12/03/2006 17:17
start
So a quick update. Today im back on the rutein and i believe im ready to end my little "splugish" break. My goal is to finish the holidays with fun but sensibly..something that didn't happen this thanksgiving break!haha. I guess time will only tell from now and i know if i put my heart and self to it i can finish my goal eventually.
In other news, the countdown begins! 12 more days until my vacations and i get to be with my sweetheart. Things have been going amazing lately and i coden't ask for anything better. Unfortunaltly i dont have time for a huge post i have to finish cleaning
and running my errands.
Note to self- i need to start doing the weights more often and not just my workout...
goodluck!
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11/29/2006 18:36
holidays
Time for a post ill say. Lots on my mind lately.. I love the holidays, the vibe just everything; except the extra pounds it leaves me with! I have come far in my mind and i guess right now im just happy with stable for now. I want to lose weight and reach my goal for my set date..but want and being ready for something are two completly opposite things. Im not ready to lose weight..i have enjoyed letting myself eat what I WANT lately..sensibly but not enough to still lose. Im only going to keep loseing once im really ready and im fine with my plateu right now. Hopefully ill start getting back on track by Monday..when im ready. I just need to learn self control because its so hard with me. I also need to work on my water intake, i just cant force water in me but i most def am not getting a healthy amount in my every day rutein. I need to get back on with my work outs, and diet..but it was nice having this little break. And im okay with the two pound gain. This is an up and down journey. I got this. :D
Anyways..in other news. So much has been going through my head about me and my girl. I have been dating my girlfriend for two and half years and let me tell you it has been a battle (ups and downs goods and bads; all relationships are) just like our weightloss journey. I guess i just want to kind of ramble about it becasue shes been on my mind so much lately. We live a state away and it makes things so difficult, and even though its only temporary it can be the most painful thing having to constantly be taken away from your single most important love, and i know thats one of the main reasons times have been hard lately. Things are looking up and i coden't be happier; true love always finds its way. I guess through this mess i call a blog i just want to express to her how much i love her, how she means the entire world to me, how i would do anything for her in an instant. Shes my other half, my heartbeat, my soulmate. I want her to know how proud of her i am..of her own weightloss journey because all i want for her is to be healthy and happy, for work, school, and everything she persues. I know that i havent always been there and im sorry it was just hard for me to express myself at that time. Your put a smile on my face tex..your an amazing beautiful miracle.
I guess in a way i can relate this with weightloss..you wont get anywhere in a relationship if you dont try; same with your health. I know this. Im commited to you babe, and ill be faithful always because i know in my heart baby, your who i want to be with until the end of time. I love you.
good luck to everybody
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11/08/2006 19:49
forever
I haven't updated in forever! It's just so hard now that i have a ton of things filling up my day and depending on me; but let me have you know that this shouldn't be an issue much longer as i promise to keep up with this.
I dont have much time right now for much of an update because i have to jet on out of here but i got to get this problem out of my system that has been bothering me lately. I have hit that point again where as you know ive lost 30 pounds im not loseing anymore, and haven't for awhile. I have to admit since with all the halloween and vacationing i could be eating a tad better but nothing is happening. Ive stayed the same no matter what i do and it's driving me absoultly crazy! Now that basketball has started up with my conditoning and reg practices im getting my ass beat and gaining so much muscle. I feel 180 years old having to squat and take five minutes to sit down. One thing i learned about shape is that you maybe be in shape but not in all forms. For example, i am really good about working out, i do it almost everyday (gym wise) but im not much of a runner i perfer the eliptical or fast pace walking on incline with the tredmile; with basketball we do fast pace running or sprinting drills or scrimmage for two hours straight and boy let me tell you if you havent practiced that no eliptical will put you in shape. I died and its kicking my butt on the court, even though im not even close to the being the last person done with the task it still makes me feel completly dead compared to one of the other girls Janessa who did Cross Country before hand and is flying through these. It just amazed me how you can be in shape different ways?? But the coaches abuses their privillage and you would be shocked if you came to our practices i mean two hours or sprints with very frew exceptions. Crazy.
