New Beginnings

Hi my lovely EPers--

So, yesterday, I started back on WW... AGAIN. I'm determined for this to be the final time.

In conjunction with WW, I am also doing the Beck Diet Solution (BDS), as well as ensuring that I get at least 35 grams of fiber a day and that I eat every three hours. The BDS is going to change the way I think about food and weight loss so that I can keep losing and eventually maintain my goal weight when all is said and done. I have also read several accounts of how getting in at least 35 grams of fiber helps your digestive system and ultimately rids you of more waste quicker. And lastly, I recently read that eating every three hours helps you keep a high metabolism and will help you lose fat quicker than eating further apart. I'm not sure if this aspect of eating every three hours is true, but I do know that I am more satisfied the more often I eat. I no longer concentrate on when I'm going to eat again, starve myself for long periods of time to splurge on a 15 point dinner (which I may do once a month or so), etc. It's just a healthier more fulfilling way to eat.

I've stayed on the above four combined programs yesterday and so far today. I woke up and felt so much better about my body with just one day of staying on play. I need to focus on why I want to get to my goal and every time I think I need or crave something to remember the important reasons why I actually don't need that food and focus on doing a different activity to make the craving go away.

It's important that I stay committed to my weight loss efforts this time around (and well, for the rest of my life) because I'm quickly approaching my last year in college. Upon graduation, I will be getting a new job, possibly becoming even more serious with my boyfriend, and will start searching for new friends. When applying and interviewing for jobs, I know that subconsciously interviewers are more likely to pick the skinnier candidate; if things to progress with my boyfriend, I want to look good for all those moments we have together, and if they don't... well, at least I'll be looking good for the next guy around the corner. And even though I'm an outgoing person who is typically never shy in most situations, I know that when I start to make friends with coworkers and neighbors, that I don't want to feel like the first thing they notice is my weight. I no longer want to be self conscience about my weight. It has been a road block to too many other opportunities in my life. While my health and ultimately my weight will always be on the front burner (sucks, doesn't it?), I don't want it to take up the whole stove. I want to be able to live my life without constantly thinking that when my boyfriend squeezes my side that he is gauging how fat I am, or when I try on clothes, I don't have to fear going into the plus size section, and even more so, when I go out of town or country that strangers do no think I'm pregnant.

I want to be healthy for me. I want to enjoy my life. Are you enjoying yours?

I am going back to WW meetings tonight. I'm not going to miss a meeting (barring they are closed and my cruise in December) until I hit goal weight. There are no excuses. It's a Tuesday night. Nothing goes on a Tuesday night. Wait, let me rephrase that... The ONLY thing that goes on during a Tuesday night is my Weight Watchers meeting.

So... Now that I've given you my "time to lose weight, no other chances" rant... here's what's gone on today:

Brekkie (10am):

• Fiber One Cereal (1/2 cup) 0pts
• Cheerios Oat Cluster Cereal (2/3 cup) 2pts
• Silk Light (6 oz) 1 pt

TOTAL: 3 pts

Lunch (1pm):

• Spring mix lettuce (1 cup) o pts
• Radishes (3 small) 0 pts
• White onion (2 slices) 0pts
• Grilled chicken (1/2 breast) 3 pts
• Light ranch dressing (2 tbsp) 2 pts
• Raisins (20 g) 1 pt

TOTAL: 6pts

Snack (4pm):

• Double Fiber bread (2 slices) 1pt
• Skippy Peanut Butter Extra Crunchy (1 tbsp) 2.5 pts
• Blackberry jelly (1 tbsp) 0 pts

TOTAL: 3.5 pts

So, far so good. I also went to the gym today. 31:05 minutes on the weight loss course on the elliptical, which burned 354 calories. I'm going to go slow with working out. I think before I would quit early on in the game because I expected too much out of myself and when I didn't achieve it, I just quit. So, slow and steady wins the race.

I already have dinner planned out. I'm hoping to get the chance to blog again after my WW meeting, so I can update my weight, etc.

Until next time!
XOXO