I feel like I have a lot to talk about right now. A lot of issues that I am dealing with. I am having one of those weeks, where other things are going on... so I haven't even gone to Jenny to get my food for the week, so needless to say the Pizza store delivered right to my door! Funny how convenient that is.
I was walking into Walmart this weekend and I got the dirtiest look from this woman. I had my sunglasses on, so I don't think she saw that I could see her face. She just had this look of disgust on her face. Like how dare I even exist. I tried for a brief moment to ignore her, maybe she was having a bad day. Maybe she was thinking about something esle (like calculus or algebraic equations), but then I saw it... the glance at my stomach! The look of utter disgust! You see I live in an area that is obsessed with looks and outward appearances. Women here are colored with fake tan, and fake boobs, and fake smiles with fake white painted on their teeth, flashing thier fake jewelry. There hardly seem to be any real people with substance. I know that I am over generalizing, and I don't really mean to... but come on people... really!!!
The other thing I was thinking about recently as how it seems to be okay to make fun of "fat" people on the radio. It seems that every station I turn to, there is some comment about being overweight. The other day, I was listening to a station that was saying we should outlaw plus-sized clothing stores. That there was a mall in Oakhurst Illinois that was denying Lane Bryant to come in to the mall. I was all up in arms, and the radio personality was saying we should ban plus sized clothing all together, because then we would all have to lose weight. Why is it that being large, or dare I say FAT, is still something that can be made fun of? Why? I am a person too... with intelligence, and feelings. Why can't people see beyond the layer of excess weight that I carry around?
Ok, I am now stepping off of my soap box. Tomorrow is a new day and one that does not have any mistakes yet. Wish me well... and I hope that all of you are where you want to be in your programs.
Did you miss me? Well I am back, and a little worse for the wear! I had great plans to stick to the program, including calling ahead for hours to the loacl Jenny... which I was told that they were open until 5. Well, WRONG!!! When we got their, just after 2, it turns out that they were only open unitl 1, and were closed on Sundays! I guess this is one of the drawbacks to doing a program that you have to purchase the food from them! By the time Monday rolled around, there was no point and going to get the food... I had already blown it! I know what you are thinking... but that is truly how I felt. I didn't weigh in either last week... it seems that the holiday really screwed up my schedule both for the program and my everyday life. I did go to the center near home yesterday, and have jhumped back on the wagon.
I have a weigh-in on Wednesday (which I am not going to miss) and will take it like a wo-MAN!!! I know my choices could have been better, and I deserve what I get... needless to say I have not stepped on a scale at home either! But this time is different, remember how I said that earlier. I believe it to... life happens. You pick yourself off, dust off your clothes and move on. This little hiccup in my ever so long journey will not effect my outcome. I am not going to let it get the better of me... I am in for the long haul!
So, with that said, wish me luck in continuing my journey, and not letting this stand in my way! I am in it to win it!!!
Hope everyone is on plan and doing well... talk to you soon. Oh yeah, I have been 100% on plan all day... tomorrow is a new one, yeah!!!
Ok, so week one was a succsess. Now I am on to week 2 and we have this holiday thrown smack dab in the middle and we are taking a road trip. I am driving with my family up to the bay area to visit with family and friends, and I am slightly in panic mode. Doing the program at home in the comfort of my surroundings is one thing, but to actually take it on the road when I am fresh out the gate is a little daunting. I have made plans though to stop at the JC up there in Mountain View and pick up some food (I can't travel with all of the JC food, because some is frozen). My only positive thought on this is that if I can do a medically supervised fasting program on a car-trip vacation to Washington DC, Toronto, Canada, Buffalo, NY and Hartford, CT and stay 100% on program the entire time (including packing a blender and all of those silly powder packets), then I think I will be okay!
Anyway, wish me luck, keep your fingers crossed, and have a wonderful 4th weekend!
I just had to report that my first week weigh-in was great!!! I lost a whopping 5.6 pounds! What amazes me, is that I was eating the whole time... upwards of 2000 calories a day. I can't imagine the number of calories that I was consuming before JC! I feel great, and I am in it for the long haul. Remind me that I said that when I hit a platueau! :)
Now I just have to get my body moving and shaking. That will come over time I guess, but no time like the present.
Hope everyone's week is going well. Talk to you all soon!
Today was a pretty good day. I am still so impressed with the food that Jenny Craig offers. I had the Beef Chow Mein for lunch and the Turkey with Gravy for dinner. I was impressed, and in case I haven't mentioned it before... I am picky!!! Really picky!!!
I just realized that I have not said too much about myself, so here goes... I am 32, and have been married for almost 9 years. We have an adorable 5 year old boy (I am a little biased though). I, like most of us on here, have begun a journey to a healthier me. I am tired of being overweight, which I have been for as long as I can remember. In fact, my family used to bribe me to lose weight as a child with clothes and money, etc. I was put on my first diet when I was about 8, and lost 20 lbs. Looking back now, I think my weight problem has become a self-fulfilling prophecy... I was told that I was fat for so long, that I just became fat. In high school I was larger than the other girls, but I still participated in gymnastics and dance... I musn't have been too fat for that? Yet, I have always been told that I was.
