that fits and makes you feel like a hot woman. It's motivational and just feels good!
Well, 2 weeks of being a good girl, eating properly and working out, and this week I gained a pound. I understand that people plateau, but at the beginning? Come on!
I guess I'll suck it up and try again. I had really hoped to be down a few pounds before my trip to Arizona - it would have given me confidence.
I think I'll skip the gym today. I don't think my heart's in it. Tomorrow's a new day.
I have been very strict with myself regarding exercise. Even when I don't feel like it, I go to the gym. I can't believe how quickly our bodies respond to physical activity. When I started I could barely walk for 15 minutes, yesterday and today I lasted 60 minutes and I even jogged a bit. I did 5 km both days.
The scale however is not budging. It's frustrating! Tomorrow is weigh in day. I dread not losing anything. I wish I had taken my measurements so that I could see if this exercise is changing my shape. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow with my weigh in so I have more than one way to measure success.
I'm off to take the dogs for a walk - they're getting healthy too!
I knew I shouldn't have done it! I should have known better! After a pathetic eating weekend, I just HAD to weigh myself. SO sad... so depressing. What a stupid move... weighing myself! I can't even bring myself to mark it down. It's like all that hard work went out the window!
I had great intentions! I was going to stay on program! After a 3 hour drive to a very small town, I was starving. I should have brought some snacks with me, but of course, I didn't plan for me... just my boys.
After visiting with long lost relatives, who by the way check out every roll with glee, dinner was served. Oh my! The homemade bread was the only edible thing on the table. There were 2 salads, dripping in dressing, potatoes roasted in oil, that were soggy (likely with the oil), and two meats - chicken pieces smothered in some kind of white sauce and black olives and meat balls in scary gravy.
There was, however, the snack table where there was much more interesting and high calorie fair. Needless to say, my eating program went out the window.
I'd like to say that I'll get right back on track today, but I have to go to a family birthday party. Tonight's menu is pizza. I offered to bring a salad, but the hostess declined. She can be rather prickly and may see it as a slight if I bring one anyway. Can't tick her off or I'll pay for a year! I guess I'll eat a big meal prior to going and have a small nibble piece. If I take an obvious bite, rave about the quality and then get too busy to eat more, maybe no one will notice.
I just don't want to lose everything I've worked so hard to achieve.
Well, I started counting points again. I was sick of feeling sick from dropping my carbs so drastically,so I hope that I'll feel better with this system. It's sad that I only lost 2 pounds this week. I am going to the gym every day and I haven't cheated! Your first week should be dramatic... not 2 pounds!
It's been one week since I have started this journey. I wish more weight would have fallen off, but I guess 2 pounds is good. I am of the fast food culture where I need an instant fix, so it's hard to stay motivated. Maybe next week I'll lose more.
I'm going to the gym in a few hours to try out my new fitness plan. I think it may kill me today, but eventually it should get easier... right?
My family has been very supportive of my quest for health. I may actually make it this time!
