I'm so sorry that I have been gone. This past month has been a roller coaster ride. I guess I should start from the beginning.
On August 25th, we found out that S was leaving for boot camp three months early--he was leaving September 8th. We weren't expecting this. It threw us for a complete loop. I felt like my world was shattered. I didn't know what I was going to do without him. So, instead of focusing on eating healthy, we splurged on all his favorite restaurants and foods.
On September 3rd, we went to Tennessee. He PROPOSED to me in Cades Cove (my favorite place in Tennessee)! It was wonderful!!!
On September 8th, I saw my FIANCE for the last time for three months. I will not get to see or speak to him until December 3rd. I am currently waiting for my first letter. It's been a week today!!! I'm hoping to get it tomorrow!
So, since I am now ENGAGED, I'd better LOSE WEIGHT. I promised S I would lose 30lbs by December 3rd. It motivates me to get to see him skinnier! He will be so happy.
I'll keep up with you all every day to let you know how my journey is going. I'm going to be counting calories eaten and burned. I have bought a Polar HRM F6 to calculate how many calories I burn while working out. I also bought a new scale today. Starting tomorrow, I will be logging my weight daily.
I look forward to 30lbs in the next 3 months with you all!!!
Seriously. Girls, I don't know what I would do without you all.
Every few hours my BlackBerry would buzz and it would be a comment one of you left of my blogs about my high school drama. I sincerely appreciate the support all of you have given me. I REALLY needed it. I almost overate and didn't go to Curves or the gym. But you all SAVED me. I stayed OP yesterday thanks to all of you!
Well, once DBF caught wind of what she said... that was it. He was cursing up a storm and making all kinds of phone calls. He's still livid this morning. In fact, I've never seen him so angry. He certainly has never been angry at me. I know that justice will be served through the eyes of the Lord.
In other news, it's a good day. I'm wearing these super sexy 5 1/2 inch heels I bought from Victoria's Secret. They are SO CUTE and SO HOT. They make my legs look good. I just love them.
I woke up in enough time to do my make up and fix DBF his favorite breakfast- orange rolls (think cinnamon rolls from Pilsbury, but with orange topping). He took FOUR with him to work!!! That's almost 1,00 calories just for breakfast. LOL. I had oatmeal and a cup of black coffee. I left the rest of the orange rolls for him tomorrow.
Salad for lunch and then Omaha Steaks with potatoes for dinner. Yum!!!!
I just got a FB message from someone who works with DBF. Apparently
some girl is going around telling everyone that I'm a fat cow and the
only reason DBF is going out with me is because he was drunk and
desperate.
Here's the message:
Today at 3:53pm
You
will not believe this crap....ok so I guess you heard Sasha got fired
from the bank not only for showing pictures of herself in the bank
vault on her facebook pictures and talking smack about people and their
accounts but when I was talking to one of the girls that works there
sometimes she was telling Kimberly and me not only about all this dumb
immature crap she was talking about me but was talking about you as
well, saying how you are a fat cow and the only reason you got Stephen
is because he was desperate and drunk....um ok I know that she is
looking for a job now and I heard Valtrex is looking for new faces for
their new commercial lol!!!!! She is a piece of crap and will get whats
coming to her because even tho we don't talk as much you still don't
talk shit about my family and think there is not going to be
consequences....yea I know I am sounding high school but IDC anymore
she has started war with me. Anyway hope you are doing good and i hope
to see you soon.
For those of you who haven't been here a while... DBF is GORGEOUS. I seriously pinch myself when I look at him.
We've been together happily for six months. I know this isn't true, so
why does it hurt so much? I don't understand why people say such
hateful things.
Here's my response to her:
Today at 4:39pm I didn't know that Sasha had gotten fired from the bank, though I did not that it was a long time coming.
I
always knew that she was talking about me at the bank. It doesn't
really bother me. I can get rid of my excess weight, but she cannot get
rid of her problems. As for Stephen dating me when he was drunk and
desperate, I know for a fact he was neither. She's just upset because
he never would date her, nor will anyone else. He's had plenty of
opportunities (drunk and sober) to hook up and has chosen not to.
I wouldn't worry about it too much. Just be thankful you don't have to work with her anymore.
Also,
next time, perhaps you could leave out the details of what people have
said. I don't need to know them and it doesn't sound good on your part
for telling me them.
I'm in and out of Athens once or twice a month, usually around the second weekend. Just let me know when you want to hang out.
XOXO
I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm not going to let this get to me.
Day 11 OP. Woo hoo! It's becoming more and more natural now.
