So I took my mum to the surgeon's on Monday, and it looks like she may have to have surgery. We are going to try to put it off as long as possible to see if she can recover and go into remission. She is staying on antibiotics and going back in a month for a final decision.
I ended up bringing her home with me, and having dinner with hubby and son. So because of this fun filled day I didn't go to my TOPS meeting and weigh in. I weighed myself last night on my home scale and it said 207. My weight in the morning has been a pretty consistent 205. Basically for the last few weeks I have been eating ok, but not great. It's been a maintenance diet more than anything.
I am going to my meeting this coming Monday, and I hope to have gone down a total of 3 pound by then. I will have been away for 3 weeks, and I'd like to have a 3 lb loss to show for it. I've not much else to say, do I guess I'll go check out everyone's blogs. It seems like alot of people have been on vacation lately, so it doesn't take to long for me to catch up. :)
Weigh in is tomorrow and I've had a bad weekend. My friends 29th b-day on Friday. Then out for a games night at a friends house Saturday where I scarfed down loads of chips, a piece of pie, chocolate almonds, crackers and cheese, brandy chocolates, etc... I am overloaded with carbs and salt. My weigh in is tomorrow, so things are not looking good. Before this weekend my home scale had me down about 2 lbs, we'll see if this weight will stay on until then. If it does I'll be up a lb or two for weigh in instead of down.
Tomorrow I'm taking my mum to the surgeons for a consult. We'll see the results of all her tests, and find out if she needs surgery. I'm going in with my mum because she is hopeless with relaying information to me. She is also a worrier to the nth degree and will think the worst if things aren't relayed to her properly. Like when she told me she had a problem with her gall bladder when she actually had a bladder infection. *sigh*
Lately my joys have included realizing how dirty my house is after I've seen the state of my son's clothes after crawling about for half an hour. I'm also terrified he's going to find a dead spider or something and start eating it. I need someone to babysit him for a day, so I can clean and babyproof my freaking house.
Well I haven't really been that great so far. I've gotten exercise every day, 3 hours walking yesterday, and I was eating reasonably well, until I met a pound cake today.
I think I'm down anyway despite that. My body may have been rebelling for all the exercise I'm making her do, without feeding her. Without realizing it, I had the piece of cake in my hand and had just taken a bite. Talk about unmindful eating! It was like when you walk in the kitchen and forget why you went there. I walked in the kitchen thinking I wanted a piece of cake, decided I would have water instead, then cut a piece of cake and took a bite on autopilot. Anyway, my weigh in would normally be on Monday, but since it is a long weekend, we are skipping a week. I'm trying to remain firm despite "having a week off" and aside from today things appear to be going well. My peaches and bananas started to go bad, I guess I bought too many. I cut them all up washed them and put them in a freezer bag. They'll be great for smoothies that way.
I added a new picture of me and my son that my hubby took today. We were on our way to my co-workers baby shower, and I wanted a picture because we looked so nice.
Anyway, I did okay at the baby shower. I had one plate of food; pasta salad, bean salad, meatballs (3), veggies and dip and multigrain tortilla chips and dip. Then I had some things from the dessert table. A raisin cookie, two chocolate chip cookies and an almond tart. there were lots of other things but I stuck to those desserts I knew were worth the cheat.
I'm making honey garlic chicken breast, corn on the cob and one potato (for my hubby) for dinner. It should be done shortly so I'm off.
I just got back from my meeting, and I managed to correct my damage. I am down 0.6 lbs. Something interesting happened tonight. I've been getting kinda down about the fact that my weight loss has seemed nonexistent. I keep losing parts of pounds, like this week. But after I had finished weighing in, the WI lady said "So, that makes 3 lbs for July." I realized that it is making a difference even if it is very slow. Obviously I want to lose more per week than I have been doing, but if I'm honest with myself I know I haven't been doing the work to get those kinds of results. I went grocery shopping today, so once again I have healthy foods in the house, and I have a renewed motivation to exercise. I walked 2.5 miles on Sunday, and I even ran for parts of it.
My original goal was to lose all of my weight before I go back to work on December 3rd. I'm not 100% sure I will be able to reach that goal, but if I want to I'm going to need to try harder than I have been. I have 18 weeks to lose 40 lbs, that's about 2 lbs a week. It is possible if I put my mind to it. Realistically though I would be happy to be around 180 by then. I'm going in to work tomorrow for a surprise baby shower for a coworker. I think the last time I went in was about 10 lbs ago, so I'm wondering if anyone will notice. I'm going to wear a new dress I bought on sale for 14.99, that I really like. I already have the outfit picked out for my son, and it's super cute. Khakis and a golf shirt on a 9 month old. :) I'm going to have to stay on my game though, because it's a pot luck lunch. I haven't decided what to bring either, I'm going to have a look around my kitchen and see what I can make, maybe a bean salad.
