A New Month

I seem to begin each month a little disappointed that I never seem to reach my monthly goal. I really didn't come close to the ten pounds I wanted to lose, I really lost a little over 3, which is better than nothing. It seems like such a daunticng task to lose all this weight when I only lose 3 pounds a month. At that rate it will be two years till I reach my goal weight. I suppose at least I would eventually lose the weight, but it's not very motivating.

On a good note, my day was good. I did very little snacking and I worked out.  Maybe if I really concentrate like I did today I will lose more weight this month. So I will set my goal at 10 pounds again and see how it goes!

My check in

I had a few gliches in my plan for the day. Although I didn't go over my calories for the day, I did snack too much. I tried to prevent snacking but eating my planned snacks earlier, and that seemed to work until late afternoon when I always get snacking. I need to try and have something ready to eat at that time and see if that helps.

I also had problems when I went to work out. As I walked into the gym I was being paged. My husband called to tell me that our son was hurt at school and needed to come home. He's fine, but I needed to leave the gym right away and pick him up. I did get to work out this evening though. So that is good.  Hopefully tomorrow will go more smoothly!

Ok day

Today wasn't a terrible day. I worked out and feel good about that. I did ok with my eating, although I did snack a little bit. I am going to try to get my food ready the night before and see if that helps my snacking dilemma.

This weekend was fun but a bit rough. I never got a workout in, and I ate way too much. I don't think I will see a gain this week, but I may not see a loss either. I found out how important coming on here and writing about my day really is. It really helps keep me honest as does logging all of what I have eaten. Next time I will have a better plan in place and I will bring a jounal with me so I can keep track even when I am out and about.

tired and grumpy today

I feel like it has been such a long day and I still have more to do. But I did really well today, no snacking! And I worked out twice, although they weren't the best workouts ever, at least I was moving. I am going out of town for the weekend so tommorrow I will be busy but I need make a good plan so I stay on the right track. I don't want two days to ruin the last couple of weeks of good work!

just checking in

I was going to go to bed and then decided to check in first, just so I will make this a definite habit. I cookied a big dinner for another family today and didn't do too bad with all the snacking. I ate a couple of brownies, which I should have totally skipped, but at least I didn't eat the whole package. I also ate a couple of dinner rolls. Bad carbs are really my downfall. I really enjoy eating them. Even when I remind myself it is not worth it I still eat them. Today it was truly mindless eating too. I was in the kitchen with all the food around me and I just picked them up and ate them. It really is second nature for me to do that when I am cooking. I will have to really prepare the next time I have to make a big dinner. If I coach myself a head of time it would probably work better for me.

I took a day off from exercising. My body was pretty sore from the work I did the last couple of days and didn't want to over do it. I will be back at the gym tomorrow though!

doing alright

The broken record continues, I still am having a tough time with snacking. I am not binging, so that is good. And I am kicking butt when I am working out. I have also found that logging my food earlier in the day helps me keep the snacking at a minium. And in general lets me see where I need adjustments in my diet so that is a good thing. I think if I continue to keep the food journal at the end of the month I will really have a good place to look and see any patterns. And then figure out how to fix those patterns.

I notice that alot of my snacking happens in the late afternoon. This has always been a snacking time to me, and now that I work out around 1 pm, the snacking is really bad around 3. Today I even brought a healthy snack to the gym, which helped. But when I got home I still wanted to snack more. Today is was definitely about sugar. I really wanted some ice cream. I wonder how much of this is purely habit and how much is my body wanting the quick jolt of energy from the sugar. Maybe I will try bringing fruit with to see if that helps keep the sugar cravings at bay. Hope it works!

Feeling good

Well, I didn't blog last night but I feel like I had a really good reason. Instead of playing on the computer as my usual nighttime routine, I actually worked out. I felt great and I am glad I did it. I did a little too much snacking, but even less than last week. So I am starting the day very positively. I hope I end it the same way!

Checking in

I am just checking in before I head to bed. I had a good day, and stuck to my diet fairly well. Still not perfect, I am going to keep trying though. I didn't work out per se, but I did take my kids to the pool and went swimming. So at least I got a little bit of exercise which is better than nothing. My goal is to really stick to my diet this week, and work out 5 days.

Implusive eating

I have been thinking alot about my eating habits and decided that I am never a mindful eater. I am so implusive about eating. If I feel anything, I want to eat. And I want to eat NOW, which translates in to quick and easy. This is why I have been snacking so much. I also am a complusive eater. When I feel stress I HAVE to eat.  No matter what the "good" part of me is saying. No matter how many times I remind myself I am not hungry and I will never lose the weight if I keep on eating like this. When I don't have the complusion it is I am very logical about when and what I eat. But when I have the complusion it doesn't matter what else I do, I will not stop thinking about anything else until I eat whatever it is I have on my mind.  Those impluses and the complusive ideas never consist of a big salad with no dressing.   It's always junk. So I logically know that it will happen again, it is obviously a huge habit that I need desperately to break if I really want to lose weight. I am going to have to learn to really "sit" with my feeling and do something else when I have an impluse. This probably the biggest thing I need to work on. If I can start a new habit of not eating during these times I might actually suceed in my effort.  I assume this will be like a broken record for a while I am trying to overcome this terrible habit.

Today I took the day off from exercising and I ate ok. I little too much snacking but I did stay away from the ice cream like I promised myself. I am going to try to work out tomorrow, but I have two sick kids so I am not sure what I will be able to get done.

Could have done better

On the better part of my day, I worked out and I felt good about it.  But I still am struggling with my snacking. I feel like a broken record. I have given myself a little break about the snacking. I will get back into the routine of working out and next week I will cut out the snacking- or atleast make sure it is a healthy snack. Tomorrow is my WI but I doubt I will see much of a change. But I am sure I won't see a gain, so that is a good thing! Small steps are the key right? Expecting to lose 10 pounds only leads to disappoinment and then giving up altogether out of frustration. I just have to keep reminding myself that slow and steady wins the race.