It's an incredibly slow day at work. I am SO BORED. And of course, that always makes me want to eat. I have another 4 1/2 hours here. Blah. And I'll I have left for food until dinner is apple slices and a banana. I can make it last. I just had lunch (fish and white rice), so I'm satisfied right now.
Curves and the elliptical tonight. They're my best friends (well, besides DBF of course!).
Oh, and I sneaked a peek at the scale this morning. It said I was in the 227s. I think it lied. I'm sure I'm more; I haven't already lost over 2 more pounds. I still have another 5 days until WI.
Shut your mouth, lying scale. I won't be bad because the numbers are already good.
Seriously. I'm doing terrific and feeling terrific.Nothing is going to stand in my way!
This morning, I was offered leftover sandwiches from a meeting. I politely declined. I do not know what is in those sandwiches, how many points the bread is, or how much mayo is on it. Thank you, but no.
THEN-->
This afternoon, I was offered a doughnut. By SEVERAL people. We have a specialty doughnut shop next door called Sublime Doughnuts. The guy makes your doughnuts to order, and they are PHENOMENAL. I used to order two at a time.Yes.
I politely declined every person who asked me. Take that stupid weight! Hah!
I'm going to Curves after work today. I brought my gym clothes with me. And then it's to the apartment gym to do the elliptical for 20 minutes. I didn't get a chance to go last night because of grocery shopping. I may hop on the treadmill for a 30 minute walk after the elliptical depending upon how crowded the gym is.
DBF and I are planning on going to be early tonight. We haven't been getting enough sleep. So, it's Curves, elliptical/treadmill, shower, dinner, bed. Sounds simple.
Last night we had Publix brand frozen pepperoni pizza. It was the $0.01 item. I had once slice and DBF had the rest. SO BAD FOR YOU! But, it was enough to keep me full. I finished it off with a yummy bowl of cereal. LOL. Weird, I know. Tonight we're having Chicken Cordon Bleu, with mashed Yukon Gold potatoes, and broccoli with cheese. I may also have a side salad (we'll see).
Oh hell yes, I did it. I lost 4.6 pounds. Take that vacation.Take that TOM.Hah!
Seriously. I am SO PROUD of myself. I worked SO HARD and I definitely deserve this. By the way, today is:
Day 8 OP!
I stayed on Points (Weight Watchers point system) all week last week, which just goes to show that if you work the plan, it will work for you! I even had four glasses of wine, steak, macaroni and cheese, and ate out three times. Better choices and better portion control are key.
Okay, now off the high horse.
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This week shouldn't be too bad for food or for exercising. I'm going to try my best to work out at Curves tonight and go to the elliptical, but I do have to go to the grocery store (several different ones). Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday, I'll definitely be at Curves and workout on the elliptical.I'm going to up my elliptical cardio session to 20 minutes (2 more minutes more than last week's sessions). Fun, fun. LOL.
I'll be having dinner at DBF's family on Friday night and then we're going out with DBF's family and extended family on Saturday afternoon for his brother's birthday. I'll make good choices. I've realized being OP for this many days in a row, is thatit gets easier and easier to make good choices.If I come across something that I want, but I don't have points for it, I tell myself tomorrow is another day and I can eat it then. More often than not, I don't want it the next day. It's a good feeling. Very in control.
Oooo! One more thing. Have you had the Fiber One Muffins? They're boxed mixes in the normal muffin area of your grocery store. SO GOOD. DBF HATES with a passion anything promoted as having extra fiber. I don't know why; he's weird. So, I get up Sunday and make the mix. He comes over while the first 6 are baking and starts tasting the mix. He goes on and on about how good the batter is. I laugh and show him the box. He tells me I've ruined it for him and they are going to taste bad. The box makes 12. He had 8. Oh gracious! He loves them and so do I!
Off to read how your weekends were! Have a skinny day!
I'm totally hating work right now. I've have to cover the front desk all day today. I have another 4 1/2 hours to go. UGH. Double ugh. I get so bored up here. I'm supposed to welcome people and and buzz people into the building. EVERYONE needs to be buzzed in. I'm so tired of pushing the damn button.STOP forgetting your badge.
On top of that, I'm switching over my frugal finances website to a new host (which I've never done before). I wouldn't be doing this except it is hosted now by ex-DBF's friends. That obviously isn't going to work. I'm waiting on the registry transfer to be approved an its taking forever! I'm also very sure I did something wrong and now it's not going to get approved. Then I'll start the process all over again. BLAH.
In other non- "venty" news, diet and exercise are going swell.
Day 4 OP.
I stayed OP yesterday and got my water in. The chicken cacciatore I cooked was phenomenal. SO FREAKING good. I also had it for lunch today. Did I mention it was good? LOL. I also did 18 minutes on the elliptical after 30 minutes at Curves. The exercise plan is the same for today.