Now, off to read some blogs. I hope all of you have had a good Monday. :)
Ugh, I've gone on a bit of a bender the last two days. It started when my mom gave me a dozen hermit cookies. They are probably my favourite cookies, and I brought them home. Then hubby and I rented some movies and he got a big bag of ruffled chips. I bought myself a small bag of flavoured chips, and then also bought dip, for his plain ones.
So over the last two days I've eaten 7 of the cookies, my small bag of chips, half the large bag of chips, and almost all of the dip. This was in addition to regular meals. I just know I'm going to be super bloated tomorrow. Like I couldn't have guessed. I don't know why I do this to myself. I haven't even really gotten any exercise either. Other than two 20 minute walks.
Weigh in is Monday, so I have two days to fix this.
To keep me motivated, I am going to keep track, and post my 65 Reasons to lose 65 lbs.
I want to weigh less than my husband. I know that numbers are arbitrary, but in this one thing it still matters to me. I don't need or want to weigh 125 lbs, be a size two, or anything like that. I just want to weigh less than my husband. Maybe I'm old fashioned that way, I don't know. Part of me has always liked men that make me feel small, pretty and feminine. Even though I'm an independent self-supporting woman.
I've only ever been attracted to men taller than me (I'm 5'9")I went out with a guy that ended up being so completely wrong for me, because he was a big strong guy who made me feel attractive. He was even able to pick me up. That had never ever happened to me before.
So I want to lose my weight so I can feel feminine again next to my 5'11", 185 lb hubby.
So I went to my meeting tonight, and I was down 0.4 lbs. Again it was a small loss, but I suppose as long as the scale keeps going down, I can't complain. I did actually eat dinner before going tonight, which I don't normally do.
To keep me motivated, I am going to keep track, and post my 65 Reasons to lose 65 lbs.
I want to be a good example to my son.I was watching Oprah today, she had Dr. Oz on as a quest and it was a pretty good show. I just finished reading You: On a Diet, so it was a reinforcement of what I had just read. They were talking about the growing obesity epidemic, in adults as well as children.
I've realized lately that more than me losing weight for myself, I want to do it for my son. I want to raise my kids like I was raised. Where pop and chips are for a treat once a week, if that. Where you eat fruit every day, and salad is not a foreign substance. My friends all seem to be holding their tongues, like they think I'm weird when I tell them I don't plan on feeding my son treats (like they do). There is no deprivation involved for me to say that my son isn't having fast food on a regular basis or packing twinkies in his lunch every day. Our grandparents survived without twinkies, and they were alot more active, and without all of the energy saving devices we have today.
The problem is that I need to make sure that healthy eating is an ingrained lifestyle for me, in order to ingrain it into my children. I have to drag my husband along for the ride too. He likes his treats even more than I do! It is getting easier though. I suppose that's what matters
To keep me motivated, I am going to keep track, and post my 65 Reasons to lose 65 lbs.
I want to buy my bras in a regular store, not a specialty shop. I have had to buy my last few bras in specialty stores because of my large size. I can't even buy them in the Plus size clothing stores, because they don't carry my size either. I have a very large cup, but a not very large band size. I am naturally large chested, it runs in my family, I was a D cup in grade 9. I am not looking for a miracle, I just want to lose some weight in the chest. That more than anything makes me look larger than life.
So I took my mom home from the hospital today. She's going back in 2 weeks for a follow up colonoscopy. Apparently she had a bladder infection, has Crohn's disease and a perforation in her intestines. They say she is healing really well, which is why she is coming home. When she goes back in 2 weeks, if the perforation hasn't healed itself (which it appears to be doing) they will be booking her for surgery .
Such a busy day. I left my son at home with hubby, since he had the day off work. Then I brought my mom's dog home, went shopping for her, tidied up, changed cat litter, picked her up at the hospital, and proceeded to lock my keys in the car when we got to her house. But I called a tow truck, and they came and unlocked me 15 minutes and $60 later. Then a very late lunch and home again, home again, Jiggety jig. :)
I just spent the last hour trying to get my son to sleep. His nose is all stuffed up, it's the only part of his cold that's lingering. So he kept falling asleep, and then waking up a minute later crying because he can't breathe. It was really frustrating. Finally he was able to fall asleep on his side and that seemed to help. I wish I could just get him to blow his nose!
Anyway, eating was a bit off track today, but only in volume. I made healthy choices, and I'm pretty happy with it after all. I didn't get any exercise, other than the 20 minutes of walking back and forth to the free parking spot I snagged near the hospital. The prices they charge for parking are extortion! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. If Ryan's feeling better I'm actually going to take him out to a baby & Me playgroup. We haven't gone to any of our regular activities for a week.