A couple of years ago I did a medically supervised weightloss program called HMR! It was fantastic (still think so in fact). I lost over 100 lbs. I had to stop the program prematurely due to emergency gall bladder surgery and then got pregnant before going back on it. Needless to say, all of the weight, plus some has come back on. HMR was great, and I learned alot... I would have gone back on that program, but it is simply too much money. So, Jenny it is!!! Plus, I think I will be able to practice what I learn in this program as I go.
I decided that now is the time... I am not getting any younger, and I am still in relatively decent health. Why wait until I am in a desperate situation? Now is the key. Plus, I want to show healthy eating habits to my son so that he never has to worry about being the "fat" kid. And, I don't want other kids to make fun of him for having the "fat" mom.
So this is for him, and for my husband (poop-head that he is I still love him) and mostly for me... Here's to a new me!
I was thinking today about support. I was reading some blogs and it just got me thinking. When I signed up for Jenny Craig, the consultant asked me about a support system. She said that it seems I have a husband who is really supportive. And overall I guess I do, but not when it comes to losing weight. I know he loves me, and supports me, but I think that he is worried about my weight and is tired of me doing program after program only to have the weight come back on. Early in our marriage, I was still in school, and was taking a psychology class. One of the chapters dealt with statistics on weightloss, and it pretty much said that as we age, the statistics prove that we not only have a hard time getting weight off, but that the chances are good that we are going to gain if we already have a problem. Anyway, I was thinking, I am not going to be that statistic... but here I am 7 years later, and about 25 to 30 pounds heavier after having lost and gained over 170 pounds during that same time. He doesn't have a weight problem, and doesn't understand, so he can't possibly be as supportive as I need.
It is not his fault, he just doesn't get it... but friends, they are different. Maybe it is that they are female? Or like us in more ways than one... but I am so thankful for my friends. I feel that I wouldn't be able to do this without the support of my friends. And, I am finding that I am making some great new friends on this very website, that I can take the journey with and help through this struggle we call weight loss. I look forward to meeting you all and exchanging tips and ideas, and more importantly inspiration and motivation with our programs!
I am sitting here looking at the menu and thinking about all of the food that I have been eating. All of it totally on the program... but it just seems like a lot. Also, I am a really picky eater. For those of you that do not know me, this is not an exaggeration. In fact, it might be the understatement of the day! Anyway, I have been really impressed with the food, and my willingness to try new things. Certainly the latter is not my forte. But, as Kirstie says in the new People magazine, if I can do it, anyone can do it. The question though is can I do it? Since I am still within my first week I have no frame of reference. No weightloss as of yet nor week 1 under my belt as a basis to judge my impending success.
My questions are:
Has anyone else felt that they were eating too much?
Has anyone not lost weight in the first week?
Have you weighed yourself between weigh-ins? If so, is that a bad thing to do?
I have done that in the past on other programs. I have a tendency to weigh myself too often. Believe it or not, that is a problem. So I have restrained myself and not even glanced at the scale... and I am so scared that I am not losing.
Ok, enough of my ranting about not losing... it has only been 4 days! On a positive note, I went for a swim today. I really like swimming, but am usually too embarassed to go out and actually do it. Once I am in the pool I don't really care, but it is the getting out that bothers me.
Hope everyone is doing great and that your programs are working... take care!
Thanks for joining me in my journey to a new me. Here I am on day 3 of Jenny Craig. I have done every other program known to man and have become a yo-yo dieter. I don't mean a couple of pounds here or there, I mean large amounts of weight off and then coming back on. As an example, last May I started a medically supervised weight loss program (essentially protein-type shakes) and lost 70 pounds. I stopped the program toward the end of October and have been working very steadily to gain it back. So in a year, I have lost and gained 70 pounds. What is up with that? This has got to stop!
When I started Jenny (which, by the way, is the first time I have ever done this program) I was asked why this time or this program was going to be any different? Here are my reasons:
1. I have made a commitment for my health. One that involves not only food changes, but lifestyle as well. Excercise will become my middle name. My goal is to finish the program so that I can benefit from a real maintenance program.
2. A very good friend of mine will be taking this journey with me. She started a few months back and has done fantastically. We have a similar amount to lose and can understand the struggle together. It is always great to have a stable support system in place! (check out her page at celticdreams.extrapounds.com)
3. Well, I think the upper two are enough for now!!! :)
So here goes, wish me luck. Check back often to find out tips and tricks that I have learned along the way - and to check my progress. I will add pictures as I can. Best of luck to all of you in your weightloss endeavors, and remember... I am here for you too!