I got on the scale for a "mid week sneek peak" this morning... Good, good, good. It was showing in the high 220s. I'm hoping at least for a 3 pounds loss. I've worked hard for it. Now just to stay on points this weekend... Do it. Do it. Do it.
We're going to Stone Mountain tomorrow night to watch the laser show. I LOVE the laser show at Stone Mountain. It's so pretty and romantic. I'm thinking I'll bring sandwiches/wraps with chips and a salad. DBF says he's going to throw back a few beers. LOL. I'll take a pass.
Then the rest of the weekend, I'm cleaning and organizing the apartment. I'm still not finished unpacking all my boxes after moving two months ago. I need a neat and clean apartment to start back school with on the 17th. Plus, when my environment is neat and planned, so is my eating.I'm looking forward to all this cleaning.
I told you I was trying harder this week. Last night after I made my point friendly dinner, I made today's lunch and prepped today's dinner. It felt good waking up knowing that my plans were already set in motion. I think I'm going to do that every day. This way I can't conveniently (or not so conveniently) forget my lunch and have to splurge/binge out somewhere AND I can't make up excuses to eat unhealthy for dinner.
For lunch: Salad with mushrooms, radishes, onions, raisins, cheese, tuna, and a light three cheese ranch salad dressing. YUMMY! Seriously. I've been craving it all day! I'm enjoying it slowly (so far, I've been eating on if for about 30 minutes) while I cover the receptionists desk at work.
For dinner: Chicken caccitore over pasta and a salad. I put it in the slow cooker last night and started cooking it when I left this morning. Now, after Curves and the elliptical this evening, I can just enjoy dinner. I'm excited!!!
I've already downed 40oz of my necessary 48oz of water. I'm going to aim for half of my body weight, which would be... 117oz. YIKES! That does seem like a lot, but I'll get there.
I'm okay during the week staying on points. It's the weekends that KILL me and my weight loss efforts. I was fine all last week. I even earned quite a few APs. I'm pretty sure those APs saved my weekend. Otherwise, I binged on fatty high calorie foods this weekend. Ugh. We're staying home this weekend to get the apartment organize and cleaned, so I'm going to use this week as my jumpstart week
I only lost 0.8 at weigh in on Monday. I STILL weigh more now than when I started WW at the beginning of July. But, based on my previous 1.4 pound gains each week, I'd say weighing less than a pound more than when I did at the beginning of August is an achievement in itself.
My new goal is to lose ten pounds in August. I've got 9.2 more to go!
Oh, and TOM is here. I'm pretty sure maybe that effected my weigh in. I wouldn't know since this is my first TOM in like three months. When I gain a lot of weight quickly, my body stops working. I can say I definitely didn't miss having him here, but I'm glad my body has started to work right again!
Much love. Oh, and I'm always lurking. I need to get better about posting.I'll get into the groove-- don't worry.
Seriously. The past few days have been hell. My body is got so used to eating so much, and then part of me just didn't feel caring. So I didn't. For the past week now I have eaten whatever and how much ever I wanted of EVERYTHING.
But no more!!
Last night, I did the UNTHINKABLE!I ordered clothes too small for me.Bikinis. I know, I know. I'm an avid "do no buy until you can wear" person too, but I needed motivation. And they were on super sale at Victoria's Secret. So I indulged. I'm hanging my favorite where I can see it often so I will want to push myself. I'll post a picture soon.
Also,DBF said he is going to push me harder about working out. He's generally a work out fend, but lately he hasn't been because I don't want to go. He's tired of me whining because he knows I'll appreciate it later. I agree.
So, here's the plan for the next seven days for exercise:
Today: Curves and on hour on the elliptical Saturday: Curves and on hour on the elliptical Sunday: One hour on the elliptical Monday: One hour on the elliptical Tuesday: Curves and on hour on the elliptical Wednesday: Curves and on hour on the elliptical Thursday: Curves and on hour on the elliptical Friday: Curves and on hour on the elliptical
My menu plan will be posted on Monday for the rest of the week. I need to stay on top of this. We're having steak, mashed sweet potatoes, a salad, and broccoli for dinner tonight. Tomorrow night we're spending the night at DBF's parents house so we can go to church with them tomorrow. Sunday... will probably be chicken parmigiana over whole wheat noodles with a salad. We'll see how many points I have left then.
Okay, so I have a plan... now time to implement it.
GOAL:Lose 12.2 pounds by August 17th. I have three weeks. I think with hard work and perseverance, I can do it. I'll keep you updated every weigh in how close to goal I am.
