computer
So as soon as i want to start checking up and blogging again my computer completly crashes..lucky? I know! Haha anyways after i just got that little dilemma figured out. So as i type i feel like i want to puke, have a painful headache and yet to still workout; let's just say this has not been my day. So with the weight loss rollercoaster things have been frustrating for me lately after i got back to California i had packed on a few pounds but to make a long story short i took those off pretty quick worked my butt off, which seemed like a lot for me but pretty little in literal terms but i am now 147. My body is such a mystery and it aggravates me i will never understand my body. I see a lot of people losing weight every week a pound or more and its taking me like 2 weeks just to lose a pound and im so happy to just still be maintaing. To lose that pound i was excericing burning about 300 excess calories from 400 to in the range of (500/600/700)then usual and eating RIGHT on my caloric intake for the day-1200-. I have a lot going on and its really tough for me to always burn that much extra calories and i have been hearing that im working my body too much but i have seen that as soon as i have my weekly splurge day or just a splurge i gained that pound right back. I just dont know what to do and i want to give up. I have a place i now go into weight weekly so it gives me something to hold up to other then myself and im just ready to see results..i want to know why my work isent paying off but im pround of that pound i suppose! Other then that i have been constantly busy with school school school and working things with my girl. I wish i could say things are now better but unfortunatly things arent always what you want--of course
. I love that girl and i wont give up on her ever but its just i have my problems and my busy schedule but im trying and putting so much into the realationship because i know this is what i want and that with anything in life, you have to work hard for things and that things arent always easy. But as soon as im not looking shes behind my back doing things she knows hurts me and promises not too like im not even real. I know realationships are hard but theres a difference between TRYING to try and just saying your going to try and absolutly not trying. Never making time to talk to me when she knows she can. I understand she has a life too and things to do but i mean not even five concecutive minutes. Long distance realationships are hard but i see so many other people do it and i just its up to her. Were so perfect when were physically together but i say you dont deserve that until you can master being away. So much but im so over talking about it.
Once i offically get my computer totally fixed ill be back to finish checking up!!!