Anyways im kind of rambling and talking about a million things but i want to to lose about 15 more pounds and i just seem to be getting no where, even when i seem to eat right. The muscle contribuation might have something to do with the little once gains but i just really need to buckle down and get some progress. Hop it's just because i haven't cracked down on eating only 1200 calories but at times that just seems so little, if not i gain..what can you do?
This entry might be a little disfunctional since i wrote it speedy fast to get on out of here but theirs my thoughts in a jumble!
Good luck to all!
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10/14/2006 14:47
A begining
Alrighty, like i promised i am once again back and have done some editing and getting to know my journal yesterday. I am currently on vaca so as soon as i return home(tomorrow) ill post some pictures and the do the works. Before i start my little story i just want to say ill be on this journey my whole life considering its a life long commitment to want to stay and keep healthy, but atleast ill be on extrapounds for awhile until i get these excess, ugly, unwanted pounds off..so.. some company wouldn't hurt!
From what i can remember i have almost always been a big girl(in my eyes atleast). Ever since elementary school begun is when i just seemed to gain, gain and gain. I can remember how i loved school food because i could indulge in anything i wanted to without anyone having a say in it; from greesy pizza to candy bars and cookies everyday, i saw nothing wrong in any of it because well who see's that in elementary school? I started to become not necessary concered but curious about my weight when i got several grades older but never serious about wanted to have weight loss until highschool. I would always say i am on a "diet" then go to Mcdonalds and say okay okay ill just start tomorrow..and i did that everyday until i just couldn't take it anymore. You'll find that im probally a real youngin (highschooler)to this website compared to some of you but i have a good head on my shoulders and have just as much or more to say as everyone else. Ive always been very well thought out and mature beyond my age to some extent, but thats a whole different ball park. Going back to what i was saying, ive always been a really active kid playing sports is a passion. How could i still be heavy with being so active and involved? OVEREATING i always over-ate, never once counted a calorie until last year..so i guess the food made up for it. I was just a big athlete. You may think 185 wasent entirly a lot but at a height of 5'3..you kind of get the idea? It drives me crazy how shorter people have to usually weigh less than someone the same weight but taller because of course the taller person NEEDS that weight and has a necessary place to store it; they need more energy. When your short it just kinda lays there lol on me atleast. Ive come a long way in my mind from that point in my life, and instead of just saying i was going to change i did. It's taken awhile but its been worth it and now im 149 :D. Ill be satisfied and a good healthy weight for my height and myself at 130. These last 19 pounds seem like they are the hardiest to take off and ive been staying the same for a great time..im having the temptations of a dieter. Since ive been on vaca ive just been eating and ill start to count calories in the begining of the day and then just blow it off with going out at night. I usually exercise atleast everyday but with my exception one day off if im swomped with work and what not and being here on vacation i have barley exercised like normal. Im lucky it hasent affected me a great deal but it still added something this is just not me. One thing you'll find about me is that i have no self control what so ever..boy i need to get back on track, i can do it! So im here to share the rest of my 19 pound journey with you all and hopefully with some help and a dedicated me i can do it. Another thing ive been also really noticing is how when i do count my calories i wont go over my 1200 boundary but i wont fill my 1200 boundary with the best foods that my body needs. I need to set some goals but in a later entry. I say 1200 and yes a lot of the times i am still very hungry with only that many calories but with a height of 5'3 when i go over just the tinest of 100 ill find myself to either gain temporary weight or not lose weight at all. Any advice? Ill better stop this extreamly long post but if you read it your amazing!
Much love
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10/13/2006 18:07
Give it a try
So i made an account way too long ago but ive decided it be time
for me to actually use it; atleast give it a try!
I still have to figure out how these nifty settings work and all but ill get the hang of it. So ill leave this entry plain and simple until i get things going smooothy and then ill be back!
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